01/15 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
I must never forget who and what I am and where I come from.  I have to remember the nature of my illness and what it was like before I came to The Program.  I'll try to keep the memory green, yet not spend my time dwelling morbidly on the past.  I won't be afraid to enjoy what is beautiful, and to believe that as I give to others, so others will give to me.  CAN I EVER AFFORD TO FORGET WHAT IT USED TO BE LIKE, EVEN FOR ONE MINUTE?

TODAY I PRAY
May I never forget the painful days of my addiction.  May I never forget that the same misery awaits me if I should slip back into the old patterns.  At the same time, may such backwards glances serve only to bolster my own present strength and the strength of others like me.  Please, God, do not let me dredge up these recollections in order to outdo or  "out-drunk" my fellow members.  Like others who are chemically dependent, I must be wary of my desire to be centerstage in the spotlight.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I do more when I don't "outdo."

01/14 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
I admitted that I couldn't win the booze and chemical battle on my own.  So I finally began to accept the critically important fact that dependence on a Higher Power could help me achieve what had always seemed impossible.  I stopped running, I stopped fighting.  For the first time, I began accepting.  And for the first time, I began to be really free.  DO I REALIZE THAT IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT KIND OF SHOES I'M WEARING WHEN I'M RUNNING AWAY?

TODAY I PRAY
May I know the freedom that comes with surrender to a Higher Power -- that most important kind of surrender that means neither "giving in" nor "giving up" but "giving over" my will to the will of God.  Like a weary fugitive from spiritual order, may I stop hiding, dodging, running.  May I find peace in surrender, in the knowledge that God wills that I be whole and healthy and He will show me the way.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
First surrender, then serenity.

.. WOW ..  I love Dexter also..  small world!!  Strange.. I didn't know I would "care" so much for a serial killer.. but hey.. he has a code!

Today I'm grateful for..

having lots of heavy clothing to wear into work since my heater is broke on car.  All this wool and two coats kept me warm..

my BF whom I love very much.. and look forward to seeing this evening..

work..  blackberry.. forums..  all to keep my day busy and entertained..
 

God.. sobriety.. family.. friends and health!!