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Happy New Year.
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
I hope that everyone is doing what they can to be positive and work thru our individual problems. Pain, depression, hardship...we are all struggling with something. Sometimes it is very difficult to stay positive but if we try to visualize our DREAMS and GOALS as successful and happy, we attract better things for ourselves. And attitude is very important. Even just knowing that SOMEONE CARES! I care...I wish that I could do something to make all of us feel better. (sending out hugs and loving energy to you all)
JB fell asleep NYE around 10 pm...I sat up longer then decided to go to bed...that is the first time that I ever caved in before midnight on NYE....lolol. and you know what? It did not make a bit of difference at all! ...*s*
Today, I had great intentions of starting the new year by being productive. Instead, I chose to stay offline and just rest...drinking tea and crocheting and reading. I have worked so hard on our BPW conference for this Sept and have to deal with two very strong-minded and ego-based women...one has a mental illness (knowing this helps me realize that I should not take her meanness in a personal manner but try harder to ignore her attitude)...having said that, I need to work harder to not allow this to hurt me so much.THAT part is MY on problem...she is mentally ill and I do not have to contribute to that by reacting...hard as that is. That is MY challenge for this year.
My weight fluctuates five pounds up and down..still too much chocolate around. Eating, again very ironic considering my life, is hard since I have no true appetite and I must force myself to eat and I find that hard to even bother....thankfully, JB reminds me to eat..bringing me a piece of hard cheddar or a small yogurt or offer to make me a cup of soup.
I've been staying home alot but I did promise to take my grand daughters each out for lunch and shopping for an outfit...better do that this week...next week is fully booked already and I still need to purchase a new 2017 daybook. Man, I sound so BORING!! lolol
breakfast: hot chocolate protein drink
lunch: 2 clementines
snack: a cup of homemade turkey soup
dinner: chicken & a bit of peas, sauteed mushrooms, onion, cabbage and rice
bedtime snack: hot chocolate protein drink
Good Morning,
I had a crazy busy few weeks. Plus, I am struggling with the depression big time.
I hope 2017 is better than last year.
Happy New Year.
Albert Schweitzer
Happy New year. I hope it is going to be better to be better than 2016.
I am doing as good as I can. Still dealing with lower back pain after the car accident. Beside that - I am below my goal weight so as long as I can tolerate the food - I eat it when I get hungry.
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
Hello, everyone!
Yes, it has been a very busy season for most, I am thinking.
Our family celebrated Christmas at our older son Dan's place...younger son Derek deep-fried the turkey! Now that may SOUND greasy but it is NOT. When you lower the DRY turkey into the hot oil, the heat instantly seals the skin and keeps the grease OUT and the natural juices INSIDE. Oh goodness, it is so tasty and moist! We have decided to always do the deep frying from now on. AND it saves ME alot of work because now everyone takes part in the meal preparations. I regret that I did not appreciate (when I was much younger) how much work putting on a complete Christmas turkey dinner was for my Mom. Jennifer does the mashed potatoes, the grand daughters (11 and 14) make the caesar salad, set the tables (and clear), I make the gravy and bake the bread and prep and make the stuffing and Dan does all the other stuff. BY the time that I had a bit of salad and a turkey WING, I was full (yay)...after dinner, we adults played a rowdy 3 1/2 hours of cards for chocolate gold coins while the girls supervised or sat close to watch or do their own thing at the other table beside us, but always there with us.
The girls seemed to really love the Memory Boxes that I made for them. Now this coming week, I had promised to take each girl (separately) to their favourite place for lunch then shopping in one store (because that is all that I can handle physically) to buy ONE outfit (top and bottom). Both sons get a nice cheque since money is always needed...this covers Christmas and their birthdays very soon after and that works well for them.
Dec 29th was Derek's birthday...he gets his card and lottery tickets and dinner here but since this is always such a busy time, we like to spread out the fun and will have a family dinner out at Derek's favourite restaurant in a few weeks. Then New Years and then Dan's birthday on Feb 5th and we start all over again..
