yankeeblue08
HIya! A bit about myself. I'm 46 yrs old and I'm happily married to a wonderful man that I met about six years ago...he is the love of my life! (my second marriage) It just keeps getting better every day!! I have lived in Roseville, MI for about 22 years in the same house! I grew up in Port Huron on the water...oh how I miss the lakes and rivers!
I'm about 5'5" tall and weigh close to 300lbs. I have been heavy since I was about 19 years old. I put on 60 pds with my first child, and kept 40 of it, then another 50 with the second child and kept about 30 of that. Then there was the 40 pd increase when I got divorced, and then recently another 40pds when I quit work and stayed home for the past five years. I can document my weight gain, and also the times I have tried to take it off, over and over and over again...only to gain it back and more. It seems I have been on a diet of some kind for most of my life. I get so depressed and the denials start to show up when I am dieting...how come so and so can eat that, and I can't? well, that's all it takes and I'm off and eating again.
Don't get me wrong...I eat because I LOVE and adore food. Food is comfort for me...the best friend a person can have...and a silent killer of the worse kind.
Lately, my world has almost come to a stop. My weight has finally taken over my life. Before, it never got in the way, and I felt thin inside...but now... the negatives out number the positives. Here are some of the reasons I want this surgery: I cannot put on shoes and socks without help. How many times have you worn slip on tennis shoes in the winter with no socks because it's too hard to bend to put anything else on? Or worn slippers most of the time because the swelling of your feet don't show and don't hurt as much in them. Slip on shoes are the only kind that fit anymore. And don't even think of going into the ladies section to buy shoes! OH no!! ladies shoes are for those slim long feet, not for the wide chubbies!! Over to the men's section for you!! Ah yes, the attractive men's shoes...but hey...they do fit!! What's a heel?
And of course, my favorite negative of all...not being able to comfortably fit into just any bathroom!! I have to have room around the toilet...room to spread out!! Handicap stalls, here I come!! come on..you know what I am talking about!!
Squeezing tightly into booths, and praying no one is looking when you try to get out and get stuck.
Not going to concerts or any place public that has stadium type seats, cause we all know how tiny they make them!! Airplane rides? Window seat and a seat belt extender please!! leave the dirty look at the curtain, miss stewardess!!
The fear of falling and not being able to get back up, never being able to get down on the floor for anything, never being able to pick up anything off of the floor because your stomach is too big and in the way!!
Snoring! Sleep apthena! High Blood pressure!!
I rarely leave the house any more...there is always someone who will go and do my shopping or I buy it online. Its just easier not to have to worry about getting dressed in clothes that are too tight or hurt or just look like crap!!
This past weekend I didnt attent a wedding where I knew all the guests..former friends and acquaintances...the reason? because I was ashamed for them to see me at this weight.
I have hidden for many years now, and they would be shocked. All this is my weight taking over my life. I want my life back!!! This is war!!
October 3, 2005 The first step in this war......finding this website and researching and learning from all the wonderful people here. Although I have been reading and checking out this surgery for about a year, but nothing really serious until now. I know of a couple people that have had this surgery, although I haven't seen them in years to talk to them about it. Now, I am reading and reading everything here and trying to decide what is best for me...which hospital, which surgeon, and which surgery? ds or rny? All I can do is research, and more research! So much to learn.... Next step...insurance, does it or doesn't it?
October 5, 2005 YES!!! my insurance covers the Gastric Bariatric Surgery!! I have a $250 deductable first, then insurance pays 90% of the surgery with my 10% maximizing at $2750. Of course, I have to have the usual requirements of medical exam,comorbids, surgical eval, history of past diets, and psych eval. this is not a problem, as I have already talked with my general doctor about this subject. WooHOo!! Step two taken...baby steps, baby steps... The hospital by us is Henry Ford Bi-County and has a bariatric wing. They are having a seminar next week on the 12th. I am hoping to attend with my husband. He is still a bit wary of this operation and not at all sure he wants me to have it. Hopefully, the seminar will help him with his doubts.
my Hobbies are talking online with my virtual reality friends in Vzones, chatting with my lil sis on a daily basis, camping up north at our camper trailer, and anything Las Vegas! We go every year. I love the city for fun and excitement, and the slot machines too! I have two cats whom I adore. Nacho and Figgy. Nacho has had a few surgeries, so he is my cuddle buddy! Two wonderful children, my beautiful Nurse's Assistant daughter, age 23 and my funny and handsome senior in high school, son, age 17.
And our faith and love for our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ....whom all things are possible.
JANUARY 13, 2009
Ok, so it's been awhile since I have been here and wrote that introduction on me. It's 4 years later, I'm now 49, almost 50!! LOL
I've gained more weight (((Sigh))) and I'm a grandma!! My daughter gave me the wonderful present of a beautiful, perfect little boy named Joey Samuel! He is the love of my life. When he says, "hi Nana!" my heart immediately melts and I will do anything he says. He makes my life so complete. Grandchildren really are the highlight of your life. I babysit him once a week during the day while his mom works, and I really enjoy our time together. He is so much fun and so polite for a two year old. He is the reason I want to really get my life back in order so I can not only live longer for him, but to be able to get down on the floor to play cars with him. It's hard explaining to a two year old that you can't play because you can't lay on the floor and make the cars race. He just keeps asking, "why?" when I say, "because nana is too big", he lovingly replies...."no, nana, you not too big, you just right." God, I love that child!!
Sign me up for the surgery!!
