I screwed up.
Okay you at some chips, big deal. It's not the chips that are the issue it's the behavior that you just displayed that needs attention. Were you secretly waiting/hoping when everyone left you could tear into that bag with no prying eyes? I have been there, if that is where you are coming from and still turning to food mindlessly you may need a little help. College should have a handful of counselors at your disposal. At 2 1/2 months out now is the time to get on top of any food addiction issues you may be having right now. I needed help with my issues, some do not, but get it if you feel even the slightest that you do. As you know the surgery can help us eat less but the mental aspect you have to work on all our own.
If you are physically active a lot you may need more than the 500-600kcal/day that you are consuming. If you are at a stall consuming more healthy fats and calories should help break that stall as your body is now holding onto anything it can and thus the low loss now. I experienced a few stalls , one right about the time you are now and upping my protein (although you are getting a good amount, good job) and healthier fats like raw almonds and avacodo helped me break that stall.
You can eat chips in moderation if you like. Just try to get a hold of that "demon" inside wether it is talking to a friend, professional or yourself about mindless eating and emotional eating. You did not stretch your pouch at this point so don't stress about that.
If you are physically active a lot you may need more than the 500-600kcal/day that you are consuming. If you are at a stall consuming more healthy fats and calories should help break that stall as your body is now holding onto anything it can and thus the low loss now. I experienced a few stalls , one right about the time you are now and upping my protein (although you are getting a good amount, good job) and healthier fats like raw almonds and avacodo helped me break that stall.
You can eat chips in moderation if you like. Just try to get a hold of that "demon" inside wether it is talking to a friend, professional or yourself about mindless eating and emotional eating. You did not stretch your pouch at this point so don't stress about that.
***ADRIENNE**
Today is a new day. Whats done is done; no good will come from beating yourself up about it.
We've all had those days and we'll all have them again. The best thing to do is try and figure out what triggered the action(s) and see if you can come up with a plan to avoid it from happening again. But remember...you are human and you will make mistakes.
We've all had those days and we'll all have them again. The best thing to do is try and figure out what triggered the action(s) and see if you can come up with a plan to avoid it from happening again. But remember...you are human and you will make mistakes.
~Jen
RNY, 8/1/2011
HW: 348 SW: 306 CW:-fighting regain GW: 140
He who endures, conquers. ~Persius
My 18 year old daughter ishaving the sleeve done this spring we chose the sleeve because itsa little more forgiving for young people. I don't have much wisdom to share with you other than to allow yourself to be a young college student so you don't beat yourself up. I think you're doing fine just because your stomach was altered it does't mean your brain was too.
Today is a new day be proud that you are working towards a healthier and smarter you.
Nothing tastes as good as skinny will feel. 
To reiterate: what's done is done. What you do from here on in is what matters.
I totally get how hard it is to be in college and be "different"...there's a lot of temptation and it's so easy to just fall in with everyone else. But you made a conscious decision to alter your body for health reasons, so now you need to make a conscious decision to do what is necessary and required for the health of your body.
Big eating days happen. I'm concerned about the two Woodchucks you drank. I don't know if the "rules" are different for everyone but my surgeon's office says no alcohol for 1 year post op. My concern is that a.) there's so much sugar in hard cider and alcohol in general and b.) your body processes it differently and could have been pretty bad (think super intoxicated extremely quickly to the point of blacking out). DId you dump after you drank? Feel sick or different?
Take this as a learning experience and move forward. Have you thought about getting into therapy to help deal with your food addiction?
I totally get how hard it is to be in college and be "different"...there's a lot of temptation and it's so easy to just fall in with everyone else. But you made a conscious decision to alter your body for health reasons, so now you need to make a conscious decision to do what is necessary and required for the health of your body.
Big eating days happen. I'm concerned about the two Woodchucks you drank. I don't know if the "rules" are different for everyone but my surgeon's office says no alcohol for 1 year post op. My concern is that a.) there's so much sugar in hard cider and alcohol in general and b.) your body processes it differently and could have been pretty bad (think super intoxicated extremely quickly to the point of blacking out). DId you dump after you drank? Feel sick or different?
Take this as a learning experience and move forward. Have you thought about getting into therapy to help deal with your food addiction?
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And now for a completely different perspective....
