Thirsday Thursday What's New?

Good Morning Family,
My track record for falling asleep and missing my AA meeting this week is 3 out of 3.  Let's see if I can stay awake today and make the meeting.  Afterward, I have to go to the doctor and get my B12 shot.  Tonight, I have therapy.  The baby blanket is coming along. 

I got a message from my daughter about the daycare situation.  She said that I am welcome to move there, and that whether I move or not, her husband would stay with the kids because they believe one of them should be home to take care of the kids.  I respect that.  So, now, I have to decide about how long I want to stay here, and if I want to move.

Hugs,
Trish

Good morning Patricia & OFF family!!

Sitting here this morning a bit tired & sleepy after running our morning route.  We usually come  home and have a nice big mug of hot coffee while unwinding but no coffee this morning.  Dear hubs & I both have fasting blood work later this morning.  Ugh!!  It's something how we all become such creatures of habit...lol.  I miss my morning caffeine!!  Ok, enough whining.

After our blood work, we plan on eating a late breakfast at one of our fav. restaurants then head to VA for my 2 year Dr. appt. with my WLS surgeon.  I'm a month late for this visit because I had to reschedule.  Anyway, I'm feeling mixed emotions ....nervous and ashamed that I've not gotten to goal AND gained 14 lbs.!!   Feelings of looking forward in seeing my Dr. because I love him.  He's a fantastic person AND Dr. that both my DH & I feel we owe so much to for helping us better our health.  Anyway, will be glad when this day is over.  Normally, DH & I head to bed each morning after our breakfast because we sleep in the day & work our route in the wee hours of the morning.  No sleep this morning.  We have a long day facing us so we won't get home until approx. 7 PM so our butts will be dragging!!! 

Enough about my day.....I hope everyone has a wonderfully blessed day!! Enjoy the sunshine.

Cindy

Safe passage and NO SHAME. Understanding that we are not in a race to a pre-disposed finish line, but on a continued journey is important. You haven't reach goal YET....if it happens great...if not you are not a failure. I went under goal and it got me sick and addicted and sicker. Remembering to follow the rules laid out at the beginning of the trip is important. Smaller portions, we use salad plates for eating on. Don't drink at meals. Drink more water. Protein first. Move. Chew chew chew, taste taste taste...savoring the food we put in is so important, not just a bodily function. When I was MO I really never put my fork down b/w bites, I wolfed the food down like a dog. I am especially mindful of tasting my food now. Don't eat to eat, eat to live. I found after PS that I really was falling down on my protein intake. Upping that helped me loose the lbs left from surgery and helped me heal. Facing your doctor is like looking into the mirror. While MO I rarely saw Monica the entire being, just the face, the always smiling face...bitter inside and invisible. So look into his face, listen to what he has to offer. Go there knowing you are a success because you choose to take back you life with WLS. Journey on one step at a time, one pot hole at a time, one hill/mountain climbed at a time, and roll down the hill to another valley of green grasses, cool breezes, and happiness in YOURSELF.

Morning Trish and fellow OFF family.
Sober 205 days and so proud of me.
Watching the news, too sad to see all the damages thru out the storm hit areas. Seeing the maps of before and after areas re-enforces how life changes in seconds. Lynn in PA brought to mind a serious question about the storm chasers driving by the damaged areas and not stopping to look for people. Was chasing the storm more important to them or was the damage too great to even begin a search?
The Fleet is in NYC. Hope the Armed Forces members have a great week, some fun, and receive Kinetic Un-asked for THANK YOU from people they come in contact with.

Trish, I am wishing slow, mindful thinking about your "new" life style offering! I don't know where you live and just how far you would have to move to become a daily daycare giver and receiver. How close are you to your daughter and her family? What are their and YOUR expectations if you jump into their "pool" of life? Talk to Connie...make a list of ????'s you would ask someone who has just gone through this lifestyle change. I know for myself and hubby the almost 3 yrs we changed our RV plans changed many aspects of our lives. I was already in a bad way with my drinking while in TX 3 yrs ago. When we finally arrived back in the northeast, my kids found a mother they did not recognize. As that first summer unfolded, we learned bits and pieces about what had happened in their lives as our daughter went thru wrecked marriage and financial mess, about Jess leaving FL to move in with her to help. We knew we had to help and made decision to move in for that winter as our daughter needed help with rent and kids. Our other daughter moved out and in with her now husband. Feeling hurt and other issues jumped up. I stayed sober for a short while and became a real liability to the dynamics of the household. Sara found "fault" with most all we did, feeling any chore we helped with, like doing laundry, cooking, sweeping, etc...was a direct reflection on her shortcomings as a house maker and mother and women in general. What was up with that we couldn't figure it out. Once hubby took clothes out of a laundry basket in the kids room and she went crazy, what a fight they had about that. Clear lines were not defined when we moved in and we thought we had "talked" about how we could be a help to her. Sara is a wonderful women, that is a given, but we had somehow "invaded" her space. OK to show her the $$$$$, so much of it, but she had shame she needed it and that colored all aspects of the day to day. I sunk deeper into daily drunken grind, trying to hide it, ha ha. So please give it much deep thought, speak with God and listen to the whispers or shouts you get back. Breath, breath, and breath. Just know your life will take a hard left turn....do you have a true signal. I share these feelings and thoughts as a sistah who has lived the move into a child's life as an adult with baggage from her childhood and life. MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY SARA IS FOREVER CHANGED AND NOT FOR THE GOOD. GREATEST SADNESS OF MY LIFE.
Hoping that the 2 Sue's are OK. Sending special prayers to them.
Hugs, Monica...no special agenda today. Fingers and toes crossed that hubby doesn't get grumpy since he is out of meds offically today and aren't expected to arrive. OCDing under control...??

