What a surprise ! and not the good kind

Oh honey, I feel so bad for you.

What an awful sinking feeling.

You can do this. We know you can do this - we've done it, and more to the point, the surgeons have done it for us.
Yes, we worked out and we put up with the nausea and the s*&^%t and all, but they performed the miracle on us - and you are being offered that wonderful opportunity as well.

Can't you see, maryjakesda, that the moment on the scale was your lowest moment ever?
This is it! From now on, it will all be a slow climb back up, back out.

KissingToads is absolutely right - you'll not have to look at that number ever again.

Come on, we'll help pull you up - here's my hand, let's GOOoooo!

You have received some amazing words of enouragement and advice from the posts below.  I just wanted to add...more hugs. You said you could use more so here you are

(((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS)))  (((HUGS))) (((HUGS))) 

and there's still more where that came from Mary.

Now listen to everyone on this board, and pull yourself up.  That's just a temporary number - temporary - and the only place that number has to go is down.  If you read through the stats of posters on the board, you'll see that many were right where you are.  And what are they doing now?  They're rejoicing at their success as WLS patients.  They're rejoicing at being able to move, and breathe, and not hurt everywhere.  They're proud that they can now fit behind the wheel of a car, into a booth at a restaurant.  They're enjoying rediscovering themselves (i.e. who is that person looking back at me in the mirror, or the store window.)  That's what you have to look forward to!  Cheer up and get ready for the best ride of your life!

((((((maryjakedesa)))))

I read your post earlier today, and I have been thinking about you for the last 4 hours. I really wanted to think about what I was going to say as a reply.

In terms of advice, there isn't much I can say here, that hasn't already been said so far the wonderful people on this site. As you already know, you are in good company on this site. We are like a family, and I think that is just awesome.

We have all experienced a moment like you have described at some point in our own journeys, and like we have all said -- You are NOT alone.

And No my dear, you are NOT a failure, you are a FIGHTER!!!  Don't forget You have already decided to change your life and improve your health by starting this journey down WLS! Today was a gut-check moment yes... but you are already the most important part of your TEAM.... a TEAM that is dedicated to changing your life forever.

Honestly, I absolutely love what kissingtoads wrote about this is the LAST TIME you are going to see that number... if you are going to focus your memory of this day on something, focus on that point.

May the support from the people on this site cheer you up and keep you moving forward... Hugs,

It hard to find the words to say what I felt when I read your post... I cried and I understood what you are going through.  At different points I think we all feel alone... I know I did.

Then I found this site and read the posts and announced to the site my surgery date before I told most of my family.  The ladies on here were so understanding and supportive it made me feel better. 

Let us be there for you.. be the supportive friends and family you need...  unconditionally.
You are definitely not a failure!
You are definitely not alone!

You should be proud of yourself that you have started this journey and that you are on your way to changing your life for the better! 

I know I am proud of you for reaching out and not giving up!

Maryjakedesa you are going to find strength in this and never look back.  One small bump in the road, you have made a leap towards a different future.  You are surround by supportive friends here and by your loving family.  You are not a failure, but a survior and make a difference in peoples lives.  It's just one of those life experiences you can now put away and reflect years to come.  look to the future and what it will hold.  Biggest hugs and well wishes.  You can do this.  Diane

Oh girl believe me!  Even to this very day despite seeing people post higher weights than me I still see myself as the biggest one in the program at Toronto Western - my eyes seem so different from everyone else's!  When I look around at the people at the TWH support group I see myself as the biggest one in the bunch whether this is true or not and quite honestly I've gained some weight since I had my referral and I am not proud of it.  Between my orientation and now my surgeons appointment I've gained like 10 or 11 pounds and tomorrow I have to step on the scale and own up to that.  What's remarkable about this whole thing is that we're able to say holy crap I have a real problem here that needs real help and instead of doing nothing about it we're making steps to fix it.  I am so excited to be able to have this opportunity - I imagine I will never be 150 pounds which is the ideal weight for me but even if I could just be say 200 pounds - what a change that would make on my life!  How much easier things would be - You keep your chin up, we're all in this together and I like what Manda said.....that's the last time you will have to look at that number again!

I just wanted to send you a hug because I know how awful it is when your weight is thrown at you by surprise like that.  Just remember that this is your turning point, and you will never weigh this much again.  You are getting out there and doing something about it.  Be proud of that and proud of yourself.  It's just a number and you can change it.

*hugs*

Laura

Remember these words:  The journey of 1000 miles begins with a single step.

You've taken that first step.  Your journey has begun towards a better, healthier you.  Remember that, always.