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Topic: ~SPIRITUAL NOT RELIGIOUS~ A DAY AT A TIME
09/22 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
For a considerable period of time after I reached The Program, I let things I couldn't do keep me from doing the things I could. If I was bothered by what a speaker or other people said, I retreated, sulking, into my shell. Now, instead of being annoyed or defensive when someone strikes a raw nerve, I try to welcome it -- because it allows me to work on my attitudes and perceptions of God, self, other people, and my life situation. We may no longer have active addicitions, but we all certainly have an active thinking problem. AM I WILLING TO GROW -- AND GROW UP?
TODAY I PRAY
May God give me courage to test my new wings -- even a feather at a time. May I not wait to be entirely whole before I re-enter the world of everyday opportunity, for recovery is ongoing and growth comes through challenges. May I no longer make desperate stabs at perfection, but keep my aims in sight and develop as I live -- a day at a time.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Things I can't do should not get in the way of things I can.
For a considerable period of time after I reached The Program, I let things I couldn't do keep me from doing the things I could. If I was bothered by what a speaker or other people said, I retreated, sulking, into my shell. Now, instead of being annoyed or defensive when someone strikes a raw nerve, I try to welcome it -- because it allows me to work on my attitudes and perceptions of God, self, other people, and my life situation. We may no longer have active addicitions, but we all certainly have an active thinking problem. AM I WILLING TO GROW -- AND GROW UP?
TODAY I PRAY
May God give me courage to test my new wings -- even a feather at a time. May I not wait to be entirely whole before I re-enter the world of everyday opportunity, for recovery is ongoing and growth comes through challenges. May I no longer make desperate stabs at perfection, but keep my aims in sight and develop as I live -- a day at a time.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Things I can't do should not get in the way of things I can.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: RE: ECHO echo echo....
okay... you actually made me google.. PTSD
Sorry you are stressing... I'm most fortunate that I don't suffer that disease. I think I can count on one hand how many times that I've lost sleep from stress, but usually with good reason. Getting fired... getting divorced.. that kind of stuff!
anywho...
practice some destressing exercises... maybe your beautiful wife can help you out with that
as soon as you apologize to her for snapping at her.
BREATH IN... BREATH OUT.. BREATH IN... BREATH OUT..
okay... you actually made me google.. PTSD
Sorry you are stressing... I'm most fortunate that I don't suffer that disease. I think I can count on one hand how many times that I've lost sleep from stress, but usually with good reason. Getting fired... getting divorced.. that kind of stuff!
anywho...
practice some destressing exercises... maybe your beautiful wife can help you out with that
as soon as you apologize to her for snapping at her.BREATH IN... BREATH OUT.. BREATH IN... BREATH OUT..
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: RE: I've a confession..
Thanks Tim!! I am pretty strong.. sometimes.. it just pure bullheadedness tho
thanks for the encouragement !
Thanks Tim!! I am pretty strong.. sometimes.. it just pure bullheadedness tho
thanks for the encouragement !
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: ECHO echo echo....
I was going to post a PTSD issue... But I can't... So the hell with it. I type I delete I type.. I delete... A call for help? no.. maybe a call to ***** about doctors and no one LISTENING... Except my beautiful wife. Of course I am f*cking that up also by snapping at her.
heart beat 135 resting... stress... too much...
My weight, my stress level rising so much... I think I will have a stroke or a heart attack soon... and then, when i am dead... I will say.. I TOLD YOU SO... I TOLD YOU SO...
damn it.. I almost deleted this.... but who gives a crap... i will post it
heart beat 135 resting... stress... too much...
My weight, my stress level rising so much... I think I will have a stroke or a heart attack soon... and then, when i am dead... I will say.. I TOLD YOU SO... I TOLD YOU SO...
damn it.. I almost deleted this.... but who gives a crap... i will post it
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Topic: RE: I've a confession..
"Tie me up Tuesday" eh? I didn't know it was a requirement, but I am easy. (heads to "The drawer") ((Maniacal laughter ensues))
Have fun and don't worry about the booze, you seem a pretty strong person to me. I could be completely wrong lol... but your personality will sure as hell give you a lashing, and not the good kind either!
Have fun and don't worry about the booze, you seem a pretty strong person to me. I could be completely wrong lol... but your personality will sure as hell give you a lashing, and not the good kind either!
"Check out my High School Diaries 1
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"The road to hell is paved with adverbs." - Stephen King
Topic: Gastric Bypass Revision
Hello to everyone,
About two years ago, I had my gastric bypass surgery done, and I have only lost about 15 lbs. I started out at 250lbs and my height is 5'9" My bmi was not off the charts, I was unable to lose the weight I wanted, and thats why I had the surgery. When I got back home, I was eating about half of what I used to., I'm eathing what I used to before my surgery, and I feel like I never had the surgery. My weight is 237 today, and I would like to be 180. Not once did I every come close to vomiting . I do have an eating disorder, and its at night time. Doing the day, I'm busy and I pretty much eat healthy, but after dinner, everything go to _ _ _ t. lol. The docotor is talking about a smaller sleeve.
What do I would to acheave after this revision, when i want to eat at night, I would just get sick. I'm laughing as I'm writing this, because, I want the majc pill. Can you please shed some light for me.
