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Topic: Do I trade my mental health with meds or mental health with weight gain n a severe eating disorder?
Went pretty hypo manic, and ended up in patient for 3 weeks from the 20th til the 11th of last/ this month.. During that time they tried Trileptal which without the purging dropped my sodium to 124ish (keep in mind I have severe bulimia so not a good thing). Then they put me on Neurontin for like 2 days, then now they have me on Depakote. I did lose almost 10 lbs in a week after they took me off the Lamictal.
They just increased my Depakote to 1500 and I've gained 3 lbs, freaking out a little bit already. :(
I have noo freedom over it all now though because I'm under commitment now for my severe eating disorder They keep griping if they can get enough food, etc in me the meds would work better, etc.. If they can make me not gain weight I'd be more likely to eat. :(
I don't know what to do but cry and give up. I'm severely depressed. I'm bout to be thrown in the hospital for however long they want (I do want to get better some days but others I don't I'll be honest and I am just terrified, period, I am willing to work the program but I'm just scared).
Sad thing is if you look at me I'm still chubby. :( All of this for nothing.
What happens if they finally find a good med combo and I start regaining everything though what do I do?? Compromise mental stability for fat which is mental instability in another source for me. I'm just lost and broke and sad.
I'm in therapy 3 times a week. I probably should be in patient right now truthfully but my therapist had to cancel because of weather Thursday or I garuntee she'd put me in because I was not doing well. Been hypomanic for 5 days again.. had labs gonna call psychiatrist Mon bout upping Depakote if they can but IDK if they can.
I'm barely sleeping without self medicating, I'm jjust a blubbering mess LOL... I'm a severe cycler too if that helps any typically.
They just increased my Depakote to 1500 and I've gained 3 lbs, freaking out a little bit already. :(
I have noo freedom over it all now though because I'm under commitment now for my severe eating disorder They keep griping if they can get enough food, etc in me the meds would work better, etc.. If they can make me not gain weight I'd be more likely to eat. :(
I don't know what to do but cry and give up. I'm severely depressed. I'm bout to be thrown in the hospital for however long they want (I do want to get better some days but others I don't I'll be honest and I am just terrified, period, I am willing to work the program but I'm just scared).
Sad thing is if you look at me I'm still chubby. :( All of this for nothing.
What happens if they finally find a good med combo and I start regaining everything though what do I do?? Compromise mental stability for fat which is mental instability in another source for me. I'm just lost and broke and sad.
I'm in therapy 3 times a week. I probably should be in patient right now truthfully but my therapist had to cancel because of weather Thursday or I garuntee she'd put me in because I was not doing well. Been hypomanic for 5 days again.. had labs gonna call psychiatrist Mon bout upping Depakote if they can but IDK if they can.
I'm barely sleeping without self medicating, I'm jjust a blubbering mess LOL... I'm a severe cycler too if that helps any typically.
Topic: RE: In desperate need of help.....
There are many different antidepressants on the market, and it may take a visit to a psychitrist to discuss all of your psychological history to find the correct medication for you. Psych meds are often trial and error, and not a guarantee that any old one will help.
I have been on and off meds for almost twenty years. What I thought was depression turned out to be bipolar disorder, and it takes a combination of three meds to help me stablize and live normal.
Obesity for us WLS kids typically involves eating to deal with negative emotions. Giving up the food can cause a huge gamut of emotions to surface, because our best friend, food, is no longer there to numb out. For me, I knew I was eating disordered twenty years ago when I first started psychotherapy. I also suspected I was an alcoholic. Going on my first diet that the therapist gave me triggered me to go on drinking binges. Getting sober contributed to fourteen years of over a 100 pound weight gain. After my divorce, I discovered illicit sex, and shopped myself into bankruptcy. (I am cross-addicted to say the least.)
Seeing a therapist might also help with the depression. Cognitive therapy is very helpful in helping to identify distorted thoughts that often contribute to depressed moods. It also helps in goal setting and learning new coping skills.
In addition to being in therapy, and on meds for what seems like forever, I also went back to graduate school to become a therapist myself. Working part time in a psych hospital has allowed me to learn a great deal about the psychiatrists, and medication issues.
Feel free to contact me at [email protected] if you would like to correspond privately. I have learned that the best thing for me is helping others like myself.
Hugs,
Trish
I have been on and off meds for almost twenty years. What I thought was depression turned out to be bipolar disorder, and it takes a combination of three meds to help me stablize and live normal.
