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Topic: RE: I took off my underwear!!! Warning Graphic!!!
OMG thats over 10lbs, she was guessing of course but woooo hooooo I might be under 150 yet. Its a miracle.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I took off my underwear!!! Warning Graphic!!!
You know me I am not sparing you lovely people any of the gory details, its all part of the journey so I figure its best to let it all be seen. I like to know what I am getting into myself so seeing pics definately helped me. I was upset my doctor didnt take a pic of my skin like I asked her too, she said she forgot her camera, she said it didnt weigh a whole lot maybe 5 or 6 kilos, shes German so I need to figure out how much that really is. And maybe a 1lb of lipo, I said a pound, I have a good 40 extra pounds you guys should have gone mad. She just laughed.
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Topic: RE: I took off my underwear!!! Warning Graphic!!!
Good for you walking was the best for me after my rny, I was out there every morning, now walking to the bathroom and back is a challenge. I think they might have really sewed me tight cuz I doubt I will ever stand up straight again. lol lol
Keep up the good work, you are doing awesome and the journey is just beginning, its actually a thrill ride if you think about it.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I took off my underwear!!! Warning Graphic!!!
Hey Sweetie,
You just had your surgery how are you doing? I hope eating is going well, the good part about plastics is atleast they let you eat and drink, that was the worst of my rny making me not drink anything for that first day. But it does all get better, or atleast thats what they say. I hope they are right, these stitches behind my ears are killing me.
Love Heidi
Topic: RE: I took off my underwear!!! Warning Graphic!!!
Hey I love you Sis,
I hope everyone can forgive me for being horrible yesterday. I get myself so upset and generally check my comments and yesterday well obviously that didn't happen. So I do apologize again.
As for your knee padding, I think I will be able to fly down and pick you up with my batwings before you fall, cuz after this I am not so sure they are gonna go anywhere anytime soon. Oh well, I have always had the wish to fly. lol lol
Love you
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Topic: RE: I took off my underwear!!! Warning Graphic!!!
Yup I had to see the scar, I know I am just like that but that bloody gauze was getting to me and I don't see the doctor until Monday. Lets just say flat isn't what my tummy is yet. Although they did cut off a ton of my 4.5 inch open rny scar. I now have a big ole new belly button, its not exactly cute, its filled with stitches and I have a pretty low incision from hip to hip, no t cut. My doctor thought the t cut would put my stress on my skin and open me up to possible infection. Hey I said do whatever you guys want to make me look as good as possible, so I am hoping they did. My neck hurts today and is super swollen but not bruised, maybe I will take a pic for you guys to laugh at, my hair is sticking out like I put my finger in a socket. Thankfully I got most of the dried blood out of it yesterday. I have a bunch of blue stiches from my ears to the back of my head. Did I mention this isn't exactly fun. Yeah its really not, but I hope its worth it in the end. I will take pics at the dr appt on Monday so you guys can see what this stuff is really all about. I had to see it for myself before I did it so I think its only fair I show off my icky skin too, and believe me my befores are scary.
Love to all
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: (OT) HELP! our cat is driving me nuts!
LOL My cat is pretty much insane too, he doesn't go out and he really doesnt care I had surgery on Wednesday he still wants to be fed at 5:30am every day. Gesh you would think he would have a tiny bit of compassion seeing as I look so scary with the drain things hanging off me. But I love him all the same and I still do pry myself out of bed and feed him. I have no advice about keeping him off the counters, I hear if you spray them with water that helps but I bet the minute you leave for work hes back up there anyway. I just gave up and admitted my cat is in charge of my world not the other way around, the quicker you admit to it the faster you can get on with your life. Someone suggested a playmate for my cat once, I nearly shot that person, 2 of those cats in the house would probably push me over the edge.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
Marianne,
They can do miracles today and you will be our Christmas miracle, forget cards, we want you back in good health, thats all I want for Christmas, to see you posting that you are well and your health improving.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
Marianne,
My swelling is gonna go away you have to suffer daily, you definately have my sympathy I cant even begin to imagine where you get your strength from. I hope you can get the surgery you need to get all this corrected, it just sounds like spaghetti in there that they have to unravel. I wish I could do something to help you, I hate to see people suffer.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
HI Claudia,
My son is coming up to see me today, I couldnt let him see me with the drains in my face I didnt want to upset him. I am puff but look more normal today although my poor neck is pretty tight and sore. I got a bunch of sweet messages from my son while I was in surgery, I was so thrilled when I woke up and listened to my cell phone, he really is the love of my life.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
Hi Mom,
It doesnt matter what I went through I had no right to hurt peoples feelings, yup I have my way of doing things but god knows its not the right way, so why subject the board to it. I really do feel bad, I love the people here and knowing I hurt them really does hurt me.
Love you
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Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
Moni,
Good luck with the dental stuff, I still won't fix my teeth, I am scared and still won't spend the money on myself. Ugghhhh I do need to get over this stuff. I had taken antibiotics when I was young for my skin and ruined my teeth, the enamal is all gone now and my teeth are just flaking away, its quite bad. I commend you for doing for you, I need to follow your example better, but I am such a creature of habit that I have a hard time putting myself first. I know since I am the boot queen that sounds silly but realistically other then one pair that Doug bought every thing else has been on sale or clearance because spending full price on me is just out of the question. Its not that I dont think I am worthy, or maybe that is the problem, I guess I dont really know.
