Am I the first on here Today? So what's happening Weds?

i offered to george and then laureen-and really just about anyone on here- once we get moved - get their own plane tickets and they can come visit us...and i am sure gonna do my best to get to meet you once we get closer!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so the offer could go for you too, karen!!! and there is sue m on molokai....

so--george and mary have put their tentative reservation in!! and it's only tentative cuz we obviously haven't sold the house yet!!! other than that we are making plans!!!!!!!!!!

is the super ferry totally defunct now?? i haven't kept up on it....

I have a pain in the belly area. It is between the hip bone and belly button. It is buldging out like a soccer ball and feels solid. This has gone on long enough. I see my doctor tomorrow.

Depression is kicking butt. My psychiatrist wants me back in active weekly therapy again. I am isolating from the world which is never a good sign.

Feels like I am falling apart from the inside out. So, it is time to put on my big girl panties and get some help. 

My dear big sister, Annette, I just want to tell you that you are not allowed to fall apart on us! We depend to much on you so that is NOT an option.

Seriously though, I am glad that you are going to see your doctor and are going to do something about the depression. I understand what you are saying about that..I can feel a depression coming on..not sure what to do about it but I will work on it. I have a feeling that I might just talk to my pcp this afternoon about that. I sometimes think that I need something for it. I have been going through so much and I am just so down about it and I am tired of it too. I feel like I take one step forward and two steps back.

Take care of Annette and do what you need to do. We don't have to like what we have to do..we just have to do it. Know that I am keeping surrounded in prayers for the things going on in your life.

I am sending special love and gentle hugs to you...I hope that you feel them.

Annette,

Get to the doctor about the bulge and then to the other doctor about the depression.  You cannot let the depression snowball.  Don't isolate either.  Have your labs done to make sure you are not low on one of the minerals or vitamins. I got really loopy depressed a few months back and thankfully my pcp ran something and found that my potassium level was below life sustainment.  He sent me to the ER where they filled me with IVs and lots of potassium and glucose. LOL  I left the hospital two days later and saw color.  Not that I didn't see color before, but I was so down that I didn't see anything.  Go. Go to your doctor asap.

(((annette))) sure hope you get to the dr asap and see what is wrong!!! and why are you so depressed?? did i miss something here?? you get your little butt to the dr and get better!!!

hugs

Don't isolate, Annette. I have been in a blue mood myself lately. My boss pulled me into his office yesterday and asked me how I've been. I love the man, I really do. He's so sweet. I told him I'm OK, just a little depressed ... life has been kicking me in the butt lately, and I had a major meltdown at work Saturday night. But I went home, had a good cry, a beer and talked to my friends, and felt a little better (not a whole lot, but a little). What I really want to do is talk to Margie, but she's dead and I'll never be able to talk to her again. And some of my friends just didn't understand that very well (Roxane, in particular, who said, "Well, life sucks, people die, get over it." Rox was always very blunt ... that's the nurse in her. I'm sorry, but my heart is aching and I'm having problems getting over this one.).

So listen, sistah, if you need someone to talk to and that shrink doesn't help you, you can talk to me. I'm home all day, don't go to work til 6:30. Pick up the phone and call. We're all here for each other. Don't hold it in.

(((((( hugs Annette )))))) Please go to the DR about your belly sweetie!!! I battle depression also. No fun.

Feel better soon hun!

annette...sista....if yur panties are in the laundry i could lend you a clean pair of mine- big girls need to have extra pairs dontchaknow!!!
love ya -get thee to thine doctors.....

Good morning to you, Susan it sure is nice to see you starting the post this morning. Morning to my other goofy OFF family too. The banter that is going on is fun to listen to. I love the stuff that goes on here....we are all free to be us and no one worries about the fun we have. Life is suppose to be fun..and not always serious. Life can be a bummer so we need the fun!

The nurse is coming this morning between 8 and 10 since I have the appointment with my pcp this afternoon at noon. I am glad when that is going to behind me for another month. I sometimes just dread going to her for some reason..but then again I hate going to doctors...any of them! Even the blasted ophthalmologist is past due...by a month. Not good for that. Oh well..such is life in the big city.

It is another hot one today here with heat indexes expected to be in the 100's. Bill is getting the air done in my car..so I hope that this morning will finish that up. All I have to say is it better....or it is going to be a long lonely summer for him as for going out. That is all I have to say on that subject!

Misty is being love needy this morning. I was having the kitty under foot all morning and she is just talking up a storm to me. And trust me sometimes she is not always a little baby sounding kitty either...she can get very vocal and demanding. That is something that she never did when I first got her. She wouldn't talk to us if her life depended on it. Now she is such a different kitty...I think her true colors have come out and sometimes they still are after almost 6 years. And trust me on this one..sometimes her colors are not always pastel and light and pretty either. ha ha

I guess I should get moving. I am not planning much for today since the infection is worse. I am anxious to see what the culture says tomorrow. I feel safe with Erica as my nurse. I told my sister that if I had to choose between Dr. Stanish, his PA or Erica, right now I would choose Erica without a doubt. I feel that she is the one I am safest with. By far...now isn't that a scary one? But I am just so tired of the run a round with him and his office.

I am sending love and hugs to all and prayers are being said for everyone too. Don't forget to plant your happiness and joy seeds today. They will keep growing...kind of like weeds sometimes! ha ha

brenda...has this nurse called the dr to let him /her know that there is an infection? if not maybe you should just show up there at dr's office and show him the green icky stuff...or take the dressing that is all icky with it to show him/her!!! i hope you get this cleared up soon and back to your life!!!!

hugs