My eating has been rather decent. I confess to a few chocolate truffles...I had to deal with a peer at BPW who turned out to be a real nasty piece of work. I just could NOT understand why she stabbed me in the back then kissed and hugged me to my face. Then I started getting numerous reports that she trashed me at conference and THAT was enough to finally get me mad. She, when confronted, refused to respond to my questions, and was very insulting and ignorant. She has let our club down badly and today she bailed out of an important task that should have been ready by Jan 15th. and yes, I did something I hadn't done in a very long time...I'd started stress eating for a week but managed to stop it when talking to friends to find out that this "person" is mentally ill, and she is delusional, and it was NOT my fault as she claimed. So back on track and busy trying to find someone else with the ability to rebuild our club website that is desperately needed by Jan 15th. YIKES.
A lousy excuse to blow my eating but an old pattern of mine (stress eating). Now I have to lose that extra five pounds to return to my lowest weight in decades.
New Years Eve Breakfast: hot chocolate protein drink
Snack: old cheddar cheese & multigrain crackers
Lunch: home made turkey soup
Dinner: tossed green salad with turkey, shredded cheese, raisins for iron(I am now anemic)
Bedtime snack: hot chocolate protein drink.
HAPPY NEW YEAR, everyone! It's never too late to start over-
Kathy, I was the worse judge of my eating!
When I stopped writing down what and how much I was eating and drinking...Was a beginning of my weight regain. That and when I was avoiding the scale. Then ...I year later I was 35 lbs heavier ..And my BMI was in obese category...And my back was hurting again.
Only when I decided enough was enough... And really apply my tool..I was able to reverse the weight trend.
In 3 months I lost 18 lbs.. then I was complacent again... And to lose the next 10 lbs took me 2 years.
But once I found what is working for me... And really applied myself I lost to my goal and then some.
You don't have to post anywhere if you don't feel comfortable. But do that for yourself. That and daily weight. So next time you reach for "snacks" that are not good for you, maybe that number on a scale can convince you to make a better choice.
Hugs and good luck.
Btw - sometimes what you see as judgement is a tough love and genuine concern...Hugs..
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
Thanks Yvonne!
I am also thinking I need to start going to some of the local bariatric support groups after the New Year b/c I have been slipping for a long time. Yes, a lot has been going on, but others manage to work thru their food issues without going overboard like I have.
I have always enjoyed how you keep it real by posting regularly about your own food struggles. I stopped posting on the main & vertical sleeve boards b/c of the constant judgment rather than support.
My daughter had the lapband in 2012 & has regained all her weight. She was considering a revision & I told her how the sleeve removed the 'hunger hormone.' She complained about feeling constantly hungry.
I just remembered that info about the hunger hormone a few months ago & thought it was a crock of **** b/c I was hungry a lot. But in paying attention more I realized I really am not hungry...I eat b/c I enjoy the taste & texture of food & how it makes me feel afterwards...CALM!!! Plus I eat a lot out of boredom, frustration or even to celebrate. So I guess the hunger hormone was removed...
Anyhow, thanks for the support!
Kathy
H.A.L.A.
You are so right on about the sugar/carbs! I needed reminding that they have contributed to many, many UTI's over the years & no doubt was the source of this most recent one. I have drank several pepsi sodas over the past month & it reminded me how I almost always felt a UTI coming on b/c I would have to pee so often. Fruit, however, has never bothered me.
I am desperately trying to cycle down this week on calories, carbs & sugar in preparation for my New Year's deadline. I plan to do protein shakes the 1st week of January just like before WLS & hopefully detox all this crap out of my system before getting back on a meal plan.
Hope everyone had a great holiday. I enjoyed all the aspects of it except the constant barrage of food!
Thanks again H.A.L.A.
Kathy
Merry Christmas !!!!
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
Merry Christmas. And lots of hugs.
Hope new year 2017 will be good.
Btw- since my WLS - if I indulge in sugary -carby stuff - even for a few days - I would get mild or major UTI. Even if the carbs were "complex" natural. Including sugar from just ftuits.
It took me a couple of yours to notice the relationship - more carbs =UTI and/or yeast infection. This is another reason I try to stay as low carb ad I can.
Hala. RNY 5/14/2008; Happy At Goal =HAG
"I can eat or do anything I want to - as long as I am willing to deal with the consequences"
"Failure is not falling down, It is not getting up once you fell... So pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again...."