Love you girl
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: My name is Marianne and I am dying
Marianne,
No matter what we are all going through there is someone going through worse, we all have to be aware of each others pain and suffering and try to understand that if we can do something to lift their spirits we should. I was so upset with myself after Lexington that I didn't do more to try to meet people but I am naturally very shy and meeting for the first time isn't always easy for me. I know I post here endlessly but in real life I have several very close friends and thats it, reaching out has always been hard for me, I always felt like I was different and people wouldnt accept me, thats my mental issue I need to work through. Please if there is anything I can do to ease your burden even a little bit don't hesitate to call on me. If you need a friend email me and I will send my cell phone number.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
To be real honest Moni I have always put everyone before myself, and the fact I had plastics and mortgaged my house to do it was the first real expense I have every undertaken for just me. I guess I don't relate to people so well, I have always thought it was more important to make everyone else happy then myself. I just wanted to see everyone sent a Christmas card and feel some holiday spirit not some pick and choose your friend thing because the list got big. I know money is tight and I agree ecards are probably a great idea, we should do them all that way in the future then no hurt feelings at all and everyone can participate equally. I know I hurt feelings but to be honest I have gone without eating to do things for other people because thats more important to me. But I am not like most people so I guess I just dont relate.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
Jeanne,
I wish I had happy news to report, but this neck lift is pretty hard. I have incisions from around my ears all the way around to the back of my head and everything is swollen and painful. Chewing is terrible and swallowing worse. The doctor said it would be tight for 1 to 2 weeks, its scary painful since I had an incident when I was young and was nearly strangled. I had no idea it would be this way. I am trying to make it each day at a time. I need to take my meds soon, but only 2 hours of reliefe is hard. I will make it though, its just pretty tough, you need to prepare yourself for it.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
Stephanie,
I really just didnt want to see anyone left out when they signed up for the card exchange, I remember all too well being young and not getting cards at Valentines and I so didn't want to see anyone suffer that. I know money can be an issue for people, believe me I go without many times so my son can have things. I didn't mean to belittle anyone with money issues, that wasnt my point, it was more so that we needed two lists one for ecards and one for real cards, of course I didn't put it very nicely as when I posted I was writhing in pain and typing stupid things. I am truly sorry.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: I am very sorry.
I know I caused alot of hurt feelings and it really wasnt my intention. I wont blame my pain meds because quite frankly they do very little for me as I seem to be malabasorbing them pretty well and they only last exactly 2 hours and then the pain returns. My doctor said to double up the doses and we will see how I do by Monday. This stuff really is kicking my butt, my open rny was more painful but since this effects my stomach and face its really hard on me. I suffered from something terrible when I was a teenager and feeling this constriction around my neck is causing me panic attacks. None of this is in any way an excuse for the things I said, I apologize and understand if everyone hates me now. I have always felt differently towards things then other people and probably do many stupid things because of how I am. Please except my apology and realize I truly do care about everyones journey to go health. I just read the post from Marianne and it makes what I am going through seem like nothing, its all about perspective and what seems diffecult to me is nothing compared to her pain and suffering, my heart goes out to her, you won't hear another complaint from me about how I feel.
Hugs Heidi
Topic: RE: My name is Marianne and I am dying
Marianne,
I am so very sorry, I am guilty of everything you stated, I am in pain from my plastics and upset about stupid issues that have nothing to do with people suffering and dying from obesity. I hope you accept my sincere apology. I have tried to journal my wls and will try to journal my ps also, its so hard when you malabsorb your pain meds and only get 2 hours of rest at a time, but compared to what you are going through what I am suffering is a walk in the park. I think we all lose site of what really matters here and thats helping each other through these nightmare of obesity, nothing cures us over night, we are still emotional creatures who do things we probably shouldn't. I know I am definately guilty of emotional reactions to things. But if there is anything at all I can do to help you please dont hesitate to contact me.
Love Heidi
Topic: RE: Everyone...get a grip!
Okay my final thought on this before more meds, why sign up and then say you are gonna pick and choose who to send too, if money is tight ask your personal friends and send then cards privately. If you are concerned the list will grow to large ask the organizer in advance so you can plan. People will tell us they researched wls for years yet don't think to ask how many people might be on a card exchange if they can't afford it. Sorry its offensive to say 100 is okay but 105 is not and then come on here crying that they have money troubles. Like who doesn't. Gesh I better get better meds from the doctor today because this has really quirked me big time. Its supposed to be something nice and turned into a nightmare. I do a charity gift exchange for underprivildged children where I work, and the people who come in covered in gold jewelry and leather coats is overwhelming, but we still don't judge them. Life is about sacrifice and for some apparently they only sacrifice for themself. If my opinion offends anyone I truly don't care, because I do think its selfish to sign up and then pull out and announce it like we all don't have money problems at Christmas time. Do I go without for my son to have the very best, hell yeah, does it make him a great kid, nope not in the least, but I try and always have. Maybe I am completely misguided putting everyone before myself but I seriously don't want to change now, and for all those so-called believes isn't that the message that Jesus was teaching about sacrifice and not selfishness. Obviously he didn't mean cards but it seems selfishness is predominant in our society lately and thats pretty damn sad. Yup that is my final word on it, I am off to the docs to get these painful drains pulled and hopefully some meds, when I come back I am sure I will be very apologetic but for now I am letting my feelings fly.
Heidi
Topic: RE: I am out until I feel better.
Obviously I am not feeling well and its showing pretty badly, right now with the way things are I have no desire to be here. I have many friends here whom I will miss a great deal but sadly too many people who are just hateful and I don't want to be bothered with when I am still in such pain. I will be back when I feel well again, these plastics are kicking my butt right now and malabsorbing meds sucks when you only get 2 hours of relief.
Love to those who know who they are.
Hugs heidi
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