PHONE CALL FROM MOM...
OMG...my cell phone rang night before last and it was my mom...she called to let me know that my older brother had a stroke and was in the hospital in ann arbor michigan!!! seems he told her sunday afternoon he couldn't see good to drive home from where he was at and would be home soon as he could see again...after he got home i guess he made her scared about what his condition was like and she called joe my other brother and he came over and took him to hospital to see what was wrong. they told him that they couldn't do anything for him and to come back the next day!!! HUH?????? (he went to the VA hospital in saginaw) so anyhow not sure i understood her but they did tell him to go to ann arbor VA and they could do more testing on him. so off they went to get him tested...they told him they wanted to keep him over night for observation and also asked him if the dr's in saginaw VA told him to take aspirin...NOPE they did NOT tell him to do anything at all....so anyhow if he HAD taken an aspirin right away he would have better vision in his one eye now!!! so for now he can only see shadows from the one eye and was told not to drive til his testing is all done etc...he is now home but not a happy camper....understandably so...i never did care for the treatment of the VA dr's and hospital...but if its the only way to get help you do what you have to do i guess. so hopefully he can make a good recovery. asking for prayers or whatever you might be able to offer for him right now.
my sister is still in the nursing home waiting for her urologist to see her tomorrow and see what is next for her. he wants to do something in his office but she said NO that she wants to be put under for it to be done. not sure what it is tho...so again prayers or whatever you can do for her would also be appreciated at this time.
news on my ex husband is he didn't have his eye taken out yet...he is on a feeding tube in his stomach. he can't swallow and its not his esophagus this time. he has barretts esophagus and at times he said he couldn't swallow good a few years ago and now this...i am thinking why do they keep trying to keep him alive when he wants to die??? his kids know this and yet they are doing this to him...its so sad. so again if you would keep him in your prayers and thoughts or whatever you do i know he would like that alot.
as for me and my mom...we are at our wits end with all this happening!! mom is upset mainly because her judy isn't there to help her and my sister and brother...i am upset because she is upset...i can't do anything but call her and she call me. mom has her youngest son to help her and its about time he did help!!! but then it was ALWAYS me that did the emergency runs and everything when the time came...i will be ok i just needed to let off some built up emotions here with my OFF family...i know some of you will poo-hoo about my ex but tuff tiddly winks!!! there was ALOT of years between us and its hard to just forget him...the love is gone but still i care about him ya know what i mean??
thanks for being here and thanks for responding if you do respond...not sure when i will be back on here this pc is slower than molasses right now and i am frustrated trying to get this posted to you all.
i will be ok...i will be ok...it will get better i am sure!!!
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
I will be keeping your family and your ex in my prayers. It always seems like just about everything happens all at once. Know that I am keeping you in prayers too for the feelings that you are feeling while all this turmoil goes on.
Remember that your OFF family is here for you always. Some may pooh pooh it but others won't and just lean on those that understand the feelings that you are having.
Of course you still care about the things that are happening to your ex husband. There is a lot of history behind you two as a couple. Some happy history and of course some not so happy. I think that every couple has that...I know that even with Bill, and we are still married, there is good history and not so good history. No one gets along 100% of the time.
I am sending lots of love, hugs and prayers your way, dear one. Just make sure you keep the faith while going through all this from a distance.
Hugs and prayers

I understand about the ex. He must have been wonderful at one time or you wouldn't have been with him in the first place.
Hope things get better soon.
You are strong and as someone else said 'you can do hard things'!
Praying for you and your family.
Sheri