Getting back on track

Whew! It's pretty crazy being back on OH after being away for so long! And, I am saddened a bit to see my profile pic and tracker - to see where I was - where I had been - and where I know am today. Life.Got.In.The.Way. But, here I am now - ready for a fresh start. Ready to regain my focus, get the weight off that I regained (about 40lbs) and see where I go from there. I have been down the road of beating myself up and, don't worry, I am over that. I know the choices I have made that lead to where I am today. And I have also come to grips with the fact that uprooting from my hometown 3 years ago - and my incredible WLS support system - and schedule/routine - and moving 1000 miles away was difficult and affected my WLS journey more than I ever thought it would. My DH transferred from TX to central IL with his job. I quit mine before the move and was unemployed for 3 months. During that time money was tight so there was no gym membership. But there was an old "friend" named Little Debbie. She and I visited often....too often. I eventually found work and my schedule just has never been what it was before the move. It has been a struggle to find/MAKE the time to exercise. After my surgery I started running and regularly ran 10 miles a week and worked out 4-5 days a week. Suddenly that was gone and over the last few years it has slipped farther and farther away. I can still run a mile and do so occasionally. I found a so-called WLS support group, which consisted of me and a counselor. It wasn't a group but I sorta got free therapy out of it....until the hospital group that funded it ditched the program. I did have need of a band adjustment and was able to find an acceptable bariatric surgeon in my area. (although no one could ever compare to my docs Terive Duperier and Mickey Seger @ BMI of Texas!!!) And, to my knowledge, there are no support groups here in rural central IL. (BMI has/had a WONDERFUL group!) I used to share my story at orientations for my surgeons. I know that had I stayed that plugged in to that I would not have regained weight - or at least not this much. But I also know (now) that I need to know how to do this on my own. I know there are supportive friends out there but I must face the "demons" that still haunt me on this journey. I was always sure to say to prospective patients "WLS is on your stomach, NOT your brain. It is a tool not a fix-all." I really, really, REALLY understand that now. Sorry to be so longwinded in all of this rambling. I have had a few things happen the past few days which have me feeling eager and optimistic about getting back on track. So here I am. I can do this. I have a tool (my band), I have the know-how and I have the desire to see this through! Cannot wait to share my renewed journey with you all!  

Welcome back.  While we know it's hard you have taken the first step to getting back on track.  Here is a great group to join to help with reaching goal again.

Back on Track Together!

http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/backontracktogether/

So sorry about your struggles.

Seems to me you just need to move back to Texas. Just saying😊

Seriously, I wish lots of success!
Remember the Alamo!

LOL! Moving back to Texas is NOT an option and I LOVE LOVE LOVE my Midwest life. But, I suppose there will always be a little Texas in this girl. Thanks for your well wishes. :-)

I know how you feel, I did not move but I had surgery to repair a hernia in March 2013 & in Oct.I had surgery on both feet at the same time. It has been slow going getting over this surgery, I still can't wear most of my shoes. I can wear my tennis shoes & I have been walking a few times since it is warming up.I also have gained weight (50 lbs.) I am so disappointed  in myself, I am having a hard time getting back on track. Then on top of that my sister in law & she was also my best friend died in a house fire along with her Mother in Feb.2014 it's so hard losing a friend especially when it's your only one except my hubby (she lived with us for 4 years.  . Believe me I'm not using any of this as a easy out for gaining weight I did that all by my self. Everyday I plan on getting up & take off walking I still have some pain in my feet but that doesn't stop me from walking I just can't walk as far as I use to. I know I will get back to that if I just get started. Sorry I made this about me didn't mean too, I wish you luck on your weight loss journey. If you ever need to talk just look me up I check in  (haven't been on here in a while) at least every other day. I also have had the same  friend as you have...LOL even though the sweets make me sick it doesn't stop me. But that is over with I'm ready to us my tool RNY & get this done I know I can I just have to get my head in the right placeall I want to do now is what I have do in my house (cleaning, laundry) . Keep me posted  & thanks for listen/reading I really appreciate it. I just needed to share whats in my head I guess...LOL...

WOW! I'm so sorry! That is a lot to go through. I am thankful I haven't had bad/difficult things in my way.... mostly just myself. And that is the root of it all...SELF. I haven't researched the quote to find its author but I often hear in my head "to thine ownself be true". If I (WE) can remember that before shoving something in my mouth I KNOW I shouldn't or when I go back to stinkin' thinkin' (I can't.....I'm not...I'll never...) then I think half of the battle is won. I think it's good to vent and no matter which surgery we chose, all of us who've had WLS are on similar journeys - ones the "real world" just doesn't fully understand. But that's what OH is for, right? To HELP us be successful TOGETHER!!!! What do you say - you ready to do this? 

"To thine own self be true" was Shakespeare. Said by Polonius, in Hamlet. 

Sounds like you've gotten your mind around the issues that have held you back, and you're ready to move forward now. Excellent! Good luck to you!

I'm more than ready to get this done ! I had a nice day today with my hubby. We haven't been to a yard sale in a very long time, because I just didn't want to get out of the house.I really didn't want to go today. But he would not take no for an answer, I'm glad he made me go. It was a beautiful day we found some good bargains of course we got stuff we didn't need ...I even got one of those AB chairs I will be very surprised if it really works. We had lunch at a Chinese place, I did very good I think  I ate protein first then a couple pieces of broccoli & a couple green beans & a little piece of cantaloupe. I was very pleased with my self, I need to drink water more I have picked up my bad habit of drinking nothing but diet drinks. So yes I'm ready to get this weight off  TOGETHER I know we can do this. Any time you need or just want to talk just message me, I'm so happy you replied back to me it's nice to have someone to talk with that is going through the same thing. Do you live in Alabama ? If so what part ? It has been nice talking with you have a good night, and thanks again