VOLUPTUMISS1223
what a wreck
Mar 16, 2010
Feel like an emotional wreck lately!!!!!!!!!!! I am 24 years old... with a tool that is going to help me jump start a new life... why am I miserable????? I have not been to the gym in weeks! YES I SAID WEEKS! 2 to be exact! I have had such a lack of motivation! This has been going on for a month now! I need some motivation. I have had such a hard time trying not feel sorry for myself lately but all I do is sit back and say... well you are a good person...and you dont deserve to be mistreated... yet I allow myself to be mistreated over... and over again... its like a neverending ride... BUT IM SOOOOOO READY TO GET OFF!!!!!!!! As you all know my boyfriend and I of 5 years broke up a few months ago. Right before my surgery... and now that we arent together...hes doing the things I wish he would have done when we were together... for example.... I am an outgoing person... I like to party... be around people... he is the opposite.. he is content watching sports all day... typical male... anyway... when we were together he quit drinking... said it was bad for his body... so when Id ask him to come out with me his response was... I dont drink anymore so it probably wont be that fun...so we wouldnt go... WELL he drinks and parties all the time now.... hmmm wat else... OH... one day... he didnt have his son with him so it was just the 2 of us...I was all excited because rarely do we get "us" time... so anyway we got our time and I was all excited.... WHY did he sit on the couch and play his video game... and me... I sat on the couch and played a game on my phone. When I said lets do something together... he said " what do you mean we are doing something together" ! THIS IS JUST A VENT BLOG... Why do I evern care about this guy so much!!!!??? He makes it clear life is GRAND with me gone so... WHY AM I NOT AT THE GYM! WHY AM I NOT RUNNING! WHY... AM I NOT LOSING THIS WEIGHT!!!!!! I have made every excuse in the book as to why I cant go... So... sorry for just ranting... I had to get it out... Im gonna go tomorrow! LOL
