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When I was young, I heard a John Denver song lyric that said, "it turns me on to think of growing old...".  I didn't understand it at the time but it stuck with me.  Now I'm 44 years old and I love being who I am.  I'm smart, basically successful in my career, have a great family and a nice home (and a new car!!!).  I've been all over the world and I've gone down many roads I never imagined I'd go down.  I've loved several women, and ended up with the best of them.  And I see my eyes in the face of a nineteen month old miracle who calls me daddy.  But along the way, I went bankrupt, lost my highschool sweetheart to divorce, had a car repossed, lost many jobs and slept a few nights in used cars for lack of rent.  I've cried many tears and gained thousands of pounds.  Developed a disease that would have put me in the grave within 7 years if not for my recent success with WLS (diabetes).  But today I'm alive and living amongst miracles, angels and friends (you).  The most exciting part of it all is that today is the first day of thousands to come!  I have no clue about tomorrow, but I see where I've come from and where I'm at and it thrills me to know that I can't even begin to imagine what might be coming!  I hold absolutely no regrets about yesterday because that's how I got here!  I'll end with a song lyric (I wrote over 20 years ago), "Yesterday is only a faded memory and tomorrow is always a promise away.  But in this moment of love, we've got today...".  I can't say who you will end up becoming, that's yours to choose.  But I can say welcome to the dance!  Paul P.S.  It turns me on to think of growing old...

Okay Paul you did it...you brought tears to my eyes. I think that it is so amazing that the people on this board really care about each other. Even though some of us have only met once I can really feel the most sincere words that you wrote. They way that you wrote those words can make us all stop and think about our present and our futures. We are all definitely made stronger by our pasts. I think that sometimes we all need those reminders. Thanks for you words...you just gave me a different perspective on a few things. I'm going to need to find the lyrics to the John Denver song you mentioned..."it turns me on to think of growing old..." When I was in high school I was given a wooden plaque that read.... "Today is the first day of the rest of your life"  somehow I think that can also be applied to our new healthy lives. I love you guys!

Okay, now I'm blushing!  The John Denver song is called "Poems and Prayers and Promises".  The other song is one of my own (I use to write music for my living), and it is called "In This Moment of Love".  If you want those lyrics, just PM me.  As far as hearing that one, you'll have to wait until I'm around with a guitar.  As far as I can remember, I've never recorded it (I may have, but I'm not sure).  It's an old song, but I still think of it often.  By the way, I don't write much these days, but I did just pen an incredible song for my daughter Meredith!!!

Janet, you have friends here and are loved.  Take care of you, that's what this journey's all about baby! PM  me if you need to, I have a lot of  experience with this as well.