my life is going to h------

after the loss of my huband in july.things is not going right.everything is just not  right anymore.i just took it is and noting careing anymore.i have gain weight and the dr is mad at me,he told to get a life.io stay in bed and dont want to see anyone.and yesterday i had to put my 17 year old dog down.he went into carido arrest i found him laying in the yard.he was so desd weight.i had to roll him over onto a quilt i had and drag him to the car.he was so not breath well went i got to the vet.fliud had got around his heart and lungs.he was fine last week when the vet check him.there was no way she could save him.its also show that dogs is like us.they can have the same sicknes and can go anytime.i dont sleep at night.the pills the dr gives me dont work.i try everything.from teas and taking baths with things from the cherb shop.i have gave up.it was not meant to have a good life.i do have to son back living with me.but i have to deal with his drinking and anything else he wants me to do.its the i dont care for you mom.has any one found out about linda?thank for letting me vent.


marylyn

I am so sorry to hear about your troubles.  I had to put my dog down about six months ago.  It was a very hard thing to do.  Especially since he appeared healthy, he was just in pain.  He needed surgery that may or may not have worked. 

Marilyn, are you seeing any kind of counselor?  A grief counselor maybe.  Or even talk to a pastor.  Please don't give up.  Life is precious no matter what obstacles are in the way. 

We are your friends/family.  Talk to us.  There is somebody here quite often almost any time of day. 

Terry has gone to see Linda and will be going once a week I believe she said.  Or as often as she can.  If you PM her, she will give you her address if you want to send Linda a card to let her know you are thinking about her.

THANKS,ITS ANOTHER LATE NIGHT.I CAN NOT SLEEP.YES I SEEN A COUNSELOR AND TALK TO MY PASTOR.BUT IT DONT SEEM TO HELP.ALL I KEEP IS SAYING GOD WILL SUPPLY ALL MY NEEDS,I KNOW OUR PRAYERS IS NOT ANSWER WHEN WE ASK.HOPEING THIS WILL END SOON.

MARYLYN

Is your doc aware that the pills you are taking are not helping?  Don't be afraid to let him/her know.  You are paying the doc.  Make 'em work.  I am here most nights, and I have on occassion had back and forth discussions with people through PM's, posting on a board, or emails.  Even texting.  That is easy for me to do while I work.  If you want my cell, let me know.  If you choose to converse with me, I will try to be there to help.  I hate seeing friends suffer.  And if you post here, I consider you a friend.

Hi Marylyn,

You need to talk to someone about your depression.  Sometimes we can only take so much.  I don't think you are over your husbands death yet.  Not that you should be, but it has put you into a deep depression.  You are coming to terms with things that you didn't think you had to yet.

About your son, I am going through something too.  We just kicked him out, not an easy thing to do.  It has helped him in many ways.  He can't rely on us anymore.  He has to fend for himself.  He is living with his girlfriend now.  Many here have told me tough love is good.  You need to take care of yourself before you can ever begin to take care of someone else.

You may not find all the answers here, but it is a good group of compassionate people who can offer you a place to come and get answers, or just to tell what is going on in your life.  Sometimes when we write it , it feels better.

We care about your well being, don't get frustrated or feel overwhelmed.  Someone here can always cheer you up.  If you need to talk, I am always accessible.

Hang in there,...

Mary

I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO MY PASTOR AND TALK TO  ADR ABOUT WHATS GOING ON.HOPING THIS END SOON.I LIKE TO GET SOME SLEEP.I PRAYER EVERDAY THAT THINGS WILL CHANGE.I LIKE TO THROW MY SON OUT.BUT I NEED SOMEONE AROUND IF THEY DRIVING ME CRAZY,I DONT HAVE ANYONE ELSE,IM PLANNING ON ON HAVING MY 5 SURGERY ON MY KNEES.

MARYLYN

Marylyn,

I'm so sorry you are going through this. 

If insurance or money is an issue, contact your local MHMR and go get some counseling.  Truly, it will help... and it will get you out of the house and the ability to vent.  Contact your PCP and get some 'happy pills'.  Certainly not a cure-all but a start.

Sometimes it just feels like all we have are 'losses' and we give our power to someone else.  When you take back your power, you take back your life.  I know from wherein I speak...and those that know me...KNOW it.

I wish you only the best.  Life is certainly hard...but please try to find the good things that will make you WANT to get out of bed.

Janet

THANKS BUT MONEY IS NOT THE ISSUE OR INSURANCE.IM BEEN TAKING CARE OF IN THAT DEPT.I HAVE TRY PILLS FROM MY DR.BUT THEY DONT WORK.THANKS FOR YOUR WORDS


MARYLYN

Marilyn...so nice to see your post this morning. You have been missed.

I am so sorry to hear you aren't doing very well. You have had a lot to cope with. Please seek out someone to talk this over with. Depression is a debilitating decease. I know because I have been dealing with it for many many years. Don't give up....we all care!!!! Write here or contact one of us....we will help all we can.

As for your son....don't let him control you...YOU are his MOTHER....it is YOUR home. Give him rules and stick with them. If you don't want drinking in your house tell him to take it elsewhere. You don't need to deal with that on top of all your losses. If he doesn't want to follow YOUR rules tell him to leave. He is causing you too much stress and heartache....neither of which you need right now.

You remember you are never alone....we are here most all the time...at least one or the other of us. You are not burdening us in any way. Please...reach out to us...we want to know how you are doing.

Hope your day gets brighter....hugs....connie d

THANKS CONNIE,BUT I DIDNT KNOW THIS WOULD HAPPEN TO ME.I KNEW THERE WAS OTHERS OUT IN THE WORLD THAT IT WAS HAPPING TO.BUT NEVER KNEW IT WOULD BE ME.I HAVE TALK TO MY PASTOR AND DRS THAT HELPS WITH THIS.FOR RULES.THAT EVEN DIDNT HAPPEN WHEN HIS DAD WAS LIVING.HE  DIDNT CARE THEN AND HE DOES NOW.I REMEBER THE DAY HIS DAD DIE.SAID THAT HE KNEW THAT HE WASNT PROUD OF HIM,BUT HE SAID HE WOULD TAKE CARE OF ME AND CHANGE HIS WAYS,BUT THAT DIDNT HELP.AND DIDNT KEEP HIS PROSSIBLE TO HIS DAD.BUT ALL I CAN DO IS KEEP PRAYERING FOR HIM.THANKS FOR LETTING ME VENT.

THANKS
MARYLYN