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03/17 REFLECTION FOR THE DAY
"Lead us not into temptation," we pray, for we know with certainty that temptation lurks around the corner. Temptation is cunning, baffling, powerful -- and patient; we never know when it will catch us with our guard down. Temptation could come in the siren song of a four-color advertisement, the fragment of a half-remembered song or, more obviously, in the direct urgings of another person. We must remain forever vigilant, remembering that the first drink gets us drunk, that the first obessive bite will likely trigger an overeating orgy, that the first roll of the dice could well destroy our lives. AM I AWARE OF MY NUMBER ONE PRIORITY?
TODAY I PRAY
God, lead me out of temptation -- whether it is the jolly-but-alcoholic abandon of my peers at a special-occasion celebration, the pressure from my friends to "get in the spirit" of a party, the familiar aura of an apartment where joints are passed around, the sound of rattling dice, the smell of a bakery. May I know the limits of my resistance and stay well within them. May my surrender to the will of God give me whole new meaning to that old phrase, "Get in the spirit."
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Get in the spirit.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
After all of my post and responses I feel so much better about everything. I have even made an appointment with a therapist and hopefully I can get to a better place about everything. But only in time will I tell, lol. I hope you and your guy blossom and he is true because being single out here sucks and it would be a blessing if truly realizes and appreciates the beauty on the inside of you. And if he does now he will always, so no worries. K? K.
Thanks and please keep in touch, I need all the friends I can get.
The Program teaches us that we are bodily and mentally different than our fellows. We are reminded that the great obsession of every abnormal drinker -- and every one of us who is otherwise addictive -- is to prove that somehow, some day, we will be able to control our drinking, eating or gambling. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing, we are told, and many pursue it to the gates of insanity or death. HAVE I CONCEDED TO MY INNERMOST SELF THAT, FOR ME, "ONE IS TOO MANY AND A THOUSAND NOT ENOUGH.." ?
TODAY I PRAY
May I have no illusions about someday becoming a moderate drinker or drug-user after being an obsessive one. May I muffle any small voice of destructive pride which lies to me, telling me that I can now go back to my former addiction and control it. This is a Program of no-return, and I thank God for it.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
My goal must be lifelong abstinence -- a day at a time.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
I just wanted to say, its one guy, he's a loser, move on... I will be going into surgery with about the same stats, and fear the skin issue, too... I'm also having a mostly-online relationship, with a great guy that I reconnected with after 8 years. I'm going to see him in April, but luckily he is the type of guy who is into big gals, as he puts it.
If you are having problems with depression, it may be time to get into therapy... I am a big believer in seeking mental help when needed. If you decide to seek out psychiatric help, let me know and I'll give you the info for my psychiatrist's office. All of the docs there are great!
Whitney
your encouragement is appreciated. Sorry for you experience.. just know that dating is the time where we are to "get to know" the other person to see if we are compatible. Please try not to take it to heart sooo much. I'm sure there were or will be other men out there that perhaps you will not be "so into".
As for sex.. I do know that if I'm not into it with the person then it does reflect on my "performance" and I can only imagine a man would be the same.
Be sad a little and then get over yourself and move on .. there are others out there!! 
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
There have been days during my recovery when just about everything seemed bleak and even hopeless. I allowed myself to become depressed and angry. I see now that it doesn't matter what I think, and it doesn't matter how I feel. It's what I do that counts. So when I become anxious or upset, I try to get into action by going to meetings, participating, and working with others in The Program. IF GOD SEEMS FAR AWAY, WHO MOVED?
TODAY I PRAY
May I not be immobilized by sadness or anger to the point of despair. May I look for the roots of despair in my tangle of emotions, sort out the tangle, pull out the culprit feelings, acknowledge that they belong to me. Only then can I get into gear, take action, begin to accomplish. May I learn to make use of the energy generated by anger to strenghten my will and achieve my goals.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
To sort out my feelings.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
If we examine every disturbance we have, great or small, we'll find at the root of it some unhealthy dependency and its consequent unhealthy demand. So let us, with God's help, continually surrender these crippling liabilities. Then we can be set free to live and love. We may then be able to Twelfth-Step ourselves, as well as others, into emotional sobriety. DO I TRY TO CARRY THE MESSAGE OF THE PROGRAM?
TODAY I PRAY
May I first get my emotional and spiritual house in order before I seek to carry out serious commitments in human relationships. May I look long and thoroughly at "dependency" -- upon alcohol or other drugs or upon other human beings -- and recognize it as the source of my unrest. May I transfer my dependency to God, as I understand Him.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I am God-dependent.
It is good to have an end to journey towards; but it is the journey that matters in the end. ~Ursula K. LeGuin
Good morning OH'ers.. IT'S FRIDAY! !
Today I am grateful..
For family..
For unconditional love..
For circles..
For knowing I am a sick person trying to get well not a bad person trying to get good..
For unity..
SONG OF THE WEEK
GANGSTA'S PARADISE BY COOLIO
As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I take a look at my life
And realize there's nothing left.
'Cause I've been blasting and laughing so long
That even my momma thinks that my mind has gone.
But I ain't never crossed a man that didn't deserve it.
Me be treated like a punk, you know that's unheard of.
You betta watch how ya talking
And where ya walking
Or you and your homies might be lined in chalk.
I really hate to trip but I gotta loc,
As they croak, I see myself in the pistol smoke.
Fool, I'm the kinda g that little homie's wanna be like,
On my knees in the night
Saying prayers in the street light.
[Chorus]
We've been spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We've been spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We keep spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We keep spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
Look at the situation, they got me facing,
I can't live a normal life, I was raised by the street.
So I gotta be down with the 'hood team,
Too much television watching, got me chasing dreams.
I'm an educated fool with money on my mind
Got my ten in my hand and a gleam in my eye.
I'm a locked out gangsta, set tripping banger
And my homies are down so don't arouse my anger.
Fool, death ain't nothing but a heart beat away,
I'm living life do or die, what can I say?
I'm twenty-three now, will I ever live to see twenty-four,
The way things is going I don't know.
Tell me why are we
So blind to see.
That the ones we hurt
Are you and me?
We've been spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We've been spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We keep spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We keep spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
Power in the money, money in the power,
Minute after minute, hour after hour,
Everybody's running, but half of them ain't looking
It's going on in the kitchen
But I don't know what's cooking.
They say I gotta learn
But nobody's here to teach me.
If they can't understand it, how can they reach me?
I guess they can't,
I guess they won't,
I guess they front,
That's why I know my life is out of luck, foo!
We've been spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We've been spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We keep spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
We keep spending most our lives
Living in a gangsta's paradise.
Tell me why are we
So blind to see.
That the ones we hurt
Are you and me?
Tell me why are we
So blind to see.
That the ones we hurt
Are you and me?
MOVIE QUOTE OF THE WEEK
"IT'S AWFULLY COLD OUT HERE WHEN YOU ARE ALL ALONE" Victor Sweet in Four Brothers.
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