my clothing issues

Mar 13, 2011

I've struggled with this issue . I felt bad that I have lost so much weight, but yet, I am still wearing most of my same clothes. yes, I did have to buy new undies and bras, but I am wearing the same shirts and pants. They are baggie on me, and that feels wonderful!! to go from clothes that were tight and embarrassing, to clothes that hang on me, just makes me feel small and thin. I feel like I have accomplished something by wearing the big clothes. Plus they feel like wearing a comfy pair of sweats. something I could never do before. I would come home and immediately take my clothes off and put on a housecoat of some kind because clothes used to feel so bad to me. everything was tight, uncomfortable and made me feel so fat.
Plus, I also cant understand why I have lost so much weight, yet I am not in the smaller sizes like so many here seem to be. I know of a couple people that were my size and now wear size 18 or so.. I lost 100pds and Im still a size 26. that's still a big size, granted smaller than when I was in the 30s..I dont know my real size because I only bought clothes that ended in X..like 4X was my shirt size before. I now wear a 2X shirt and 1X pants.  that's down two sizes in my tops and one size in my pants.
My kids have told me to wear smaller clothes now.. I just can't seem to let go of the big sizes..I think in my head, I still think the weight is going to stop or come back, and I see myself as still huge, so I dress the same. I guess it will take time for me to adjust my brain to being a smaller person. I saw pictures from 12 years ago, and I am smaller now than then!! that is awesome! it's hard to change a lifestyle that you are used to. for me, its wearing big fat clothes. they feel secure to me.

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