Thanks Dan
About two years ago, I had my gastric bypass surgery done, and I have only lost about 15 lbs. I started out at 250lbs and my height is 5'9" My bmi was not off the charts, I was unable to lose the weight I wanted, and thats why I had the surgery. When I got back home, I was eating about half of what I used to., I'm eathing what I used to before my surgery, and I feel like I never had the surgery. My weight is 237 today, and I would like to be 180. Not once did I every come close to vomiting . I do have an eating disorder, and its at night time. Doing the day, I'm busy and I pretty much eat healthy, but after dinner, everything go to _ _ _ t. lol. The docotor is talking about a smaller sleeve.
What do I would to acheave after this revision, when i want to eat at night, I would just get sick. I'm laughing as I'm writing this, because, I want the majc pill. Can you please shed some light for me.
Thanks Dan
Topic: Looking for Counselor in Victoria Texas area
I'm looking for someone who provide counseling for compulsive (emotional) eating in the Victoria, Texas area. I spend my winters in that area and the SWL provider has suggested counseling for compulsive eating as part of my pre-op. If you know of anyone in that area, please let me know.
Topic: I've a confession..
Derick and I are going on a vacation in November for 2 weeks. We are going to an all inclusive resort in Jamaica, which I am absolutely ecstatic about. I've not been on a real vacation in years.. and never out of the Country.
It will be dreamy
I have a little apprehension tho because of the all inclusive part.. (free and abundant food and drinks). And trust me.. the apprehension is over the Premium drinks part.. *sigh*
.. Jamican Rum.. Gray Goose Vodkie.. pretty umbrellas with fruit topping the glass.
I have reminded myself why it is that I will not be partaking of any of these drinks. Because my first drink will be where I left off.. and that was not a pretty sight. Also I told myself that I want to have fun and do alot of activites on this vacation.. like snorkle, sail, scuba dive!! And I surely won't feel up to it after a binge feast. Also I told myself that I want to REMEMBER this vacation.. and if I recall my last drink left me in a blackout after two hours and passing out after 4 hours of drinking.
Sooo... I just wanted to put this out here. That I don't want to drink when I'm on vacation, but the thought is there.... Think I'll pack my book A Day At A Time and take it with me.
thanks for listening
and hope everyone has a wonderful "Tie Me Up Tuesday" !!
Edit to add: I've been sober since November 2006 (just realized vaca is my Soberversary Month) !!
It will be dreamy
I have a little apprehension tho because of the all inclusive part.. (free and abundant food and drinks). And trust me.. the apprehension is over the Premium drinks part.. *sigh*
.. Jamican Rum.. Gray Goose Vodkie.. pretty umbrellas with fruit topping the glass.I have reminded myself why it is that I will not be partaking of any of these drinks. Because my first drink will be where I left off.. and that was not a pretty sight. Also I told myself that I want to have fun and do alot of activites on this vacation.. like snorkle, sail, scuba dive!! And I surely won't feel up to it after a binge feast. Also I told myself that I want to REMEMBER this vacation.. and if I recall my last drink left me in a blackout after two hours and passing out after 4 hours of drinking.
Sooo... I just wanted to put this out here. That I don't want to drink when I'm on vacation, but the thought is there.... Think I'll pack my book A Day At A Time and take it with me.
thanks for listening
and hope everyone has a wonderful "Tie Me Up Tuesday" !!Edit to add: I've been sober since November 2006 (just realized vaca is my Soberversary Month) !!
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Topic: RE: Bulimia plus Bipolar Disorder
Many people I know attend OA meetings online. You can even get an sponsor through the OA website that you can correspond with via email. That seems to really work for a lot of people. So maybe that is an option? I respect your bravery is facing these issues head-on and reaching out for help! I wish you the best!
Topic: ~SPIRITUAL NOT RELIGIOUS~ A DAY AT A TIME
09/16 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
We learn from others in The Program that the best way to deal with painful situations is to meet them head-on, to deal with them honestly and realistically, and to try to learn from them and use them as springboards for growth. Through The Program and our contact with a Higher Power, we can find with courage to use pain for triumphant growth. WILL I BELIEVE THAT WHATEVER PAIN I EXPERIENCE IS A SMALL PRICE TO PAY FOR THE JOY OF BECOMING THE PERSON I WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE?
TODAY I PRAY
May my Higher Power give me the courage I need to stop running away from painful situations. The chemical was my escape hatch, the trap door I counted on to swallow me when life became too monstrous or villainour to bear. Now that I have locked that door, may I face pain and learn from it.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
My compulsion: a trap-door -- and a trap.
We learn from others in The Program that the best way to deal with painful situations is to meet them head-on, to deal with them honestly and realistically, and to try to learn from them and use them as springboards for growth. Through The Program and our contact with a Higher Power, we can find with courage to use pain for triumphant growth. WILL I BELIEVE THAT WHATEVER PAIN I EXPERIENCE IS A SMALL PRICE TO PAY FOR THE JOY OF BECOMING THE PERSON I WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE?
TODAY I PRAY
May my Higher Power give me the courage I need to stop running away from painful situations. The chemical was my escape hatch, the trap door I counted on to swallow me when life became too monstrous or villainour to bear. Now that I have locked that door, may I face pain and learn from it.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
My compulsion: a trap-door -- and a trap.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
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