July 5 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
I am free to be, to do, to accept, to reject.  I am free to be the wise, loving, kind, and patient person I want to be.  I'm free to do that which I consider wise -- that which I will in no way harm or hinder another person.  I'm free to do that which will lead me into paths of peace and satisfaction.  I'm free to live life in a productive way and to contribute what I have to give to life.  AM I COMING TO BELIEVE THAT I'M FREE TO BE THE BEST SELF I'M ABLE TO BE?

TODAY I PRAY
Let the freedom I am now experiencing continue to flow through my life into productiveness, into the conviction of life's goodness I have always wanted to share.  May I accept this freedom with God's blessing -- and use it wisely.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Let freedom ring true.

Thanks for the support Lisa.  I am glad to know that I am not alone in my feelings about this. I am sure we will both get past this part of our changing process

Okay, here it goes, for you my lovely friend I'm going to place my feelings on this in print.  Your post has made me see and feel that this is just a part of us blossoming....more on this later.

I have been well over my hubbys weight for like our whole 22 years of marriage.  I am now 16 lbs heavier than what I weighted on my wedding day.  NEVER has dh ever told me bad things about being over weight.  Only thing I can recall is a few comments on how unhealthy I was staying.  He was always always there for me when I was "dieting" and he would try to help anyway he could.  He is a nice 180 lb size at 5'7 and a half.  He is constantly wanting to get down 5 lbs and weights everyday like me and tells me about it just as I do him with every ounce I lose.  He is working out constantly  Since my surgery he has been placed on chlosterol medication then off it to a natural remedy.  Also since my surgery I have watched him eat and been grossed out. He's a pig and I never noticed.  He will start grazing 20 minutes after his dinner meal, or he will slurp food that by no means can be slurped by anyone else.  (how do you slurp on a rib?)  LOLOL.  Lately my mixed nuts go missing directly after I open them.  Or after supper the microwave is humming and the smell of popcorn is everywhere.

Blossoming-is it because we are becoming self-aware of ourselves and we are so attached to our loved ones that it seems magified?  Probably...I don't have the answers but I do think its part of our growing.  I also think that we have to be so careful here and not let it turn into a big monster of a problem, which is why you are posting it.  I think that it will get better as we go.

Love ya!
Lisa

07/02 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
During our days of active addiction, many of us displayed almost dazzlingly fertile power of imagination.  In no time at all, we could dream up more reasons -- or excuses -- for pursuing our addictions than most people use for all other purposes in their entire lives.  When we first come to The Program, our once-imaginative minds seem to become lethargic and even numb.  "Now what do I do?" many of us wonder.  Gradually, however, the lethargy disappears.  We begin learning to live and become turned on to life in ways that we never dreamed possible.  AM I FINDING THAT I CAN NOW ENJOY ACTIVITIES THAT I WOULDN'T EVEN CONSIDER IN THE OLD DAYS?

TODAY I PRAY
May God give me a new surge of energy directed toward "turning on to life" rather than making excuses for not handling my responsibilities.  May He allow my out-of-order imagination to be restored -- not to the buzzing overactivity of my compulsive days, but to a healthy openness to life's boundless possibilities.

TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Turn on to life.

Happy Hump Day..

Today I am grateful..

That the promotion at work is over.. Now to clean up the messes..

That I am feeling better..

For watching Rescue Me and hearing the line "There are no tears at the bottom of the bottle."

That I am working to be good..

For acceptance..