Wishing I was not able to eat everything
I progressed through the stages quite fast as per recommendation from the clinic. I have been able to eat 1/2 cup to 1 cup per meal. Nothing has bothered me.
I tried to remain on track over the holidays and did well for the most part however caved with my mom's baked good. I would have one or two small thumbprint cookies or shortbread cookies. I felt no ill effects after them and really wish I had as this would have been a motivator to stay away from them.
The last couple of weeks have been rather stressful so maybe this is contributing to these slips.
I was under the impression that following the surgery, one would not feel hungry or have any cravings. Maybe I am not really hungry and perhaps it is more emotional eating.
I find that when I eat, I don't feel full, then again I don't feel hungry either.
I hear so many talk about the difficulties they have with certain food or how full they feel after a bite or so and this isn't the case with me.
It would be so much easier if it was the case.
I am still losing (35 lbs including Optifast) although slowly perhaps because of the odd cookie but I think more because I was told I would not lose as fast.
I am feeling guilty for the slips and wish I had some nasty symptoms to stop me. Am I crazy to wish for this?? lol
Just ranting and raving.
Tammy
I don't have any bad side effects from anything either. I don't wish I did though because I want to be able to just eat normally and not worry about dumping.
I don't have any advice really, I just wanted to say that you're not alone in your struggles.
Forget them and move on. You've had a moment of weakness, now it's time to get back on track and regroup and remember why you are doing this!!
One thing you're going to have to work on is distinguishing between "head" hunger and "physical hunger". You're going to have to start recognizing when foods are tempting you based on smells, looks, because you are bored, because they are just "handy" and whether you are truly hungry. That's pretty hard early out, but as you go along, you'll get better at this.
For now, it's probably going to be about following a schedule and routine. You need to get a food journal, and start making a plan for each day. Much like an archetect plans out how to build a house, you need to start making a "plan" each day to follow and working to stay on course. That may mean keeping temptation out of reach and keeping junk out of your house/view as much as possible. Remember, having goodies out where you can see them will only make you crave them every time you have a visual of them so all food stuffs should be put away behind cupboards. Out of sight, out of mind.
You have to think of ways to keep busy when temptations arise. Make a list of things you could do - whether hobbies or projects (e.g. empty out a drawer, closet etc) to even taking a bubble bath. Something that will get you busy and keep the temptation out. If you can keep a craving away for 20 minutes you might decide later on that it's just not worth it. Keep challenging yourself by putting this off for 20 minutes. Journalling is a really great tool - not only to journal what you eat, but WHY you are eat. Some people even talk to their food - mentally talk to a food - such as "brownie, I know you are no good for me....but I want you. But what do you do for me? You'll just make me fat". I know a lady who is really big on this strategy and it works for her. (she doesn't talk aloud - just in her head. LOL).
>>>>I find that when I eat, I don't feel full, then again I don't feel hungry either.
I think you are too dependent on that "full feeling" to think that you are full. My team made a point to tell me that I shouldn't expect that "full-split a gut" feeling with my surgery. I was told NOT to expect that for some time. I was told instead to eat until satiated --- eat until I'm not feeling hungry anymore. Perhaps using that strategy would help you more. Look for an absence of hunger, rather than a feeling of full.
Honey, I've tolerated just about everything since day one. I've dumped maybe a handful of times and it was on something super nasty. I've never gotten anything stuck, had the foamies or vomited. Don't kid yourself --- there are MANY of us who do alrights with all foods. I can eat absolutely EVERYTHING. It's only now many years later that sometimes my hypoglycemia stops me from eating some things anymore. It's all about the choices I make, and the forkful of food I choose to put in my mouth. You'll be no different and while that's not a terrible thing, we can still survive and get the weight off. We just have to have strategies to help us a little bit more (and a great support network like this one is a bonus too!)>
SO you ate a cookie. It's done - lets move on.
I know you'll rock it from now on. You can do it!!! Time to move on
It's a new day =)
Dawn
17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139
You're pretty awesome yourself
Have a great night,
Dawn
17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139
Here's your new motto, my friend:
“Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail."
Ralph Waldo Emerson 17+ years post op RNY. first year blog here or My LongTimer blog. Tummy Tuck Dr. Matic 2014 -Ohip funded panni Windsor WLS support group.message me anytime!
HW:290 LW:139 RW: 167 CW: 139
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