Disappointed with a 130 lbs weight loss??? You're doing great! Don't forget where we were 8 months ago. You were carrying around another adult!! The head hunger is a nasty demon. There are days I feel like a REAL whimp and failure. BUT, I have learned this tool allows me to forgive myself and regain control. When the head hunger hits, stop and reach for protein. I find the head hunger hits me when I've allowed myself to eat the cracker, cereal, etc. As soon as I fill up the pouch with some dense protein, the demons settle down. Hang in there! Just focus on where we might be 8 months from NOW?!?! From one loser to another, Beth

Leslie, I continue to think of you often and add you to my prayers. I wish you all the best, and let's get these roids to give you some comfort! Take Care Katie

130 pounds is nothing to be disappointed about! I think you are doing a fantabulous job. Lately I have been on a stall and cannot seem to get moving, but when I think where I was 8 months ago to where I am now, well it doesn't compare. As for the head hunger, I go thru that as well as my bad habit of automatically opening the fridge door looking for food. Bad habits are hard to break. Keep up your good work, take each day as it comes and do not worry, you will start losing more. Doreen

Well, my doctor's plan was to wait until at least next month to begin the steroids. But I have been in so much pain and stiffness that I am having to start them early - today. I wish I could say that I am so upset about this, but to be honest, right now, I am in so much freaking pain that I am GLAD to be starting them. I can barely use my right arm. My wrist, fingers, and elbow are SOOOO inflammed. Just to give you an idea of how bad this is - I can't even lift the gallon of milk about of the fridge with my right hand. I can't pull the laundry out of the washing machine with my right hand. I never realized how dependent we are on our joints until this last week. Everything from making my girls cups of milk to doing laundry, to trying to vacuum. . .ALL of these things involved the joints. It hurts to even try to blow dry my hair. My leg hurts so bad that when I tried to drive the 25 minutes to walmart, my right hip and knee were killing me. I had to have my mom drive my daughter to her dr's appointment b/c my leg and hip just couldn't take it. I missed my appointment with the Pain Management clinic b/c I was hurting too badly to make the drive (it's about an hour away in OKC). Tel me how much sense THAT makes!!! LOL LOL It's kind of ironic if you think about it. In too much pain to go to a pain management clinic! LOL So, I probably will bummed out about the steroids when I have a moon face and can't zip my pants, but right now, I don't care. I just want the pain to stop. Oh, and I do have one good thing to share - I can fit into size 14 now!!!! A friend gave me a pair of size 14 shorts and I couldn't beleive it - but they did fit!!! woohooo! Anyway, thank you very much for your friendship and circle of care. I really don't know what I'd do without all of you. I feel so isolated and lonely right now. I've just got to be better. And I truly believe that all the prayers and well wishes I've received from all of you are helping. ((( HUGS ))) Leslie

HI Tracey, Thanks for the well wishes. I'm sorry it took me so long to reply - I've had a rough few days. My mother is a certified massage therapist and a Registered Nurse. She has tried massage therapy on me, and I cry in pain. It hurts SOOO bad. I have had some limited relief with cranial sancral and myofacial release. It can release the spasm, but it doesn't work for very long - a day at the most. And then everything spasms up again. Thanks for the info and prayers! Leslie