Will I really feel different?

In the middle of my third week of Opti (eight more days to go!) and I am still having intense cravings for carbs and sugar. I have read so many posts by people who say they feel so much better at this point, they can be around people eating etc etc. I don't feel that way at all. I'm still going hour by hour not to cheat. I haven't cheated, but the urge to has not gone away in the slightest. I thought I was really well prepared for Opti after doing a low carb diet last year (with success) but this is so much more intense. It only took a week for me to feel normal last year, now it's week three and I still feel grumpy and weak and like I could rip the cookie out of a baby's hand. I think it's because last year I was still eating chicken spinach salads, and this is just liquid and right now I have a pretty wicked sinus infection but still - I want to feel better and I am not, at all. I'm skipping Thanksgiving dinner all together this year because I don't want to be miserable the whole night. I know it's not abnormal to never feel fine on Opti, some people feel crappy the whole time they're on it. But what about after surgery? Is it really possible that I won't want to wolf down a pizza as soon as I get to the solids stage? At this point it seems like such a far off thing... Solids seems like years away. And not that I would eat pizza, but am I just going to be white knuckling my way through these cravings for the rest of my life? It just seems so impossible that after surgery I will be able to go to say, Christmas dinner, and not want to jump up on the table and devour the turkey and pie. My mom says I have the Opti-crazies (haha) and that once surgery is over I will be fine and things will change and I'll be so glad I did this. But right now I feel like a heroin addict, all wild-eyed and itchy, hoping someone will put a piece of cake down near me so I can swipe it from them. Ugh :(

I guess I'm just looking for reassurance that I'm not slowly losing my mind because that's really what it feels like. I've gone back in the forum to read positive posts that people have written about how great surgery was for them, but for some reason it's not helping. I feel like I will be one of those people who will always be obsessed with food, that the cravings will always be in the back of my mind, taunting me. 

You are not losing your mind! I got worse everyday I took Opti. By the end I HATED being on it but.......it is so worth it! Hang in there!!!

Thanks for the encouragement :) Things look better today!

I was on it with it ? For only 14 days I was not hungry but near the end I just wanted to eat.  I did not and ended up going to bed early but I think it was head hunger it got better.  But it's still is hard because nothing I eat tastes good anymore, I do not want to eat anything and know that part of my eating was soothing and those things do not sooth any more.  It's a catch 22 because in order to loss the weight I have to eat but it's a challenge because either I do not want it or I do not like it, or a new one is this feeling it has not got enough protein so why bother.  

Regarding the holiday meal I found it easy to be around those that knew because, they knew I could not have anything either being alone was harder because my mind started playing tricks on me like no one would know but then, I would remember reading that it took three days to get your body into keytosis sp? But only a second to ruin it.  That's when I started going to bed early.

i hope the next eight days get better, try some pumpkin spice in your vanilla opti? Might be a wee treat

For sure my eating is a way to soothe myself and regulate my moods. It's all head hunger. I am looking forward to not being physically hungry!! Although at the same time it becomes a full time job which as you say is a catch 22. 

Thanks for the encouragement :) In the end some friends asked me to their cottage, no dinner, so I won't be alone but I won't have to be faced with a big dinner!

I will honestly tell you, your not alone. Your doing amazing, you can do this pal, you can! I am 4 1/2 months out and I haven't one craving, nothing, no thoughts of having a donut, or drive thru anything. It's amazing! Still in this honeymoon stage they call it and I never would have believed it until it actually is happening to me. Your so close, it's all worth it. You will be writing here to someone about how you know how they feel and to keep doing it. 

So proud of you. Keep up the good work 

Annette

Oh it's so good to hear you've had no cravings! I guess it is the honeymoon stage but that should help ease you in to when you get used to the pouch and any cravings come back :) I can't wait until I am back and encouraging someone else. Thanks!!

lol I love the heroin addict comparison.  I sometimes feel like that if I am really stressed and thus crave carbs like a beast!  Hang in there - I know you can do it!!

Thank you! I seriously felt like a maniac last night. Must have been stress! I feel way better today. Now that my patts appointment is done I can just enjoy the last few days before surgery and calm the heck down ;)

how was your PATTS?