Another Yearly Checkup!

Mar 07, 2010

Wow, It's amazing what happens in life in a year. I got married in September of 2009 to a great man who understands who I was, and who I am.

But sadness: I've gained weight back!!! Not much- but in February of 2009, I got laid off, and over 9-10 months, buried my sorrows in bags of Cheetos. Sigh. Now I'm back in the saddle after gaining about 20 lbs from being wooed and being laid off. I joined weight watchers as a means to relearn how to eat (since now I eat pretty much everything, no restrictions). I follow the points plan, and have lost 6.2 of the 20 extra lbs I've gained, in only 1.5 months. Its amazing the ability I have since my RNY to become a normal woman again. At my highest weight, I was 310 lbs. I look back at the pictures I posted on OH, and I'm astounded. I never thought I was that big. I was so unhealthy. Now, even with the extra couple lbs, I can run, hike, swim, and shop at regular stores! I found a life partner that loves me, and finally a career that I can enjoy.

My weight will always be an issue with me. I will never stop trying to improve. But After seeing how far I've really come, I am no longer going to compare myself to other RNY'ers who are thinner, the skinny couture girls in the city, or any other person. I finally feel beautiful, regardless of the number on the scale. This is the feeling that I waited for. This is worth the pain, the suffering, the hair loss, the foaming, the diahreah, EVERYTHING. I finally feel whole.  

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