Let down again!!!

Well here we go again!!! Another let down!!! I called Dr.Eagon`s office in MO.and the lady I talked to told me to call the weight management office and talk to the lady there.She will be able to tell me everything I need to do,everything I won`t need to do and she`ll tell me if I need to come back to her at Dr. Eagons office.So I called a few mins.ago.First off,I didn`t know there was a difference between medicaid and the Dept.of Public Aid.I thought it was all the same.So,Illinois Dept.of Public Aid is the insurance I have.The lady asked me what types of weight loss attempts have I done.She wouldn`t accept that I have been on a percription diet pill for the last year.That is not concidereto be a weight loss attempt?I`ve went thru this for a year just to say I`ve done the weight loss attempt and it`s not going to be accepted?She said they need things like a certain calorie a day diet plan that I`ve been on thru my pcp or a nutritionist,for 3 months.Then she asks me what medical problems I have.I told her,diabetes,hbp/colesterol,osteo arthritis,degenerative disk disease but when I said hiatal hernia she stopped me right there and said I do not qualify for the lapband procedure,that she doesn`t know about other surgeons or facilities but they there,will not do the lapband on someone that either has ,has had,a hi-hernia or has had surgery to repair a hi-hernia. From all the research I`ve done,not one time have I heard anything of this.I read that the surgeon could repair a hiatal hernia as he was going in to do the lapband.And she said that I would have to have the gastric by pass.There`s NO WAY I`m having that! It`s lapband or nothing.The lapband is what I decided on and that`s what I want.I tried not to get my hopes up but it`s so hard not to.So I`ve been knocked off my dream cloud again.Back to the drawing board.Why does this keep happening to me?All I need is ONE surgeon,that does the LapBand,and accepts IL.Dept.of Public Aid.That`s it! I`m not getting my hoipes up anymore! Everytime I think I`ve found what I`ve been looking for My hopes & dreams of getting this weight off me gets smashed.I`ll keep looking I guess,But I won`t get my hopes up anymore.Now I will be depressed all day. I`m sorry for being such a downer,but I have no one to talk to.I don`t talk to my husband because he has the same reaction to everything.None,blank,oh oh whatever.But Thanks for letting me vent. I hope everyone is having a good day today.Stay cool in this heat. Kim