Still Changing

Dec 06, 2010

I took some positive steps to get my head together.  First, I had a heart to heart talk with the family member who had been unsupportive for a couple of months.  It was emotional and difficult.  It felt unresolved in the moment.  However, the next day that person had a complete change of heart.  I am hopeful again.  This relationship is very important.

I also found a new counselor.  With my childhood issues, I have some pretty specific needs, so I decided to see a psychologist when I usually prefer social workers.  I also chose a male over a female because that would be a new dynamic.  And, I don't know if I like him.  I am going to give him one more appointment, then make my decision, but things aren't looking too good for him.  However, I have another person in mind if this doesn't work out.  I clearly need counseling and I am going to do this for myself.

Oh, and I'm also still losing weight.  Despite Thanksgiving, where I neither overindulged nor deprived myself, I still lost four pounds when I got home.  Exercising has been a challenge with a busy holiday schedule, but I am getting some in, not nearly enough, though.

Non Scale Victories:  
     *I can cross my arms like a normal person.  Love that how that feels!
     *I can sit comfortably in a crowded auditorium.
     *I'm wearing heals again
     *My husband's arms can reach all the way around me, past touching in the middle.  :-)
     *My cousin didn't recognize me at first when I visited for Thanksgiving.

It's good to be alive.  It's better to feel alive.  It's fantastic knowing that this will continue.  All my best to those of you who read my blog.  You're so important to me.  Best wishes to you on your journey.  God bless.

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