What Finally Friday New?

Morning Trish, OFF...

Sorry that you are having a problem with your sister, amazing what a family disease alcoholism can be or how it can "affect" the family. . . 

I have issues with my son, *****ally was not directly affected as he was not around to witness first hand my physical dependency issue, however, as some know, the bottle was but a symptom of the underlying issue within me and so decisions made prior to the dependency were there and thus caused him pain, for which I have done my best to make amends and still I suffer from his perceptional stuff, for which I am still "punished" and so I try my best to deal with it, but the problems surface from time to time, which is basically through the way I am treated not being able to have my grandchildren at my house, but I have to visit with them either at my son's house or my DIL's parents house and so it creates friction, mostly because I lack acceptance and feelings of hurt on my part, why I bring this up is that tonight I am babysitting at their house, where I hate to be and so it is clouding my ability to be joyful of the fact that I will have time with the kids alone, why I am expressing this, is to release it and let it go, as you well know that sometimes that is a good thing, then by the time I get there tonight I will enjoy my time with the kids and truly I will, but the stuff that goes on inside me churns and causes me distress leading up to it, all head stuff and stuff that makes me want to soothe myself with food, yet another symptom of the "alcoholic/addictive mind".  My feelings are the issue and I need to get out of the head and into the moment. . .

Moment this morning was good, watched Kate and William and you could see the love and pride in William and as Kate relaxed it was joyful to watch them, hope and joy in their beginning life together as husband and wife, remembering all those many years before, watching William's mother and father, her with such shy beauty and love, marry the man who loved another, duty bound and loveless marriage, ending with such tradgedy, watching this morning realizing that this time for this couple it begins right and hopeful for them to have a love filled life, fruitful with children that will know that and feel it from within and supported by those everyday people. . .  a real fairy tale lived out in the world. . . 

I will enjoy the grandchildren a good nights rest and then look forward to a busy weekend. . .

Thanks for listening, wishing you each a wonderful day, prayers for the lives lost and those affected by the losses of family and possessions where the storms have affected so many, as well as wishing those among us here facing life struggles, glad to read that Judy's Mom is home and on the mend, congrats to Monica on yet another day sober. . .

Hugs, Laureen

Needed a teachable moment this morning about letting go. Thank you for making me realize how necessary this is to GO forward in life and dwell on the past. Hard steps to take on our journey. I treasure your insights and advice.
Peace be with you inside and out. Hugs Monica

Thanks my friend, I feel more peaceful by having released the stuff inside and yes, the past is something best left behind, no sense reliving it when it cannot be changed or undone, it is wonderful to take those lessons it was there to teach us, but not to be stared and lamented over.

I felt your hug and it is appreciated!  Hugs back at you!  Laureen

Good Morning Trish and all,
I am feeling kind of blue this morning. My Mom is still in the hospital and they still don't have a diagnosis. She is in pain when she moves, can't walk, but seems as coherent as she was before the incident. I requested a neurological eval- she had some brain episode I am sure. She was crawling around on the floor thinking that she should be there, working and sleeping, peeing wherever she was. She had no idea that she needed help. Now she seems back to her old self. She definitely has dementia, and they have evidence of a number of strokes in the past. It's a very bad situation, and now she's asking if she can live with me for a while. I'm flooded with fear and shame that I don't think I can do it. This was supposed to be a better summer than last summer, but I'm afraid of where this is going. Anyway, thank you for all of the support.
Julia

Please Julia, NO SHAME, no fear. I lived in MA, my parents chose to live in Florida. They loved their life and home there. As my alzheimers progressed, my dad didn't see it. Only with my every 3 month visits, and calls from very close longtime friends (not his brothers or sisters who lived close by OH NO) was I able to come too and demand that we proceed with her getting into a professional residential nursing care home. The senior care counselor, social worker at hospital, and senior care attorney all helped steer the "boat" to the dock without crashing and burning. Seek out the help you need to stir this ship. You had to do this with your cancer and back problems and found success. You can not take on the burden of her living with you. You CAN NOT ON A DAILY BASIS provide for her safety and care.....only with her in a 24 HR nursing home is this gonna happen. Find the specialist, make the call, SHED THE SHAME, you don't have the  power to protect her and keep her SAFE, and that is the bottom line, the truth, the burden, keeping her safe from harm.
Hugs, Monica

Hi Trish and my OFF family:

No, I didn'****ch the wedding (almost typed weeding ... lol). I'll watch the highlights later. I had planned on getting out early and going to the bank, the store, etc. ... didn't do it. Busy night at work last night. One of my coworkers' parents' homes was destroyed in the tornadoes in Mississippi, and so he was absent last night ... so I had extra duties on my first night back. I had two pages from the early deadline paper, then four pages from Monroe, and then took on an extra page from the last deadline paper to help out. I was whipped by the end of the night. I hope his family is OK, though.

Sorry about your sister. We have issues with my sister too ... she's a crabby ***** and not nice to my mom at times. My SIL had to shame her into helping her when my mom fell and broke her pelvis a couple years ago. She's always grouchy at family gatherings.

Anyway, I need to get in the shower. Got up late and I'm still drinking my coffee. It's 77 degrees here and a beautiful blue sky, and I have a free Starbucks drink today. So it's a good day so far.

Hi Trish and everyone,
   I did stay up to watch the wedding and the balcony kiss. Then I said to my sister I'm going to bed do you want the lights out. She didn't answer me . She wasn't pleased to find out she slept through the kiss. Pour thing.
    A friend lost many family members in the Alabama storms. So sad. Others are still missing. I can't imagine going through that emotional and physical trauma.
Went to balance therapy again yesterday. It was much easier w/ the soft neck collar on. I see the ENT doctor today.
   Keeping all in my prayers,   Mag  

Good morning Trish and everyone....

No cable here since Wednesday night.....grrrrrr....missed everything this morning. Cable  guy finally came at 11:00 and was here over an hour. Lots of messes for him to straighten out from previous cable guys doing their jobs WRONG!!! He was amazed we had any Internet or TV at all. He was sending in a report for sure. Think I will too!!

What a day....enough of my complaining.

Nic has his final High School Prom tomorrow night...so exciting!!

Wishing you all a great evening. Many prayers to so many in need.

Love and hugs to all....connie d

i started to type morning all but it's 615 at nite!

i did see the wedding-no choice it was on all the channels when i got up for work- got self dressed and on the way to work had to pull over twice to puke-sorry- and came back home- hope i don't lose the job- was sweating and freezing and i dunno what was wrong.slept most of the day. not sure how i feel right now-

i value reading today's thread-
so much that is so meaningful--- --trish-laureen-monica-julia--alll of you!
carolyn; i chuckle- your family stories are the life that i always pictured with my first husband-how wrong i was-how life changed....

the sun is out today and beautiful! except that my trailer sucks the sun so it's above 80 in here-ucka! c ant bear the thought of having the ac on yet-nor can i cuz there is a dresser in front of it right now-blocking it.

lots of homework this weekend- two papers due monday and one on tuesday- one of monday
's is in place of the final exam.....

anyhow- hugs to all