Update on me

Hey everyone.Sorry I havn`t been on in a couple of months.I`ve been having health problems & can`t sit in this chair too long at a time.Plus I quit  on Sept.2nd.Well,lets say I "started"quitting.The first 3 weeks were absolutely horrible.Who ever says the worst is the first few days,& it gets better after a few days is W R O N G!!! I cheated & had 1 to 2 a day the first week.Then I had 1-2 every other day then went on Nicoderm CQ.I went thru pure hell!!! I went thru every emotion I had.I got depressed,I cried,I had the shakes at least 2 times a day.I got mad at my husband & brother every time they went outside & cried some more.And told my husband it`s not fair that you can go outside & have one and I`m sitting here trying to quit and want one so bad I`d almost sell a kidney for one.After the 2nd week he quit.   I had an upset stomach on & off thru the day every day for about the first week.And I ate.And ate.AND ATE and ate some more.In 29 days I put on 9 pounds!!!I did the sugar free candy & gum,& water but there are only so many sweets I can handle.I have no teeth so I can`t do the fresh vegies,which I miss.Si I ate salads,soups & in between I ate everything elas I could get my hands on.I couldn`t stop myself.I slept a lot,did jigsaw puzzlez,I thought I was going to go crazy.I started the patch on step 2 for a week then started cutting them in half(your not suppose to)but when you`re as poor as me you`ll do what you have to.Then my mom come up with some generic patches without the nerve medication in it,step 2 & 3.I went one day with 1/2 nicoderm patch  the next day with a generic patch.I am proud to say that I am now on my 5th day patch free.I never thought I would get off those things.But I did.I am still going thru cravings about every other day at certan times but it`s not as bad now.It will be a long time untill I won`t crave them at all,but it will get easier.But at last I can say that I it in the BUTT.hehe.Now on the WLS.My husband and I leave on Amtrak in the morning headed for ****ro which is where his grandparents live.I have a consult with Dr.Ayloo Friday.And she`s within walking distance from where my grandparent n laws live.I soooo hope she goes ahead and sts a date Friday for my surgery.I`ll update you all when I get back Saturday afternoon.   My one and only child turned 14 yesterday.I was a complete mess.I get worse with every birthday.All he talks about is getting a work permit,a job and saving for a car for when he gets his license.He went out last week and put in some applications.I can`t believe they let them work at that age.Anyway,I got to get off her and get my work finished and get my stuff packed.Take care everyone,have a great 3 days and I`ll post when I get back. <--I can`t wait to be that thin KimberlyB

Good luck on the date.  As for quitting smoking, hang in there, you can do it.  I quit 4 years ago(October 10), because I was having a hysterectomy and it was my first surgery, and I was scared to death, so I did everything that the doctor told me to do.  I quit a week before the surgery, and had planned on starting back up right after the surgery, but when I went to the hospital to have my pre-op tests done, there was this lady standing outside in her hospital gown with her IV pole smoking a cigarette.  I told my husband that it looked pathetic and decided that I was not going to start up again.  I quit cold turkey and just stayed away from everyone for the first week.  I was a b@#@#!!!!!!!!!  Anyway, just try not to think about it.  I know it's hard because your husban smokes, but hang in there.  Just tell yourself that you don't want to die young from lung cancer or some other disease caused by smoking.  You'll feel better and breath better.  How long have you smoked?  I smoked for 25 years.  If I can do it, so can you!  Good Luck!!!   Keep everybody posted.

Hi  denisemrozek.Thanks for the support and good words.Oh I know I can do it now.It was the first 3 weeks that bout drove me crazy.My husband quit after my 2nd week of quitting.I told him he was a sucky a-- jerk because he has not complained,whined,or griped one single time.lol.No the one thing that finally motivated me enough to quit is having WLS.If you smoke most Doctors won`t do the surgery.I don`t want ANYTHING to keep me from having it.I`ll definately keep everyone posted.Have a good night.                                                                                                                               KimberlyB

((hugs)) Sorry your going through a rough time latley. but congrats on your surgery. I use to live in  ****ro when I was a baby. I pray it goes wonderful for you.

Thanks.Well I`m hoping once I get this surgery done and the weight comes off,a lot of my medical problems will just be gone and what doesn`yt go away will be greatly improved.I`m in so much pain every day now.Thanks for the prayers.I need all I can get.

KimberlyB

I understand totally. I hurt most of the time anymore too. It sucks. I pry we both feel better soon.

Kimberly, It tskes a lot of willpower to quit smoking, and a million reasons to keep smoking. I smoked for 40 years or a bit more, when I was having problems with my voice and swallowing, The doctor told me that I needed surgery on my voice box, and I needed to quit smoking NOW! Well, I am half German and Half Russian, and noone is going to tall me what to do!Anyway, that was 5 years ago, and I still don't smoke. And you know the funny thing, I  don't miss it. I think I was ready to quit, but was to stubborn to admit it. Plus look at the bright side, besides making you heathy, it will keep you from spending the money on them. At 35.00 a carton and 1 carton a week, you are going to save $1820.00 in a year.  Good luck friday at the dr.'s

Yes it dos take a lot of willpower to quit.I`ve tried to quit dozens of times thru my life.I started smoking when I was 12 and I will be 42 next month.i`ve been noticing problems with my voice being horse.within the last year or two,and for no reason at all,so I thought,my throat would get sore for a day or two.It would hurt to swallow,then it would go away.I am so glad I finally kicked the habit.My body misses the nicotene and probably will for some time but I don`t miss them.Yeah I smoked the cheap ones.I ordered them by phone in Kentucky and they came by mail.Every month I would order 4 cartons at 8.99 a carton plus delivery.I thought I would have that money to put back for something special.But?No?Not for me!!! There`s always something needed around here.Mainly food.Anyways,I thank you all very much for your kind and incouraging words and your support.Now I`m going to shut down my computer for the time I`m gone.I will talk to you all Saturday evening hopefuly.Take care everyone. KimberlyB