Thank you both so very much for your support. I have been through so much in  the last 3-4yrs. My back injury at work, taking in my father and caring for him until he died in 8/09, injury my back again in 6/09 after being thrown from a horse (spent almost 2 weeks in hospital), my house burnt to the ground the day after I got out of the hospital from horse accident (insurance had lapsed 2 days before fire since I was in the hospital and couldn't pay it), I had to close the horse rescue I had been running (I was the brains, not the braun) and in 5/10 I had emergency surgery to remove my lap band due to major port infection and slippage. We moved in 6/10 right after my surgery only to have the rental house have plumbing problems and flood. All my weight has come back plus even more co-morbidities. I am so tired from all of lifes crap. 
I went to the doctor this morning. I cried so much. My doctor seemed to kinda understand but I dont know. She prescribed me diuretics for two reasons, 1) swelling in my hands, feet, ankles etc, 2) my BP is a little high ( which could be from the amount of pain Im in). She also prescribed me Vicodin, just enough to help til surgery next week. She had blood drawn for a ton of lab tests also. 
I told my husband about my visit and what she prescribed. All he said is, "you don't have to take the vicodin if you don't really need it." Like he completely does not get it!!!! He has NO CLUE the amount of pain, stiffness and misery I am in. If I try to explain it he just cuts me off, or gets angry (I think cause he can't help me) o r "advises" me on what to do!!!! He got his first tattoo last weekend and almost died from the pain. I had my makeup tattooed yrs ago so I am not a wimp. I told him if you think that was suffering live a couple days in my shoes. If one more person tells me to "walk more, exercise more, eat this, dont eat that, etc etc etc" I am going to f---ing loose it!!!!!! 
I am sorry but I have NO ONE to talk to about this or vent to, anyone. Let alone someone that would even understand a little. 
Thank you for just listening. I have no friends here so I have no support for this. My husband supports my surgery but doesn't understand my illness. I am sooooo f---ing alone.

When I read this I was so angry for you! I cant believe that somebosy who loves you, and shouldnt want to see you in pain, would call you a junky. I, at 32, have severe dibilitating spinal osteoarthritis, and will be going to my PCP this Friday to discuss Fibro with him. My P.A. did alot of lbs and everything was normal, yet I am in pain all over, from the neck down. Every muscle, joint, and OMG my feet, hips, and elbows are the worst. People that are not in this amount of pain, just do not understand, and never will. There is such a terrible stigma in the medical field and in society of people that HAVE to take narcotics to function each day. I know from experience too. I havent worked since 2009, myself. Gosh, I can so relate to what you're going through. My family tries to be supportive, but there are "issues" about drugs too. I thought RNY would be my answer to start getting a life back, but now I think the surgery triggered this because it became full blown about 2 weeks after my surgery. Now I feel so disheartened. I am only 32 and have all these problems that somebody much older should be having. I am just not sure how I am going to live my life in even more pain than I was in before. I dont have any answers for you, but know that there is at least one person out here that feels you're pain. Thank you for posting this, because I feel better too. Good Luck with your VSG, losing weight does give me something to look forward to, as I'm sure it does with you too. 

Good Morning Ladies,

Today is one of my all time favorite days out of the whole year! I can't help but walk around with a huge smile on my face. This is going to be the start of a fantastic weekend.

I sent hubby off to Northern Cal yesterday for his monthly service contract with UC Berkeley, the cute neighbor guy punk'd me this morning by putting a mylar balloon on my wipers that said "You were great last night" and my girlfriend and I are going to a Cirque preformance at Disney World this evening.

How about you all? What kind of plans to you have for the weekend. Spring is here or almost.

Shauna N

Are you using prescription D?  That stuff is useless to us.  It is D2 and we need D3 and it is oil based which we don't absorb well.  This is the kind we need.  http://www.vitalady.com/cgi-bin/commerce.cgi?preadd=action&k ey=1130X100

I am using Allsup right now.
They are a very good company to work with. They understand the fibro fog and the depression and really work hard to do all of the hard stuff for you.The weather change kicks my butt worse than anything. I found exercise in a warm pool is very helpful. The more you do the more you can do. Hang in there. Some days are an uphill battle, other days smooth sailing.