This morning I read posts from the main board in response to my post above and was further troubled by the number of people struggling with suicidal thoughts and tendencies.  Below is a response I posted.  I do this in an attempt to make a difference for someone else.  It's called paying it forward.

Thank you, each of you for responding to my post.  I believe my message, tho well intended may not have had the impact I'd hoped for a few.  My purpose was to encourage and explain that there is hope.  I know the demon of suicide.  I've met him and have been close enough to have smelled his ugly breath!  What I am trying to say is there is help.  And it doesn't have to end the way you think it does.  In many of the posts, and in many of the cir****tances that have hit close to home for me, it's the people who are left behind that suffer greatly as a result of this very selfish and very needless act.  With the proper help and perspective the demon of suicide can be attacked and conquered.  What we don't have to do is encourage it.  We have to exercise it by help, medication and therapy.  And on a side note, but very much related to this topic is the fact that as recovering food addicts, we no longer have our "drug" to medicate life.  So when life hits us in the face, we must face it with a different approach.  I love this place in cyberspace.  It fills a much needed space for me.  I've met wonderful friends here who have helped to steady me when I've needed steadying.  Who cheer me when I need cheering.  And who generally give me unconditional love and acceptance.  It would devastate me to know that one of you chose death over life when life is so much better.  With that said, I offer hugs and friendship to you. 
Marie aka Nannyre

Having experienced this first hand, a friend died in my arms, and also having attempted I know that this now..  I recently started drinking after 15 years and had reached the point of suicide until I realized just how selfish I was being.. How would my brothers explain to thier kids about Uncle Jr?  I chose to get into a recovery program and get help.. I am on my third week of sobriety and I am working hard to not repeat the actions that got me to that point..

PLEASE SEEK HELP.. I did and now no one has to tell my nephews and nieces that uncle Jr took the easy way out..

Good Morning OH'ers.. IT'S FRIDAY! ! 

Today I am grateful..

That Cristine traded days with me so I can be off this weekend..

For late night talks..

That I get to see Stromboli this weekend.. I can't wait to get a head butt..

For the people that have came and stayed in my life.. I have many acquaitnances but very TRUE friends..

For Debra, Yvonne and the others that have helped me become the man that I am.. I love you all..

SONG OF THE WEEK "LOLLIPOP" BY THE CHORDETTES..   Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

Call my baby lollipop
Tell you why
His kiss is sweeter than an apple pie
And when he does his shaky rockin' dance
Man, I haven't got a chance

I call him
Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

Sweeter than candy on a stick
Huckleberry, chimry or lime
If you had a choice
He'd be your pick
But lollipop is mine

Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

Crazy way he thrills me
Tell you why
Just like a lightning from the sky
He loves to kiss me till I can't see straight
GEE, MY LOLLIPOP IS GREAT

I call him
Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop...

MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK FROM STAND BY ME..   The Writer: [voiceover] It happens sometimes. Friends come in and out of our lives, like busboys in a restaurant.
 

Thanks. I needed that right now.

I am having a terrible time.
I had lap band surgery on March 11th.  I have noticed that I will fly into a rage for no, or little to no, reason.  I have never been like this.

I am on Wellbutrin 150 mg per day.

I don't know what is going on but am not liking who I can become at the drop of a hat.
Has this happened to anyone else?