Little background....2 1/2 years out rny lost 210lbs was 445 lowest 235 now 250....honeymoon is over and strting to gain a bit...I feel like I have a handle on my eating for the first time in my life MOST of the time, but I do slip back into some old habits...I am definately a food addict...and can overdo any type of food good and healthy or bad...I am particular to snack items and fatty foods...like, butter, cream, whipped cream, etc...


now to the problems and behaviors I would like help with changing....maybe some of you have had these issues and figured a way to change them...

afternoon Impulse eating...I have tryed delaying the thought to see if I forget and that did work for a while, but now it seems that if I have it in mind I am hell bent on getting it....

Nighttime TV snacky time....I don't keep snacks in the house that I have definate problems with like, cheese curls, crackers etc...but am finding I will make toast with butter on it, or eat high fat cheese, I try to drink a full glass of water and that works in the summertime, but winter time I get too cold from the water and then am miserable...I try to keep busy while watching tv and that does help to an extent....but again if my mind gets stuck on it I give in...

I am finding that while my portion sizes are OK, I am trending on packing in maximum calories in those portions by packing in fat..I do this knowing better than that and feeling like I am sabotaging myself...I know where the calories come from, but like before don't want to let go of those foods, because I have let go of so much, this is a huge red light for me in my thinking...

I have given up all fast food, all soda, all alcohol, all juice...

I drink too much coffee, eat too many sweets, and not enough fruits and veggis...seem to get enough protein...my diet is entirely better than it was, but I am afraid if not kept in check that this will just have been another roller coaster diet fail...I didn't rearrange my innards to fail this time and I am determined to fix my head....

any ideas, tips or tricks will be entertained...

Addiction is a real issue, and I think that maybe there should be a special forum for people with addiction and WLS. The daily devotions are usually from people with this issue and the people with addiciton will usually find these devotions very helpful. I think there should be a separate forum for addiction and not be lumped together with mental health.

Amen Ramon.  I really needed these words today.  Missed you here.  Stay well my friend.  ~Debra aka Payson~

Good Morning OH'ers..  It's FRIDAY! ! 

I know it has been a while since I posted a Grateful post so I thought I would post one today.  I am not sure if it will be a daily post although we all have something to be grateful for daily so someone please continue this post.

I am grateful..

That God is a great God and he gives you as many chances as we need to get it right.

For the great alcohol rehab center, where I have been the past three months, that has given me a new start on life..

That I know that people that live in glass houses should not throw stones.  By the way I am not throwing any stones..

For the love and support of two of the greatest women God placed on this Earth.  Debra and Yvonne I will always love you two..

For the knowledge and understanding, of my addiction, given to me in those three months..

For my three months of sobriety.  It is the longest I have had since I relapsed.  Now all I have to do is live life on life's terms daily.

SONGS OF THE WEEK

STAND BACK UP BY SUGARLAND

Go ahead and take your best shot,
Let 'er rip, give it all you've got,
I'm laid out on the floor, but I've been here before,
I may stumble, yeah I might fall,
Only human aren't we all?
I might lose my way, but hear me when I say,

I will stand back up,
You'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid, and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up,

I've been beaten up and bruised,
I've been kicked right off my shoes,
Been down on my knees more times than you'd believe,
When the darkness tries to get me,
There's a light that just won't let me,
It might take my pride, and my tears may fill my eyes,
But I'll stand back up,

I've weathered all these storms,
But I just turn them into wind, so I can fly,
What don't kill you makes you stronger,
When I take my last breath,
That's when I'll just give up,

So, go ahead and take your best shot,
Let 'er rip, give it all you've got,
You might win this round but you can't keep me down,

'Cause I'll stand back up,
And you'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up,

You'll know just the moment when I've had enough,
Sometimes I'm afraid and I don't feel that tough,
But I'll stand back up.


THE DANCE BY GARTH BROOKS

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars alone
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have chanced it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance.

MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK

That'll do Donkey, that'll do. From Shrek

Hi to anyone who happens to pop in this forum.  Certainly not a busy one.  I suppose that's a good thing but........
I am so freaking down I can't stand myself.   Anyone out there hear me???
Yes, I'm on medication for it, yes, I am seeing a therapist.   I have been battling depression for yrs.   I will be having WLS soon.   To say I am not scared would be lying.   I feel like I am in mourning today.
I'm mourning the loss of the foods I so love.  The ones I can't imagine going through life without.  You know the ones.   I can only hope and pray that as my weight comes off that I will feel better about my life and my depression will lessen.  I just want to sit here and cry.  Really not doing well at all.   Say a little prayer for me will ya?  Thanks.

Lyn.