Monica,

Just want to say first congrats on your 205 days, what a joy to read all that you are dealing with sober.

You are a very insightful person and reading about your life here has given me glimpses into who you are and it is amazing how we all have hurts and how those hurts have affected us in different ways, part of those ways was being obese and then once we shed the weight, it is open and raw and some of us return to food for comfort and companionship, others to alcohol, some spending and other such addictive behaviors, all to cover up our vulnerability and sensitivity. 

I am thankful that I have been in the process of recovery for as many years as I have, but that does not mean I am any better at this thing called life, my fears often keep me from living fully, but the awareness of that gives me an opportunity to change and for that I am grateful each day that I was given the opportunity to live sober and therefore learn from the lessons of my life.

Thanks for coming back to us and being a participant.

Hugs, Laureen

Monica...your lifestyle would be like heaven to me right now...far enough away from this disfunctional family of his....jump in the RV and just go!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATS on the 205 days!!!

HUGS

The things we do for our children!
Our youngest son and his girlfriend got pregnant and got married at 18. She had no job. DH got our son a well paying job where he worked. They moved into our rented house while we moved into our 5th wheel. When pur precious grandson was 8 mo old my DH and I each took a 6 mo leave of absence from our jobs and travelled around the country while the kids saved money to find a place of their own.
Well, long story kinda short. We came back, they stayed. We lived in the 5th wheel for 3 years. They got a divorce which we paid for. Many lies about DIL that we thought were true. Son got custody. Then remarries. She felt we spoiled grandson too much. She and son moved out, we were no longer able to see grandson. Discovered through other's casual remarks that son had told many lies about x wife to get custody, and we believed and helped!!
We went to court for visitation and won. Much said on both sides.
Relationship with son and new wife forever ruined.
Great relationship with x wife and grandson. Have tried with son. Phone calls hung up, cards and letters returned unopened. He (or 2nd wife) has also alienated his siblings. Really sad, they have a 17 YO son we really know nothing about.
When I called to tell him his Gramma died, he said, how long ago?
Like he thought I had waited weeks to tell him!?! We give up.
But I did include that grandson when I divided up the Honeywell stock I inherited from my Mom, and he is included in our will.
Sorry for the rant. But I guess I am saying is the same as Monica and others. Think hard about what the long term ramifications will be.

Trish

Would it be a huge move for you, or are they fairly close?  Mine are 800 miles away.  I wouldn't be up for that, but then, they haven't offerred  .

Candy

Morning Trish, OFFr's,

Well then sounds like you need to do what Monica so well put in her post to you.  Prayer and meditation, listening to that still small voice that you know is telling you the next right thing to do for yourself, and perhaps it is just nice to know you are wanted. . .

Last night was a nice evening, Tony came down, we went to Bahama Breeze and I came home with enough food for two meals (lol), then we went home and a neighbor of mine came by with her dog, so Tony got to see Roxie and Maggie at play, he went home and I got my gym bag out of the car and assessed it's contents, put what I needed inside and this morning I had planned on getting up at 4:55 washing my face, brushing my teeth and getting to the gym, well one of the neighbors down the street must have let their dog out and at 4:15 it was barking and barking, so that was the end of my sleep, I gave Roxie her petting time, fed her and out the door I went, got to the gym at 6 (it is near where I work), worked out, showered and realized I had left my pocketbook home, no driver's license, no registration, insurance card and more importantly, no keys to get in the office and I am the first one in every day, luckily the doors open automatically at 8, so I got in, now I just have to watch my lead foot going home (lol). . .  well it's sort of like this, computer bag, carry all bag and then I had my gym bag with my work clothes and things I needed to shower with, such understandable that I would forget something (lol). . .

Today has me at work, we have a dept. meeting at 12:30, done at 4 and then home, hang with the Roxie and meet up with my friend Owen for Sushi and our AA home group meeting. . .

Wishing anyone affected by the terrible storms, safe refuge and no harm, prayers for peace and strength to any who have life challenges ahead. . .

Hugs, Laureen

OMG Laureen be ever so careful on the way home tonight!!! It would be just like a disgruntled cop to pull you over for some little thing because he has a hangnail....lol

HUGS