DAILY LOG Tuesday

B~Scrambled egg (1/4 cup maybe), 4 slices of bacon, 1.5 pieces of toast L~3 oz chicken breast, 4 crackers, 1/4 cup cheddar cheese D~Fried rice microwave meal S~1 oz cheese stick, 1 apple w/1tbs peanut butter, 1/2 cookie (spit most of it out) Calories: 1197 Protein: 76 Carbs: 99 Exercise: Nothing yet, but I MIGHT get on the treadmill later (I don't have a car right now so I can't get to the gym) Mood: Felt guilty all day for the snacking I wound up doing last night. Also felt guilty for not answering the phone this morning, even though I wouldn't have been able to sub with the car in the shop. THEN, I went downstairs to do laundry and didn't hear the school bus come by. About 20 minutes after the bus normally comes, I started to worry and called the school. She had been dropped off! It turns out that she thought I wasn't at home because the car was gone and went to one of the other kids houses without trying to come into the house. After that, the bus driver came by to make sure I had found her, because she was worried and had gotten into trouble for not making sure she could see me when she dropped Caitlin off (they have to watch kindergarten kids), so now I feel bad that she got into trouble. DARN THIS GUILT! Pamela -86

Do you ever notice that one day you eat alot and the next day you could care less about food? I lost track of how much crap I ate yesterday in leftovers from my surprise party.. All I know is I was feeling all bloated and I gained 2 or 3 lbs. Today though- I didn't really care about eating. Breakfast- Protein Hot Cocoa- 80 cal- 15 protein Lunch- didn't eat- wanted a Diet Slurpee instead...so I didn't eat. Snack- Babybel cheese ( 2) 150 cal 14 protein Snack- 1 Serving Animal Crackers- 120 - / 3 protein Snack- S/F Starbuck's Latte - ( yum!!!!) 100 cal for milk?? 8 prot Dinner- 1/2 order Big Boy Chicken & Cheese Quesadilla - guesstimate of 200 cal- and 8-10 grams of protein. very low fat, and yummy- with left overs for later. Could it be that I have only had about 650 caloires and its almost 9:00 pm?? Not a bad day altogether...but the night is young and my stress is high. Little kids little problems, big kids big problems. Under 50 grams of protein though so I will have to figure something out- I am really not hungry though... I hope I take the pounds off I gained- though its probably jus****er weight anyway so I am trying not to stress. Exercise- Still haven't moved my fat arse into Bally's since the day I signed up- not sure why- The weather has been horrible and it affects my arthritis then when I feel better its the weekend and its too intimidating to go there because there are way too many people there. I will have to get my @D%& together on the matter soon, especially since without it my weight loss could grind to a screeching halt. Mood- Having a perimenopausal meltdown I think. I am still on a high from the party my hubby made for me as a surprise for my 50th- but then dealing with the prospect of being 50 and figuring out what to do with the rest of my life. My 22 yr old daughter is trying to push all of my buttons- she is feeling her oats big time- testing all limits, and making me crazy in the process. Honestly I think my doctor is right. I am co-dependent. I must change this unhealthy relationship soon- for my good as well as hers- its exhausting. Nuff for now. Marcy -83

I haven't been feeling well for the last couple of days - sore throat, headache, etc. Yesterday, I really didn't feel like eating much. B: Carb Countdown yogurt and protein powder L: Soy Crisps with cream cheese D: About 40 salad size shrimp and a few more soy crisps/cream cheese S: 4 oz. Carb Countdown milk Totals: 505 calories, 22 carbs, 60 protein No exercise, but I did get in all of my water. Mood: Not feeling well, so I would much rather curl up in bed instead of having to work a full-time job, come home and do laundry, cook dinner for my sons, and all of that stuff..... Poor me (where's my violin??) Hugs, Nancy -96