Still having to re-learn. . .

tough lessons. I am out of control yet AGAIN! Will I never GET it? I am so disgusted with myself and that does nothing to help so today I will be proactive. I've let the carb monster back into my life slowly this summer.  The past few weeks, with a million reasons but none legitimate, I have been eating more and more of the things that I know I should not. So in an effort to rein myself back in. I'm on the 5 day pouch test starting today.

I am not doing it to lose weight. When I've done it before little weight loss resulted, but I do get back to basics and feel much better once the carbs are out of my system. So today and tomorrow it will be protein shakes and clear or cream soups. Will make some sugar free jello to have on hand also.

 I'm trying not to beat myself up. . . It's hard not to. I know my pouch still works when I work it right, but I've learned that I can slip in things that I shouldn't without becoming ill. However, I don't feel good mentally or physically so I'm doing my best to get back on track. Feeling like I should strip down and beat myself with a wet branch over and over. .  . I won't.

Instead I'll make the most of the day. I have a house that needs a thorough cleaning so I'll start there. I have two more plants to put in outside; gardening always makes me feel better. I know I'm feeling angry at myself on one hand and having a pity part on the other. . . . I'll try to be in a better humor tomorrow. I think getting back a feeling of some semblance of control will help. I think I can, I think I can, I KNOW I can. .  .

Karen

I think many of us are in the same boat.  I keep saying that I'm going to do the pouch test, but then I think, "Well, first I have to finish up the ____ that's in the fridge", or I have plans during the week that involve time with others and/or eating out, and I keep letting it slide.  Meanwhile, my clothes are getting tighter and tighter, and I'm feeling out of control, and I'm not happy with myself, either.

Good luck with the test.  I know it works because I've done it.  I know you'll feel so much better.

Candy

Candy, I feel just lousy mentally and physically. I feel like I've been on a two week bender. What a blue funk. I'm trying not to beat myself up but not succeeding very well. thanks for the support.

Karen,

We all struggle and you are not alone. The old ways are easy. We ate that way for most of our lives.

Recognizing a problem is a good first step. Tackle this one bite at a time. You CAN do it.

Kisses
Annette

Annette, Thanks. Damn, I just hate it when I'm not perfect!!! I try so hard but never have never will achieve that. For today I can follow this plan and I WILL!

when i was awake at 230 the other morning; i opened a brand new container (2#) of small curd low fat cottage cheese- and damned if i didn't eat the ENTIRE container sitting right there....

go ahead
beat yourself if ya need to cuz i am!!!! get it out of your system and do the pouch test- i should!!!!!
hugs to you

Ok, I gave myself a good beating and threw in one for you too. Now I'm going to stay busy and do what needs to be done.

Margo

We're still better off than we were.  Remember when that entire container would have been a pint of Ben and Jerry's???

Makes my stomach hurt just to think of it.

Ice cream is no longer one of my drugs of choice.  Makes me sooooo sick.

Hang in and hang on. 

Candy

Candy, not many things bother me but more than a spoonful of ice cream is one. Mike and made sugar free fresh strawberry shakes with fat free milk, fresh berries, and sugar free ice cream. About 1/4 cup and I felt lousy. Not upchucking but bad enough to stop.

Karen

It's not the sugar for me as much as the milk.  Although I do have to watch the sugar on an otherwise empty stomach because of my blood sugar dropping.  I never liked milk before my surgery, made me feel all yucky unless it was in cheese or yogurt (or ice cream).... combined with something else.  Since my surgery, anything more than 1/4 cup of anything like ice cream gets me so bloated that I'm miserable for hours. 

So I've pretty much given up ice cream, ice milk, etc.  Once in a while I have a Skinny Cow treat, and that doesn't seem to hurt.  Ben and Jerry's...or Tasty-Freeze or Dairy Queen....are treats of the past.

I don't miss it a lot.  Probably because I know how I'll feel if I eat it.

See, we're not too old to learn.  Sometimes just too stubborn to listen....

Candy