Weeeelllllll! I'm Back.....

Marti, Marti! You have been missed! *hugs*   Im so glad that youre back.  Im trying hard to come back too...tho I rarely post, I do read the posts almost daily.

I also struggled and managed to gain back over 35 pounds...I hated myself and hid from the world here.  I saw so many doing so well  and I compared my losses to theirs..wasn't enough..never enough.  I felt like a failure and I even started postponing my surgeon's appointment/checkup....hoping that by the next date, I'd have lost that extra..which, of course, I didnt.

I've been doing hypnotherapy (thank goodness, I have a friend who is a Dr of Hypnotherapy and is TOUGH with me too).... and counselling and I'm back on track.  I have managed to lose almost all of that 35 pounds and  now I'm liking myself much better.  And on Monday, I see my surgeon in Toronto...I'm not cancelling...I'm facing the music.   I still think that I can eat too much..I will be asking him questions.

My drug of choice is carbs...ice cream ...*hangs her head*..homemade cookies....grilled cheese on 12 grain bread.  yup...it's amazing how much I find myself eating.  Of course, the shame comes, the regret, the self anger, the stuffing of food to soothe the self -revulsion....AAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCKKK!! and I KNOW better...yup..same old, same old...but now I am feeling better...liking myself better...( I know we are SUPPOSED to love ourselves regardless)...I never did make it that far before.

My life has been busy..the economic downslide really hurt us here...hubby is a GM Management retiree after working and investing in GM for 47 years.  That was quite an adjustment for me too.  Of course, I "fed" my shock, resentment and anger that all our savings and investments were so badly affected.

Marti, the best thing that you can do for yourself is to BE HERE....and the best thing that I can do..is BE HERE TOO! *hugs*

NancyB

Nancy Darlin.......and what a great thing that you are here also......you were soooo supportive of me when I joined, you kept such good track of your food....and of course I always love reading about your life.....
Take good care of yourself sweetie....hope your legs are doing well. Love, Marti

Marty,

I am so happy to see you again. This is not an easy journey, we all fall into one of the mud puddles on occasion and get rather messy. By joining forces we carry on.

Kisses & Hugs
Annette

Wow Annette honey...you look beautiful......I hope  you feel as good as you look. I know you had had some real physical struggles.....I look forward to knowing what is going on in your daily life again. Love, Marti

Marti....remember....you ARE a phoenix!!  Hugs and love.  Diane

OMG!!!! Diane my sweet girl......I always have you in my heart.......I sure hope I can do this Phoenix thing one more time.

Are you home from Greece yet?

Love and Hugs, Marti