thank you everyone

Thank you everyone for responding to my pitiful post from yesterday.  Your remarks were interesting, heart felt  and sincere.  I knew that I would be supported here. 
When one of us is hurting, the rest circle the wagons to protect and bolster her.  I really don't think that I can be supported to the extent that I have been here anywhere else, and I thank you all.
I will get over my rejection and move on with my life.  Some of you know that I have suffered from depression most of my adult life.  I am on medication, see a therapist, meditate and read in order to keep myself centered and balanced, but every so often, the depression rears its ugly head and hits me square in the heart.  It's at that time that I look for the support that I need and don't often find it  -  I am often the caregiver.  I have slowly let friends and family know that I am not always in a position to take care of others and they are getting the message.  For a long time I felt the need to be the strong one  (very dysfunctional family of origin).  And it's been hard letting people know that I am not as strong as I have allowed others to think I am.  So opening up has been on my agenda and I am so glad that I did yesterday.
You are all very thoughtful and encouraging and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Margaret

((((HUGS))))

So glad you are feeling a little better. It's good to take care of yourself and let others take care of you. I'm not good at it either, but we have to learn.

Peace.
Jan

(((Margaret))) heck I was never like I am until I had WLS and out came this bold outspoken woman...my husband at the time called me a *****infact he said I was the "head" *****!! LOL some at my job now call me head ***** in charge...lmaoooooooo therefore the initials...H.B.I.C. LOL Hang in there you will find someone when you least expect it!!! Ever try the grocery store? Like when a nice looking guy in the isle and you can't reach something on the top shelf and he is "taller" could he please reach it for you??? OR asking him if he ever tried this or that product? That sems to open up a conversation...try it...it might work for you!! Good Luck!!

HUGS

Oh, Judy, I have to laugh at that one!  H.B.I.C.  You know my husband works in the oil field, and to say the language is a little rough out there is an understatement!  But on the rig, he is known as the H.M.F.I.C.!  (He's not really a M.F., but that's just the term they all use.)  I'm fixin' to go tell him that when he's home with me, I'm the H.B.I.C.!!!  LOL!!!

i know that my life has been made richer thru all of your posts and i appreciate that you can come to us...and that you are here for me as well...

know that you are not alone...and that we are here  to listen and console and throw in our five cents!

i have more to say-when dont i!!!!!!????? however i think it will be off the board.....

you ARE a beautiful woman -inside AND out!!!!!

Margaret,

I've been through a clinical depression myself, and it's not fun.  I hope and pray for you to find your "center" again and be happy. 

As far as finding companionship goes, it's easy to give advice and hard to act on it, but I still think you need to go and do the things that give you joy, the things that speak to your heart and make you happy.  Don't twist and contort yourself into a mold that doesn't fit.  Go to the places that DO fit and let yourself expand and grow and shine.  Then trust that someone will see your light and be drawn to it.  And in the meantime, you'll be happy and fulfilled and more content than you are with that old internet dating arena. 

You're welcome Margaret.

We are always here for you ... know that! I miss seeing my therapist, but I know I have lots of therapists right here.