Cold feet???

I decided today to bite the bullet and post some of my concerns.  I am awaiting a surgery date for RNY which I am told will likely take place in September/October.  I have always considered myself to have relatively good control over my eating habits when I set my mind to it.  Like all of you, I have lost and regained weight for most of my life and drove myself crazy with every diet out there.  Last year I finally decided gastric bypass.  As I get closer and closer to the surgery the more I become unsure of everything.  I seem to have a harder time controlling what I eat now more than ever.  I almost feel detached when I think of the changes I will need to make.  When I read some of your posts I panic.  I am a huge drinker (not alcoholJ), always thirsty.  How will I survive only sipping?  I read once where someone was going to try to maintain on 1200 calories.  Holy smokes, I am always starving when I reduce my caloric intake that low.  I would never last long on 1200 calories.  How do I know if I truly am ready for the surgery?  I have been hoping to lose some weight before the surgery, but another part of me will have none of that.  I feel that part of me is deliberately sabotaging things.  Every morning I wake up telling myself today is a new day and I will have no unhealthy food, but by the end of the day I seem to have ignored my own wishes.   I have never eaten as poorly as I have these last past few months.  Is it because I subconsciously know these are my last few months eating what I want or am I not ready for surgery?   What does all this mean?  Are these red flags?  How sure were you going into this process.  Were you afraid of failing like every other weight loss attempt or were you confidant you would succeed?

The early days are a bit of a blur for me, but I think there are lots of people that can help with those questions.

I will share though that I maintain on about 1400 calories if I don't get my butt off the couch - exercise allows me more calories and to be honest, I have hungry days and non hungry days - exercise helps me by giving me extra calories and for some reason staving off hunger too.

For me, hunger and the volume of food needed to satisfy it is NOTHING like it was before WLS!!! Even though my malabsorption is mostly gone (maybe some fat still), my pouch still keeps me real. I eat like a "normal" person, not an obese one! I still CANNOT eat a whole restaurant meal because the truth is, THAT IS NOT A NORMAL PORTION!

I don't eat ice cream , heavily fried foods and and refined carbs (very often or very much). Other than that, I have a diet that I really enjoy and that for the most part is very healthy and I really don't feel I miss out.

Good luck with your surgery!

You sound like I felt back in early April before my RNY!!  You will sip and be fine in the early days....because sipping is all you will be able to tolerate doing.  As time goes on you can drink more. At almost 4 months out, I can put away 20 ounces in an hour or less.  I WOULD NEVER HAVE THOUGHT I COULD SURVIVE AND NOT BE HUNGRY ON LESS THAN 14OO CALAORIES MINIMUM!  I was starving on Weigh****chers and every other diet ever went on.  At 4 months out I work hard to get in 850-900 calories. My hunger is only coming back recently, but, when I eat I still feel very full after 3-4 ounces of food. I have no sweet cravings!!!!  I am in control. I feel good. I feel totally differently about food. That is what RNY did for me. It is not something I have trained myself to do.  DON'T OVERTHINK YOUR SURGERY CHOICE AND RED FLAGS AND ALL THAT CRAP!  YOU go for it!  YOU WILL BE OK AND SO MUCH BETTER OFF!  I am on top of the world now fitting into size 10-12 from a tight 18W.  p.s.  I just had 5 nacho chips with mango salsa and a piece of cheese for lunch! YUP...I am full and satisfied. YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Here is a link to my You tube videos I have been making to journal my WLS trip!

Kathy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4nhg6CCJzs

I had many second thoughts, particularly since I lost a significant amount of weight when I was working with the nutrionist before surgery.  I dropped about 12% of my body weight, and was wearing clothes two sizes smaller.  Already then, I was able to do more activities than previously

.So why did I go ahead and do it?  Because it is the best way to prevent diabetes (I had pre-diabetes), because the clinical studies show that weight loss is more permanent, and also because of the team associated with my surgeon's office.  They are very supportive, and know the obese patient well.  They know what works and what doesn't work from a dietary perspective.  Remember, this is only a tool, and you will need to relearn how and what to eat.  That's what the surgery is helping me to do.  I'm also relearning how to deal with stress etc, which caused me to eat when I wasn't truely hungry.

I have "succeeded" three times previously with weight loss.  Once I was able to keep it off for 15 years ****il I had kids), and the other two times, it was back within a couple of years.  This is my last chance. 

Thanks ladies for your comments.  I am just going to try and chill for a bit.  The more I panic, the worse it seems.  The more I eat.