I was molested when I was younger and I do believe it contributed to the weight. I was already chunky back then but my weight grew. We also think something bad happened when I was around 4 or so because I started eating more and became seditary and refused to go back to a baby sitters. I cant unblock my memory of that time, but I do remember that far back. I have a binge eatting problem and there is a group on here that I am apart of called Overcoming Binge Eatting. If thats your problem too, Id join us. It really helps me if I feel the need to binge I can get on there, post and I get tons of support. Well Muchlove and I hope all stays well mentally.

sorry it's been awhile..  but I just feel like posting this today.

09/17 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
In a letter to a friend, AA co-founder Bill W. wrote, "I don't think happiness or unhappiness is the point.  How do we meet the problems we face?  How do we best learn from them and transmit what we have learned to others, if they would receive the knowledge?  In my view, we of this world are pupils in a great school of life.  It is intended that we try to grow, and that we try to help our fellow travelers to grow in the kind of love that makes no demands... When pain comes, we are expected to learn from it willingly, and help others to learn.  When happiness comes, we accept it as a gift, and thank God for it."  CAN I ACCEPT BOTH PAIN AND HAPPINESS WILLINGLY?

TODAY I PRAY
God, please help me remember that everything that happens to me has its worth, including the misery of addiction.  May I believe that even my dependency was part of God's Grand Scheme to bring me to Him.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
All that I am is all that has happened to me.

My brother was 22 yo when he died.  His death certificate says suicide, but the family feels it was a car accident (resulting from a police chase).  It seems I am the only one who could deal with it.  I miss him a lot but he is at peace now.  He was so troubled.  I have bipolar so I have had my share of meds.  One med I cannot get off of is my effexor.  I have bad withdrawals.  My psychiatrist is trying to wean me off yet again.  I do take lithium still.  I was on so many psych meds (6) pre-surgery.  Now it's just the one.  Some are horrible coming off!  I have been doing good emotionally right now.  I am experiencing a lot of anger though.  This is new to me.  I did post about it on the RNY board and feel better.  Hang in there.  Jimi

I had VSG and have depression now, my brother had rny 3 years ago and he has depression. but he as a wife for support. I have to do what i can..

The injectable drug is call Vivitrol. It stays in your system for 30 days and helps with not only cravings, but if you did slip and drink the effect of the alcohol is blocked in your brain so that you don't get drunk. The pill form of this drug is Naltrexone. Usually you try the Naltrexone first for a week and then they give you the shot. I am getting my shot next Friday. It really helps calm down the cravings and the obsessive thoughts about alcohol. Go to this website and educate yourself on this drug. www.vivitrol.com.  This drug is nothing to fool around with because if you drink on it you can cause yourself serious liver damage. It's just a pill that can help you along while you also get counseling.