Hi Amy, I had a very similar experience. When I was finished crying in the bathroom, I thanked God for saving me from myself. Went back to the table, and ate the ff cheese stick I had brought with me. Now I try to look on line at the nutrition information at the restaurant we may want to go to. I wasn't able to do that once, but asked if they had nutrition info. they brought me a store copy and I found that there were a few things I could eat that I would not have known about just by looking at the menu. Best wishes to you. You will be fine. God bless you, Annette

Janet; Thanks for your kind words. I guess because I was able to have surgery to fix how my body metabolizes and processes food to help me become a more "normal" weight, I was hoping that everything about me would become right as a result of WLS. How's that for projecting? I was literally sitting at my desk in tears as I wrote my initial post. I did take a dose for today and based on my behavior of the past few weeks realize that it will just have to remain part of my every day routine along with all the new routines of vitamins and supplements. Blessings, Jennifer

Dawn; It doesn't crush because of the coating. I tried that the day after I had the one get stuck. It will break in two pieces fairly clean and easy, so that's what I was doing before I got the brilliant idea about a month ago that I didn't need it. I could try breaking it into 1/4s. I hadn't thought of that before. (Too close to the forest to see the trees I guess...) Thanks for your kind words. Blessings, Jennifer

Amy; You are doing absolutely amazing! I know what you mean about the image issues. I don't really recognize my face in the mirror anymore. It kind of freaks me out. I haven't had any of the issues of mourning food. The best thing is you are realizing your issues and dealing with them. Are you attending any in-person support groups? Those can be a great help in the food greiving process. Blessings, Jennifer 253 / 187 / ???

Hey Jennifer, I am really glad you finally broke down and told someone. One of the hardest things in the world to do is say "hey guess what I screwed up". It is excellent that you realise that you need the medication..... there are many people who just wouldn't take it and expect the whole world to just "learn to deal" with their inappropriate behavior. Although, I am wondering why you say you are "trying to manage and accept that this is the only way I will be near "normal." I am not sure what you think "normal" is, but in your posts and replys you have seemed pretty OK to me. The world is full of people, on medication for a million diffrent things, am I not normal because I have PCOS and take Glucophage? I doubt you would say so. Get back on your meds, relax and cut yourself some slack. **hugs** Janet