Obesity for us WLS kids typically involves eating to deal with negative emotions. Giving up the food can cause a huge gamut of emotions to surface, because our best friend, food, is no longer there to numb out. For me, I knew I was eating disordered twenty years ago when I first started psychotherapy. I also suspected I was an alcoholic. Going on my first diet that the therapist gave me triggered me to go on drinking binges. Getting sober contributed to fourteen years of over a 100 pound weight gain. After my divorce, I discovered illicit sex, and shopped myself into bankruptcy. (I am cross-addicted to say the least.)
Seeing a therapist might also help with the depression. Cognitive therapy is very helpful in helping to identify distorted thoughts that often contribute to depressed moods. It also helps in goal setting and learning new coping skills.
In addition to being in therapy, and on meds for what seems like forever, I also went back to graduate school to become a therapist myself. Working part time in a psych hospital has allowed me to learn a great deal about the psychiatrists, and medication issues.
Feel free to contact me at [email protected] if you would like to correspond privately. I have learned that the best thing for me is helping others like myself.
Hugs,
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: RE: Anti Depressants and WLS
I am sorry you are suffering as you go off Effexor. May I ask why you do not see a psychiatrist for your psych meds? I trust a psychiatrist much more than a family doc with this stuff.
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
Topic: RE: Anti Depressants and WLS
PRINCESSPENNY
Whatever you do DO NOT take EFFEXOR. I am currently trying to get off this horrible drug & I feel like a crack addict in withdrawal right now. It has been only three days since I stopped Effexor cold turkey (at the advice of my family doctor) & it is horrible. My family doc put me on Remeron but after researching that it appears they are in the same class so i am going to try Welbutrin. I have tried it before with no luck but I am hoping with my weight loss it will work this time round.
Whatever you do, do not give up. It will work itself out someday. Stay consistent & be strong! :)
Whatever you do, do not give up. It will work itself out someday. Stay consistent & be strong! :)
PRINCESSPENNY
Topic: In desperate need of help.....
PRINCESSPENNY
I know this may not be the best place to search for information but I am desperate & figured it was worth a shot.
I have been taking Effexor for depression since I had a miscarriage four years ago. I have always suffered from depression, mainly because of my obesity but this loss pushed me over the edge. Anyway, I recently decided that I wanted to change my pill because EFFEXOR was causing me to have a very low sex drive & inability to have an ****** (very important aspects of my life - especially now since I have lost over 100 pounds!). So my family doctor took me off of Effexor & put me on Remerol. It has been three days since I stoppped the Effexor & started the Remerol & I feel like complete **** I am dizzy & nausous & my tounge feels like its too big for my mouth. All I want to do is sleep & cry. I know that Effexor has horrible withdrawal symptoms but I never thougth it would be this bad. Has anyone went through this before? Do you know how long these horrible side effects last? Is anyone on here taking Remerol & know anything about it???? I have now decided to stop taking the Remeron & take only Welbutrin (as its in a totally different class than both of these!!****il I can see my doctor after the New Year.
Right now I feel lost & hopeless. I haven't felt like this in years, especially since my weight loss surgery & feeling so amaznig with loosing weight.
So if anyone has anything to help I would GREATLY appreciate it.
Lost & afraid in Canada....
M
I have been taking Effexor for depression since I had a miscarriage four years ago. I have always suffered from depression, mainly because of my obesity but this loss pushed me over the edge. Anyway, I recently decided that I wanted to change my pill because EFFEXOR was causing me to have a very low sex drive & inability to have an ****** (very important aspects of my life - especially now since I have lost over 100 pounds!). So my family doctor took me off of Effexor & put me on Remerol. It has been three days since I stoppped the Effexor & started the Remerol & I feel like complete **** I am dizzy & nausous & my tounge feels like its too big for my mouth. All I want to do is sleep & cry. I know that Effexor has horrible withdrawal symptoms but I never thougth it would be this bad. Has anyone went through this before? Do you know how long these horrible side effects last? Is anyone on here taking Remerol & know anything about it???? I have now decided to stop taking the Remeron & take only Welbutrin (as its in a totally different class than both of these!!****il I can see my doctor after the New Year.
Right now I feel lost & hopeless. I haven't felt like this in years, especially since my weight loss surgery & feeling so amaznig with loosing weight.
So if anyone has anything to help I would GREATLY appreciate it.
Lost & afraid in Canada....
