Still having to re-learn. . .

I sure think so! I'm still alive. I've had 3 shakes, two cups of jello, 2 cups of chicken broth, and a ton of water. I've cleaned out drawers, cleaned 4 toilets, (who in the hell needs 4 toilets!) planted 4 plants, mopped the kitchen floor. . . . It's just 8pm but I think I'll take a Tylenol PM and go to bed. Don't think I can face one more shake today. Oh boy, tomorrow will  another repeat. Give me strength!!!

Hey, if you still have all that energy, you can come down here and help me finish unpacking and then clean my apartment ... cleaning is a real problem for me with my back and knees, it takes forever to vacuum. And I only have one bathroom, but it really needs cleaning. And I have protein and water and that pool, too!

Wish I could Eileen. I'd love to see  you. Not that I love the cleaning but it is keeping my mind off of the munchies! Howevah! LA in August? I don't think so! Not enough bribery in the world!!!!

HI GIRL ITS ME MARYLYN.YOUR NOT ONLY IN THIS.TELL ME HOW DO TO THIS.I HAVE FORGOT ABOUT THIS,I WENT TO THE NEW DR LAST MONDAY.SHE WAS NOT A HAPPY CAMPER WITH MY HOLD BODY.SHE IS PUTTING ME THROUGH LOTS OF TEST THIS WEEK.ONE SHE WAS WONDER WHY I HAVENT HAD MY UPPER BODY XRAY.YOU KNOW WHICH ONE THAT IS.I TOLD HER IT WAS UP TO THE DR THAT I HAD SINCE 1992.BUT THE TEST CAME BACK NORMAL THANKS GOD FOR THAT.THE LOIWER PART SHE WILL DO THE NEXT TIME.TOO MANY MEN ON HERE SO THAT WHY YOU HAVE TO READ BETWEEN THE LINES.I KNOW YOU CAN GET BACK TO THE BASICS.YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO.

MARYLYN

Hi Marylyn,

Just google "5 day pouch test". It's really easy; Basically the first 2 days are just liquids. Protein shakes, broth, cream soup, sugar free jello, lots of water. I got through day one and am well into day two. Tomorrow day 3 I get to have soft protein such as tuna or canned chicken. I know it will taste yummy. I slept better last night. Think I'd learn after a while wouldn't you??

Get those tests done that you need to do! I have my physical appt this next week. I'll get my bloodwork done a few days earlier. Had my mammogram done already and it was fine. I really like my doctor and she has been so supportive of my weight loss journey.

Marylyn, you have been through a lot this last year or so and I can tell you are feeling better. Take care of your physical body too. I know it helps my self esteem so much when I take care of myself.

HI KAREN,I WIL LOOK IT UP.I FORGOT THISITS BEEN 2004 SINCE SURGERY.ITS HARD TO BELIVE THAT WE HAD IT DONE SO LONG AGO.AND FIND OUR SELF IN THIS STATE BUT IT HAPPENS,TO ALL SOME PEOPLE WANT ADMIT TO IT,BUT THEY DO HAVE THE SAME FEELING.I DO FEEL A LIITLE BIT BETTER,ALL I DO IS TO STAY UNDER GODS WORD KNOWING THAT HE IS WITH ME.I WILL STAY IN TOUCH

MARYLYN

Karen,

I so understand this and I think when we start this journey, we all have a certain expectation that this tool of us will take us where we want to go and then we will be able to stay there, even those of us who have witnessed or heard of those that regain their weight and we say, I won't be that person. . .  well, as time post-operatively moves on, the habits of, especially for those of us who have pretty much a long lifetime behind us of bad habits, creep in and we indulge ourselves, only to find, yes, weight gain does and can happen to us and then a sense of guilt and shame creep in and we begin the cycle of self abuse. 

I thought I'd be better able to handle things when it got tough, well guess what, NOT true. . . 

Changing what needs changing, our thinking and behaviors, is not by any means an easy task, if only they could give us a pill when we have our surgeries, a pill that as we change physically, could change our mindsets and love of the comfort and pleasure that food provides for us.

I can eat just about anything with little or no ill effect, so long as I have eaten some protein first, and I don't want to eat anything that is going to bring the results of regain, however, my nemsis is salty things, chips can call my name and then I am off to the races, often I am able to keep them out of my hands, but I must admit to once, sometimes twice a week indulgences and while I don't buy the big bag, but individual serving sizes and try to stick with the baked or reduced fat ones, I still have no business eating those damn chips. . . empty calories 

Fear is my ally in this journey, the fear of regain and being where I once was, has kept me from returning to most of my bad habits, but I still enjoy the good tastes that come from food and have to keep myself from grazing and slider foods. . .  It's an endless battle that with the support and encouragement I get from coming here, helps keep me on course. Staying honest and "not eating in the closet", does help, so some things have changed. . .

I think the good part, for us on OH, particularly on this forum, is that the support we have here, helps us to get back to what we know works and we just have to recommit to the mental and physical aspects of this journey.  I know that together we can do, what singularly, I cannot. 

Hugs, Laureen

Laureen, I don't know if you realize how "calming" you are. Thank you so much for always being here for me and the rest of us!

OK,, Ibought the soup and jello and protein powder and fat free milk and water. Tomorrow is the day I retake control. Ive got my journal ready to write down everything as I go, to retrain myself to be accountable. I put the elliptical in the living room where I can watch a dvd as I work. So, I have no excuse.
So,,Ill be checking in here with my progress. Lord knows I need the support!
We can do this,,and we can make it work for us again. Its a mind set,,lets work on that!
Be blessed!