Hard on myself?

I have lost 56 lbs since my surgery on July 27 - it went like this... I lost a majority of it right away, then it slowed way down mid-Oct. at 48 lbs. and after 3 weeks, it went to 52 lbs... then another 2 weeks and I'm at 56 lbs... and have been there for now another 2 weeks....
This week have been insane at school (I'm a vocal music teacher K - 12) with Christmas Concerts for work, preparing my 6 hs students to sing with the Philharmonic, rehearsals after school, faculty meetings, church choir cantata rehearsals(I'm the director of that) for the Christmas Eve service, helping my parents finish their decorating (they are 77 and 83), trying to get my own decorating done, and house cleaned ( hasn't happened yet) - living with a constant headache right now and I fell asleep at my desk today while trying to order music for the spring concerts... and to top it off, I have put 2 lbs back on this morning.
I am frustrated that i once again don't feel like I have the time to take care of me again - (which is one of the reasons that I had the surgery) and while I feel better about myself, I want to have time to exercise, etc. - and my life is filled with work so that I can take care of my family (I'm the breadwinner for us - husband is disabled).  
NO PITTY PLEASE (this is my life) - just a question
AM I JUST BEING UNREASONABLE TO EXPECT TIME FOR ME?????  sorry... just needed to vent I guess.

dear God - I sound so damn self-serving.  I'm SO sorry friends.  That wasn't the intention.  Just having a rough day.  again sorry.

deep breath in hold.................exhale.......................deep breath in...........hold....exhale

now didn't that feel better

wow you do have a lot on your plate, itis a busy time of year
the good thing
...you have a job, and it is doing something you love and brings joy to others
.......you have a husband
...........you still have both your parents
..............you have a God and a church to connect to others of like minded faith with

sometimes it is okay to not do it all.
This year I have scaled way back my expectations of myself.
I decorated a little bit every night after work over several weeks, I bought my cookies at the bakery ( one or two of each kind)
I work 3 jobs so there is no downtime here either.
Yet I fit an evening at the synagogue to join the sisterhood for a trivia night--way fun! I have opted for less going out- and more quiet time with the hubby and the last child at home for her Senior year. I have driven home the long way to just drive slowly by some homes with great holiday light displays. I just plain refuse to do anything I do not love this time of year!

lizzianne_2000 please give yourself permission to focus on you for a part of each day. Live is about balance. It sounds like your days of late have been spent on doing instead of 'being'. Get some 'you' time. Get some quiet time with God, and relax. You are on a wonderful life-changing journey. 56lbs is great and you have already added YEARS to your life and quality of life. Bless you and I will pray for you my friend.

No worries! You are in a very busy season especially for work. It will get better once you get through the holidays and you have a little room to breath. Don't worry about those two pounds, you're stressed and it is way better to vent here and let us help you carry the load than keep it all on your own shoulders.

It sound to me like you're making yourself last priority. 

I think what you really need to do is sit down and make a list of what NEEDS to be done versus what would be nice.  The job situation is what it is.  You have to deal with those duties.   IMO, you're creating stress for yourself trying to be all things for all people.

How extensive of a decorating job are you trying to do for your parents?  Is it that serious?

How old are your kids?  Do they have assigned chores?  Is your husband too disabled to help with any of the housework?  Can he sort laundry?  Wash some dishes?  Operate a microwave?

I work full time and I run a household with a husband, two kids and a fat cat.  Trust me, everybody has gotten the memo that I am not the maid.  Everybody knows to pick up after themselves and understands that it is the responsibility of everybody in the household to contribute to keeping things going.

Schedule your exercise, meditation time or whatever else you need on your calendar and have it written in stone.  Work the other stuff around it.  Whatever doesn't get done that day just doesn't get done.  The world will not end. 

Remember taking time for yourself to take care of YOU IS taking care of everbody else.

After WLS surgery we have no choice but take the time we need to plan our meals so we get the nutrition we need.  Also take time to exercise.  Exercise helps relieve stress too.

I hope things well be more settled for you after the holidays.