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Well there is a little good news coming out of all this. The change in environment for my Mom has improved her desire to be active to a certain extent, and certain other behaviors that she was comfortable with, but were tough to handle are going by the wayside, at least for now. She has a lot to process.
For myself, I?ve actually lost weight. I had to return home for a short time today to retrieve some tools I needed, so I got to weigh myself. Despite some alcohol in the evenings and cranberry scones for breakfast which the church ladies brought by, I am down two more pounds to 270.
ETA: I will write this too. I do understand about the difference in doing this as your calling versus coming into it on a personal level. This week has been full of the hardest things I have ever experienced. I am constantly reliving the image of finding my Dad on the porch, and then telling my Mom. Next up is having to explain to her how I had to put their 16 year old dog to sleep. Anything else would kill her just the same, only slower and more painful. I also have been tapped by the two pastors involved in the funeral to deliver the eulogy. But I am a big tough guy. Not so big as before, but at least as tough. I'll make it through this.
Bill,
I'm not going to try to compare apples and oranges. What you experience in this situation is different than what a first responder does. We have to compartmentalize to be able to function and mentally survive. I can tell you that there have been times where the lines have blurred. I've lost friends to being killed in the line of duty. I helped do CPR on one of my former Chiefs from his house to the ER after his second major heart attack. Did the inquest on our recently retired city secretary's husband who passed at home from COPD. Sent her son to prison too. Dealt with two suicides in so many weeks. One was an elderly gentleman, who was partially paralyzed after having a stroke several years ago. His son is Chief of the local junior college's PD. The second one was an OD in a storage unit that was a WLS patient, that according to her mother, became an alcoholic after surgery 10 years ago. She left a 15 year old son behind. Caveat to her story is that the boy went to live with his bio dad in, I think, Mineral Wells and is doing fantastic in his drama classes and band. Grandmother was proud to show me the pictures of him a year later. Best part of my job is helping people. May not see the results immediately but when I come across somebody who has turned their lives around after being a crime victim, maybe been a defendant or simply getting their head out of their ass - damn onion ninjas.
200 on Sunday...I hate weigh ins!! I need to keep active (or eat less junk)! Well off to pick oranges...Just to keep busy. Brian
Bill,
My condolences. I have been through a similar situation. Take care of yourself. You are not alone. Thoughts and prayers are with you.
-Bob
Thanks. I am not being as rigorous as I would normally be, but I'm not going completely off the rails either. I found an old bathroom scale this morning. I have no idea how accurate it is. My scale at home is an old timey "doctor's office" scale with the weights on bars. Anyway, I was just under 272 on this electronic scale of unknown accuracy and quality. That is in line with where my weight had been for the previous week, so it seems that I am at least maintaining.
Thank you Don. I suspect you've come across similar situations in your line of work.
Bill,
My condolences on the passing of your father in such a tragic manner.
Don
Last week: 186.8
This week: 186.4
Last week was C-O-L-D! 
Forecast this week is for it to be warmer. TX has been hammered by the flu this year. Wild swings in the weather is not helping.
Pats going to another SB. Fingers crossed that for the historical perspective if not for the win Minnesota gets in for the NFC.
This week likely to be a tough week. Looking at taking my "baby girl" to the vet one last time. 
17 years is a Hell of a run for a dog but she has developed renal issues to go along with her liver problem. Saturday going to Waco for a reunion of sorts of a lot of OH people from the old Texas Forum. Partly for catching up and for remembering a former Texas OH'er who passed on.
Go do your thing!
Never, and I mean NEVER, trust a fart!! 
