Been Hiding Again!! I am back I think

HI All
 Been hiding again, kinda been in a funk that I can't explain. just been hiding from the world &
all of my boards the past couple of weeks. Just needed to get a clue where this life is headed.
Still don't know!! Still not working & still don't have any prospects. I will catch up on stuff over the
day & just let you know I am back & will try & update you on the life struggles.
I get into this state of no one caring or reading my stuff, so I just step back & go away for awhile.
I know it is just ME, but, also dealing with a lot of stuff of late ( some of the old stuff) trying to
re-surface & not real well, either.  A lot of which  this board has no idea what I am talking about
& are probably better off not knowing.
Anyway, I am back & among the living again.
I think I had a little meltdown of late. My New Doc up'd my Zoloft to 50 mg twice a day & I think
it made me more depressed so I have gone back to the one a day & that has seemed to help
my attitude. I just think the higher dose was too much.  Sometimes, they dont always know
what is right, actaully most times.
I will try & be around more often.

Saw on the new the other day that Walmart would be hiring 22,000 people this year.  I know it's not the greatest job but they have good insurance and it's cheap.  I thought about applying and working part time, Just enough hours to get the insurance, then quit my job and get my social security.  Then I think it would be stupit to quit a good job when there are so many people out of work.  I'm just tired of working and the pressure, etc.  I'm asking the same questions... where is this life going?  I think it's part of trying to accept the aging process.  It's no fun getting old that's for sure.  I hope you find some work soon.  It will help keep your mind off other things, not to mention the paycheck will be nice.

Thanks Barbara. I actually worked for Walmart before, so am trying to get re-hired since they just
released the freeze they had in place. Here's hoping I here from them soon.

Hi Barbara,
I'm new here and just noticed you are in Omaha, NE.  I lived there for almost 5 years.  I moved there from NY for my job (with FDC).
Just wanted to say hi!!

Thanks
Ruth

Hi Marilyn and welcome back. You are truly missed when you are away from home for a bit. So....just make sure that you at least pop your head in the door and let us know that you are alright. We do worry about each other.
I can understand what you are saying about the job part of your life. I still haven't found one. I am not looking right now with the medical problem but I still like to keep an eye open. I missed out on a couple of jobs that sounded good but couldn't apply for them since it is going to be another couple of months before I can work. That is if things go well here on the home front with the medical problem.

I am fighting a depression but I am working so hard not to let myself slip in there. If I let myself go there is where I am going to stay for a long time...to long of time. I am fighting the poor pitiful me today and I can tell that is the start of the depression working on worming itself in here. I flat out refuse to let it happen.

Keep your chin up and just do the best that you can. Please know that I am keeping you in my prayers and I am sending love and hugs to you...please let the hugs cheer you up for a bit. People really do care about you...even though sometimes we don't really feel that in our hearts and our souls it is true. Don't forget that, Marilyn, it is to important to our well being.

Thanks for the positive words & hugs & prayers. It helps.
Here's hugs & prayers back at you for your heath issues to improve quickly.
Depression is a scary thing I have dealth with it for quite awhile & my brother
actually did not deal with it & ended his life due to the depression. So Please if
you are not on anti-depressant, please get on them if you feel you are going
in too deep. Friendly advice here from one who knows about depression..
Take care & have a great day!!

 Marilyn,

Even though I don't respond like I use to I do read the posts and I do read yours.  When I do read your posts I say a prayer asking for a job for you.  I know it is not easy finding one at our age and at this time in our economy.    

I too have been lurking and not sure why.  Sometimes I just don't feel like typing.... other times, well, I just don't...  no reason.

We all are dealing with something and some of  us have more than others.  Old habits and "stuff" crop up when we least expect it.  I too take meds for depression.  I'll be on them the rest of my life dosages vary depending on what I'm dealing with.  Realization is the first step and you certainly are doing that.  

Keep your head up and know we do care...  silence here at OH doesn't mean indifference.  

Millie

Thanks Millie Much Appreciated!!