M
PRINCESSPENNY
Topic: Crossing Over to Transfer Addictions...VERY BAD TIME OF THE YEAR!
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/crossingtotransferaddictions/
Hi All,
There is a new OH Online Support Group. The above link will get you there.
It's called Crossing Over to Transfer Addictions.
This group discusses the issue of transfer addictions (also known as cross addictions) after weight loss surgery. there are millions of people who have undergone gastric bypass who are now dealing with issues of addiction transfer.
For a number of people, giving up overeating leads to adoption of a new compulsion.
Addiction transfer occurs when someone is unable or unwilling to rely on one compulsion (for us, it was food) and so switches to a new compulsion (alcohol, drugs, sex, gambling, shopping, internet, porn, etc) due to not having dealt with the underlying issue behind the compulsion.
***Please feel free (and safe) to join and discuss any and/all issues you have regarding Transfer Addiction. ***
WE WILL SUPPORT EACH OTHER WITHOUT JUDGEMENT!
http://www.obesityhelp.com/group/crossingtotransferaddictions/
Hi All,
There is a new OH Online Support Group. The above link will get you there.
It's called Crossing Over to Transfer Addictions.
This group discusses the issue of transfer addictions (also known as cross addictions) after weight loss surgery. there are millions of people who have undergone gastric bypass who are now dealing with issues of addiction transfer.
For a number of people, giving up overeating leads to adoption of a new compulsion.
Addiction transfer occurs when someone is unable or unwilling to rely on one compulsion (for us, it was food) and so switches to a new compulsion (alcohol, drugs, sex, gambling, shopping, internet, porn, etc) due to not having dealt with the underlying issue behind the compulsion.
***Please feel free (and safe) to join and discuss any and/all issues you have regarding Transfer Addiction. ***
WE WILL SUPPORT EACH OTHER WITHOUT JUDGEMENT!
Topic: RE: Bipolar???
I am deff going to get a 2ed opinion! :-) Thanks for the advise!!! :-)
I actually had an appt with Dr Barnes yesterday,a nd after talking with her, she stated that I don't have to have my psyc visit for my insurance, so it doesn't really matter what the "shrink" thought, cause I really didn't need it! :-) But I still going to get a 2ed optinion just to get a few things straightened out!!!
Thanks for replying!
I actually had an appt with Dr Barnes yesterday,a nd after talking with her, she stated that I don't have to have my psyc visit for my insurance, so it doesn't really matter what the "shrink" thought, cause I really didn't need it! :-) But I still going to get a 2ed optinion just to get a few things straightened out!!!
Thanks for replying!
Topic: RE: ~SPIRITUAL NOT RELIGIOUS~ A DAY AT A TIME
I appreciate your faithfulness in posting this.
Trish
You are most welcome Trish.. Wishing you a Merry Christmas dear
On December 22, 2009 at 9:11 PM Pacific Time, Patricia R. wrote:
Thanks Rhonda,I appreciate your faithfulness in posting this.
Trish
You are most welcome Trish.. Wishing you a Merry Christmas dear
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL NOT RELIGIOUS~ A DAY AT A TIME
12/23 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
How can I tell if I have had a spiritual awakening? For many of us in The Program, a spiritual awakening manifests itself in simple rather than complicated evidences: emotional maturity; an end to constant and soul-churning resentments; the ability to love and be loved in return; the belief, even without understanding, that something lets the sun rise and set, brings forth and ends life, and gives joy to human hearts. AM I NOW ABLE TO DO, FEEL AND BELIEVE THAT WHICH I COULD NOT PREVIOUSLY DO THROUGH MY OWN UNAIDED STRENGTH AND RESOURCES ALONE?
TODAY I PRAY
May my spiritual confidence begin to spread over my attitudes towards others -- especially during holiday times, when anticipations and anxieties are high. As an addictive person, I have not handled holidays well -- greeting those who gather at home, missing those who are not here. I pray for serenity to cope with the holiday brew of emotions.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Spirit without "spirits." Cheer without "cheer."
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: RE: ~SPIRITUAL NOT RELIGIOUS~ A DAY AT A TIME
Thanks Rhonda,
I appreciate your faithfulness in posting this.
Trish
I appreciate your faithfulness in posting this.
Trish
Seek always to do some good, somewhere. Every man has to seek in his own way to realize his true worth. You must give some time to your fellow man. For remember, you don't live in a world all your own. Your brothers are here too.
Albert Schweitzer
Albert Schweitzer
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