Not WLS related...

Mar 25, 2012

Today was a very emotional day.  Less than a week after my Grandfather's funeral I went to visit my Grandmother in the hospital today.  It became very clear to me that she is nearing the end of her life once I realized she was talking to every relative that ever passed away.  She was having a grand time pointing out all of the dead people in the room and had no idea who I was.  She is very confused and disoriented and she was howling my grandfather's name over and over again begging to go to him.  The person I loved is no longer in that weak, feable body.  Her spirit is gone and it's time for me to say goodbye.  So that's what I did.  I said goodbye to my last surviving grandparent today.  I have been crying for over a week now and it's starting to get exhausting.  I think the hardest part is losing them both so close together.  Even though grandma's heart is still beating (thanks to a pacemaker), she is no longer there.  The grief is unbearable sometimes and I just want to sleep all the time, but I know that's not possible.  They lived great, long, loving lives and I know they will be at peace once they are together again. 

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