in Ohio, it's Tuesday...so what's new??
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Annette 
i wish i could reach out and touch all of you who have sent such wonderful caring words and thoughts...i KNOW this isn't the worst michael and i have faced-- yet it was just--well-can't explain it....janet; my own bootstraps were getting dusty so i pulled em out and they are ready..thanks for the offer!!!a few conversations you and i have had over the years help me thru this...you need to know that!
one thing hard for me is rememebering the experience in 2003 when we first went to st v's for his original catheterization and quad bypass-he told the ambulance drivers not to lose me (i was following in our car)--i got stopped at a light and they waited!!!!!! two weeks of hell -didn't know the city (Toledo)-freezing cold weather and a crippling blizzard and no family or friends nearby-- married less than 4 months-and michael had sworn me not to call his family....i felt so alone--now i have all of you ...
about "the conversation"...michael was so adamant against a funeral that his only sister and BIL stopped talking to him for awhile- they didn't let him explain his thoughts/motives...cost etc--so i am able now to live with the decisions he has passed along....in this day of uncertainty...i think it's good for everyone who has any family or SO or even just a trusted friend to have the discussion-while they are all healthy and able to--get the wishes out get them known-some preplanning/prepaying if possible....when my adopted mom died, my first hubby and i were stuck making decisions cuz my aunt ( her only sister) was a basket case...it brought alot home then...i get the Current cataglog still- used to really love their stuff- i always look at the book "what my family needs to know" and chuckle cuz i have no "estate " to plan--yet i have wishes..and have expressed same to my children and mother...
ahhh...sorry-----again...not to be a downer...realism in our age group...facts of growing older..."where the bear ****s in the buckwheat:" michael would say!!! thank you all for understanding.....
one of the things that is hard about this- michael figured after his quad bypass that he had been renewed-invincible once again!!!! never gave thought to anything else going wrong with his heart!!! marti's reminder of her mike's 12 stents helps!!!
so- the sun is shining in ohio and it is 830--i managed to sleep pretty well- not sure of michael's "quality" tho i know he slept...roxie has been out and i am eating cottage cheese for simplicity-don't feel like washing any dishes this morning...need to gather his overnite bag and get self dressed- grab a book or something to keep my mind occupied--i have a designer whey bottle of protein water and a small protein bar in my purse...cash for the cafeteria....have a tote bag full of stuff i know i'll never attack so no need to take it-ahhh maybe it'll sit in the backseat of the car in case....and we are off in about an hour-his procedure isn't til actually 1230 so it will be hours before i know anything....i'll report in or call someone...
hugs and prayers to all of you ....
one thing hard for me is rememebering the experience in 2003 when we first went to st v's for his original catheterization and quad bypass-he told the ambulance drivers not to lose me (i was following in our car)--i got stopped at a light and they waited!!!!!! two weeks of hell -didn't know the city (Toledo)-freezing cold weather and a crippling blizzard and no family or friends nearby-- married less than 4 months-and michael had sworn me not to call his family....i felt so alone--now i have all of you ...
about "the conversation"...michael was so adamant against a funeral that his only sister and BIL stopped talking to him for awhile- they didn't let him explain his thoughts/motives...cost etc--so i am able now to live with the decisions he has passed along....in this day of uncertainty...i think it's good for everyone who has any family or SO or even just a trusted friend to have the discussion-while they are all healthy and able to--get the wishes out get them known-some preplanning/prepaying if possible....when my adopted mom died, my first hubby and i were stuck making decisions cuz my aunt ( her only sister) was a basket case...it brought alot home then...i get the Current cataglog still- used to really love their stuff- i always look at the book "what my family needs to know" and chuckle cuz i have no "estate " to plan--yet i have wishes..and have expressed same to my children and mother...
ahhh...sorry-----again...not to be a downer...realism in our age group...facts of growing older..."where the bear ****s in the buckwheat:" michael would say!!! thank you all for understanding.....
one of the things that is hard about this- michael figured after his quad bypass that he had been renewed-invincible once again!!!! never gave thought to anything else going wrong with his heart!!! marti's reminder of her mike's 12 stents helps!!!
so- the sun is shining in ohio and it is 830--i managed to sleep pretty well- not sure of michael's "quality" tho i know he slept...roxie has been out and i am eating cottage cheese for simplicity-don't feel like washing any dishes this morning...need to gather his overnite bag and get self dressed- grab a book or something to keep my mind occupied--i have a designer whey bottle of protein water and a small protein bar in my purse...cash for the cafeteria....have a tote bag full of stuff i know i'll never attack so no need to take it-ahhh maybe it'll sit in the backseat of the car in case....and we are off in about an hour-his procedure isn't til actually 1230 so it will be hours before i know anything....i'll report in or call someone...
hugs and prayers to all of you ....
I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult.
- E. B. White
Hugs to you and Michael today!!
I was going to say I'd loan you my bootstraps but I see you have yours and a pair waiting from JanetW!
Let us know how it goes.
As for the "what my family needs to know" conversation, I am so grateful both of my parents were open about what they wanted or didn't want for their end-of-life wishes. Mom cannot communicate now but when she could she was adamant no machines or artificial means of sustaining life when it's That Time. It has made our decision process alot easier as we make decisions about her health care and well being.
Hang in there! We got your back!!!
I was going to say I'd loan you my bootstraps but I see you have yours and a pair waiting from JanetW!
Let us know how it goes.
As for the "what my family needs to know" conversation, I am so grateful both of my parents were open about what they wanted or didn't want for their end-of-life wishes. Mom cannot communicate now but when she could she was adamant no machines or artificial means of sustaining life when it's That Time. It has made our decision process alot easier as we make decisions about her health care and well being.
Hang in there! We got your back!!!
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Morning all. Margo I wish I could be there for you & Micharl today. You are in my thoughts & prayers. Please don't forget to take care of yourself too!
Well I just got an e-mail from OH. I forgot it's my 4 year anniversary. My DH couldn't believe it's been 4 years. I am so greatful for this surgery, & for getting my life back.
Please, all of you that have a second chance at life take care of you!!
Nan
Well I just got an e-mail from OH. I forgot it's my 4 year anniversary. My DH couldn't believe it's been 4 years. I am so greatful for this surgery, & for getting my life back.
Please, all of you that have a second chance at life take care of you!!
Nan
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