workingsahm
The real pre-op liquid diet
May 02, 2009
Today I begin day 6 of the pre-op liquid diet, which I am following faithfully. I don't know at this point how much weight I have lost because I haven't been near a scale since Thursday. At that point it was 5 pounds. I don't feel like I have lost any more, but I guess I will see on Monday.It's actually not as difficult as I expected it to be. I see lots of temptation all around me, but I have manage to avoid indulging. I have been using the Viactive calcium chews at the end of the day as a sort of "treat". I felt a little guilty yesterday when we went to visit the in-laws and picked up a couple of pizzas and a salad on the way....the salad had Italian dressing instead of the lemon juice and fat-free raspberry dressing I have been using. I thought that was probably more fat than I should have but the only alternative I had was what was in my mother-in-law's refrigerator, which wasn't any better.
I ordered 4 books to read for support. Right now, I am reading, "It Ain't Over 'Til the Thin Lady Sings" by Michelle Ritchie. I'm finding very helpful and it gives lots of practical advice and ideas from someone who has been through exactly what we're all going through...AND she is an addictions counselor!
I'm still waiting for one of the books to arrive, "The Taming of the Chew". That was the one I was most looking forward to getting based on the reviews so hopefully that will be here in a day or two. I will give reviews of all the books as I read them.
I decided to buy the books because I have to be successful at this. I cannot go through surgery to lose weight only to gain it back again as I have in all of the previous weight loss attempts. I am so afraid of failure.
While reading the current book, I'm wrapping my mind around the idea that what's really going on in my life is a food addiction. As I go along with the liquid diet, I'm developing a better awareness of physical versus mental/emotional hunger. I'm finding I have more time and energy to do work around the house. I divert my attention from food and into activities, and reading is one of the diversions I use.
Those who are reading this probably are unaware of the fact that my husband is a recovering alcoholic. We've been together for going on 15 years so I have gone through the good, the bad and the ugly with him...and his addiction. I am amazed at how similar our coping skills are! No wonder we work so well together! Anyway, now that he is finally in recovery and has been for over a year, I no longer need to use food to cope with so many of the roller coaster emotions I had for so many years. I began considering surgery when he was about hitting bottom. I'm so glad I decided to wait until now. We've dealt with so much baggage over the past year and a half that now I'm finally in a place where I can deal with MY problems.
I haven't been able to make it to group for a few weeks because Jeff, my husband, has started a trap-shooting league. I encouraged him to go ahead with this although the days and times conflicted with group because I wanted to support him as much as I could in his recovery and finding sober activities that he enjoys.
I miss group and will do my best to get there a few times after surgery, which is May 12th, as possible. Unfortunately, I'm afraid there will be a timing conflict for the next few months so I won't be able to attend regularly again until the fall. I'm going to look for other groups that meet at times that don't conflict with his plans in the meantime...any suggestions????
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About Me
Berkshire, NY
Location
34.8
BMI
Surgery
05/12/2009
Surgery Date
Feb 29, 2008
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