01/27 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
I can attain real dignity, importance and individuality only by a dependence on a Power which is great and good, beyond anything I can imagine or understand.  I will try my utmost to use this Power in making all my decisions.  Even though my human mind cannot forecast what the outcome will be, I will try to be confident that whatever comes will be for my ultimate good.  JUST FOR TODAY, WILL I TRY TO LIVE THIS DAY ONLY, AND NOT TACKLE MY WHOLE LIFE PROBLEM AT ONCE?

TODAY I PRAY
May I make no decision, engineer no change in the course of my lifestream, without calling upon my Higher Power.  May I have faith that God's plan for me is better than any scheme I could devise for myself.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
God is the architect.  I am the builder.

Good Tuesday Morning..

Today I am grateful..

For the sun..

For my job..

For another day..

For my cell phone..

For my car that runs although it is a POS..

01/25 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
Even with a growing understanding of The Program and it's Twelve Steps, we sometimes might find it difficult to believe that our new way of life leads to personal freedom.  Suppose, for example, I feel imprisoned in an uncomfortable job or troublesome personal relationship.  What am I doing about it?  In the past, my reflex reaction was to try to manipulate the things and people around me into being more acceptable to me.   Today, I realize that happiness can't be won that way.  AM I LEARNING THAT FREEDOM FROM DESPAIR AND FRUSTRATION CAN COME ONLY FROM CHANGING, IN MYSELF, THE ATTITUDES THAT ARE PERPETUATING THE CONDITIONS THAT CAUSE ME GRIEF?

TODAY I PRAY
May I be given clear eyes to see -- and then to stop myself -- when I am manipulating the lives of those around me, my daily associates, friends, family.  May I always be aware that change must begin within myself.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Change from the inside out.

Good Monday Morning..

Today I am grateful..

That I know the physician must heal himself..

For another chance..

For my friend named Bill..

For a return trip home..

That my room mate talked to Dr. Alaverez and he has agreed to do her surgery.. Although my weekend was less than stellar that completed it.. Thank you Dr. A..

Susan,

You've made a huge life change by having your RNY and getting healthy for yourself and your daughter.    I don't have experience with Alanon but I'm sure Rhonda's advice is good.  I would say that if you don't get all you need there consult a good Dr. of psychology.  I've suffered from serious depression several times in my life because of a difficult childhood and a good therapist is how I was able to make the decisions I needed to and reclaim my life when things looked bleak.

Congratulations on your weight loss and all the best to you and your daughter.   You can have whatever life you want to have.  You deserve it.

MJ