I AM HOME AGAIN....
from my trip back to michigan. it ws a sad drive there and back but a happy time seeing my family again!!! the service was very nice and lori did a nice picture memorial of her dad from his happy and free of sickness days. it brought back many many memories of my life with him. his mother never made a move toward me at all nor did his step dad or sister, bil or niece...his kids DID come to give me a much needed hug tho. as did his grandchildren. after the service i was the bigger person and made the move to his mother and i gave her a hug and said he is no longer in pain and she agrees. i noticed his sister moved far away from me but i didn't care....i then gave his step dad a hug also and said to him that gary was no longer suffering. he didn't say a word to me but did hug me back. i stood at the grave site and talked to gary telling him how i sometimes hated him but always loved him and its sad that things turned the way they did. i told him that i had a good life here with rick and was happy that he was finally with his old pals again and also that he was with spike too!! (spike was his therapy type dog while he was sick...spike always made gary take him for walks and to get gary moving and not just sitting around all day). when the song was played i lost it and was glad that my sister came to me or i think i would have really lost it even more. we then went to the american leigon for a luncheon and again i was snubbed by his sister but oh well its her loss not mine...garys kids came over to talk with me and rick and all was good. garys grandson came over to introduce his girlfriend to us and he told her i was his grandma judy...that made tears well up...thankyou jeffy!!!! made me feel still wanted in his life atleast. we then said our fairwells and took mom home and picked bandit up and headed home.
thankyou margo for sending me the sympathy card. it meant so much to me. (((margo)))
and also thankyou ALL again for being here for me!!!
(((OFF)))
Now you can put that part of your life away, just like a closed chapter in a book. Time to move on with Rick and Bandit and your new life in Ohio.
Finally got your box of yarn in the mail today. It's coming Priority Mail (it was the same price as parcel post)....so you should have it in a day or so. It's a gift from my late Mom and me - ok? She loved to crochet and knit and made beautiful things. I have a lot of her books but they are way too heavy to mail -- maybe sometime we can get together and I'll let you pick some of them....there are 3 or 4 Vanna White (wheel of fortune) afghan books. If you need crochet hooks let me know I have quite a few of them too. Enjoy the yarn and think of me and my sweet Mom.
Sending love and hugs,
Pat R.
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thankyou pat!!! yes the service was nice and i was surprised that i could speak about gary and all...
looking forward to the yarn!!! i still need to find the loom and hook...lol i will find it now that the yarnis almost here!!! and i WILL think of you and your mom while making it and using it also!!
(((pat)))
thankyou connie!!!! i had a few days that i felt wouldn't end but i will be ok....he is not suffering any longer and for that i am grateful. last few years were plain hell with him but i know it was the sickness not really him. but the love was long gone...after so many years of being together it is hard to "forget" ya know?
yes rick is my rock!!! he is good to me and makes me laugh and makes me feel loved each and every day!!!
love you too connie...(((connie)))
