Consumed my thoughts

Okay..

Have I lost my mind??

This surgery is consuming my entire thought process.

When I got up out of bed this morning, my first thought was. " I wonder how I will feel when I first wake up from surgery?'

Using the washroom " I wonder if I will be have difficult time cleaning myself"

Getting shower " will I be able to stand in the shower ok, will I be dizzy? "

Not just the daily routine stuff, but when I m at my desk working. In the process of doing a file. I will stop and think about what is will be like walking into surgery?

Am I ready for this change? Can I change how I need to for life after surgery?? I haven't been dieting before Opti, does that mean Im not completely committed?" I actually have gained weight in the last, oh no, does that mean Im not committed.

WHY am I keep on pulling myself over the coals? Why do I keep doubting my commitment? Why do I keep wondering how I will feel and handle life afterwards.

Is this normal? Cause the excitement of surgery coming is gone, its replaced with WTF am I doing!!! Can I do this??

 

 

You are having the 2 week freak out a bit early is all.  It's a huge decision so of course there are going to be a lot of big thoughts involved and lots of doubt.  It's normal to feel this way.  Lots feel nothing and others overthink it all. 

Oh I am known for mind going a mile a minute :(

I do the exact same things, I think this is a normal healthy process. It is scary and exciting all at the same time. One week from today at this exact time I will be in the OR, yikes!!!!!!!

Keep thinking things through, and  don't worry about the pre opti weight gain, I did too. Don't be too hard on yourself about it. it is what it is. look forward and enjoy the sometimes bumpy ride!

Cheers

Terri

Thanks Terri

 

I appreciate that.. Hope you are doing well yourself.

I feel as if you were reading my mind, I could have written this post.

Awwww.. Well Im glad Im not alone.

Totally normal!   It was all consuming in my thoughts and dreams prior to surgery.  Look deep inside- you will know if you made the right decision. Just don't let fear freak you out. You are in good hands with the surgeons.  Dream instead of your new life and what you will do with it! 

I do not have my date yet, soon. But i could have written your post. Thanks because i feel like i'm losing my mind, all i can think about is the surgery. I have gained between 6-8 pounds (it fluctuates) since June and its driving me crazy. I am currently between contracts so i have lots of time on my hand, i definitely need a hobby!!!!

I am probably going to get negative feedback from this post however.

 

women tend to overthink things, everything infact. where men stumble through life reacting to things that happen to us lol. i hope that came out okay.

anway, my point is that your mind is getting away from you and your fear is coming up and making you question what you are doing.

 

you will fine when you wake up. you will be fine when you shower. you will be fine on the crappy liquid diet. you will be fine.

i can understand how you feel. but this decision isnt about the month on opti, its not about the hardship at the hospital. its about making a positive decision that will help you for the rest of your life! that is why you are doing this and why we are all doing this.

your job, our jobs is to push through the fear and make a positive change.

 

i hope that sounded more positive than i think it came out. :) good luck.