Found some files hidden on my DH's computer. Pics of me at 346lbs. My highest weight.

I forgot the existed. Doesn't seem real.









I don't know why these were hid, well maybe I do. I wish I'd never found them. I am so, I don't even know, right now. When the hell did this happen to me. Yes, very emotional. I'm so sad right now. My 11 yo DD said who's that mom? My own kids don't recognize me in pics. I don't really. This was never the face I saw in the mirror. Yes, I'm in theropy!! Yes, it's helping. I'm on the verge of that TOM and I find these. I knew I could share them here and then close this file and never nose around my DH's computer again!!!!

Ruby

 You can never change who you once were, or what you once looked like. We have all made poor choices in our past, whether it be in regards to our own weight, hurting others, etc.  Please don't beat yourself up.  You can only move forward and make better choices. And you did that!!!  Pat yourself on the back for the great person you are TODAY!   Move forward and help those who were once in your same situation!  There are too many good things to look forward to!

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Hear! Hear!

Thank you! Last night I was very emotional. I should stay away from the computer on days like those. I am happy, very happy, with the way things are now.  It was just hard, in that moment, to see those pic. I forgot they existed. Again, thank you!


Ruby

Hi Ruby! I too have seen pictures of myself at my heaviest and was shocked. My sister emailed me one that made me cry. When I showed my son he swore it was photoshopped because he didn't remember me being that big. I never seen myself as a 350+lb woman, now I have a hard time seeing myself as I am now. It is crazy what our brains go thru too. You are doing so awesome!  Keep rockin your DS! 

It is crazy. Hell, I just posted a thread with my clothes comparison shot. I'm just in a stage where I can't wrap my head around either body image. I still feel the same, but my shell is oh so different. Just gotta let my mind catch up. My DH say,'eh give it a couple more years and then you'll just feel "normal". Huh, wouldn't that be nice. I'd like to know what "normal" feels like!

Ruby

I have been inspired my many a diet by seeing what I look like in a picture. I know I lived in denial sometimes & thought I was still hot stuff- a BBW I thought. LOL Hey I love that purple layered top!

Thanks! Yeah, I loved it too and I so thought it fit. I was dead wrong,lol! I remember the day, and I was very happy! That's what matters!

Ruby

hugs.