Log back into MyFitnessPal and make sure you log them pita chips, that cider and verify the amounts of everything else you input. Go ahead, do it, I'll wait....
Because if you can't be truthful with yourself and some damn inanimate computer software, you are in for a long, hard journey. It's not a confession tool, it won't judge you, all MFP will do is give you an accurate portrait of what you ate and drank, period. What that portrait will tell you is that you didn't ingest enough calories to gain weight, hell, you probably are still running a caloric deficit for the day. My guess is that at your young age, your metabolism is pretty damn active and couple that with your weight you probably burn in excess of 2,500+ calories a day. So, be rational, please...no drama, you didn't ruin everything, you didn't cause the end of the world to happen, you didn't gain everything back that you've lost...see where I'm going with this?
it seems to me that you've got a lot of black and white, all or nothing thinking going on in that brain of your, and you need to do some serious self-talk about what that will mean now and in the future if you don't change your B/W, all or nothing outlook. So you weren't perfect, get over it. So you maybe slipped into some former fattie thinking, get over it. So you fell down, get over it, and get back up. You'll see this philosophy repeated again and again as you travel on your journey, "failure is not in falling down, it's in failing to get up". So please do yourself and favor and get up, godamnit! (see I can use that word too!)
Now I could say all kinds of flowery, sunshine and light things about how well you've done so far and this was just a momentary lapse, but I ain't. You already know, by the words you've written, that you are thriving, you are loving your post-op life. You love your college life, you love your success. I see a lot of pity me, whoa is me drama going on, and not enough rational thinking about putting things into perspective.
So here's my perspective, you fell down...get up! You ate too much, oh well. You probably will see a gain on the scale (and trust me when I say that ain't a fat gain, it's just a water weight gain from carb processing and a temporary blip from over indulgence).
And would you please stop being so damn religious about your food and your workout?? Breathe friend, breathe. Enjoy the journey, live your life, trust yourself to make better decisions in the future, stop the drama, reframe the problem, oh and get rid of the cider and the pita chips! The path you've chosen is for life, so get out there and live it, doing what you need to to be successful without being an overly zealous, weight loss maven who's only purpose is to workout and watch calories (religiously as you have said).
Okay, off my "50 year old, calm is better, lots of living under my belt" soapbox. Log those chips, that cider, acknowledge your experience, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and go on with your awesome journey! And breathe (oh wear sunscreen too)!
Log back into MyFitnessPal and make sure you log them pita chips, that cider and verify the amounts of everything else you input. Go ahead, do it, I'll wait....
Because if you can't be truthful with yourself and some damn inanimate computer software, you are in for a long, hard journey. It's not a confession tool, it won't judge you, all MFP will do is give you an accurate portrait of what you ate and drank, period. What that portrait will tell you is that you didn't ingest enough calories to gain weight, hell, you probably are still running a caloric deficit for the day. My guess is that at your young age, your metabolism is pretty damn active and couple that with your weight you probably burn in excess of 2,500+ calories a day. So, be rational, please...no drama, you didn't ruin everything, you didn't cause the end of the world to happen, you didn't gain everything back that you've lost...see where I'm going with this?
it seems to me that you've got a lot of black and white, all or nothing thinking going on in that brain of your, and you need to do some serious self-talk about what that will mean now and in the future if you don't change your B/W, all or nothing outlook. So you weren't perfect, get over it. So you maybe slipped into some former fattie thinking, get over it. So you fell down, get over it, and get back up. You'll see this philosophy repeated again and again as you travel on your journey, "failure is not in falling down, it's in failing to get up". So please do yourself and favor and get up, godamnit! (see I can use that word too!)
Now I could say all kinds of flowery, sunshine and light things about how well you've done so far and this was just a momentary lapse, but I ain't. You already know, by the words you've written, that you are thriving, you are loving your post-op life. You love your college life, you love your success. I see a lot of pity me, whoa is me drama going on, and not enough rational thinking about putting things into perspective.
So here's my perspective, you fell down...get up! You ate too much, oh well. You probably will see a gain on the scale (and trust me when I say that ain't a fat gain, it's just a water weight gain from carb processing and a temporary blip from over indulgence).
And would you please stop being so damn religious about your food and your workout?? Breathe friend, breathe. Enjoy the journey, live your life, trust yourself to make better decisions in the future, stop the drama, reframe the problem, oh and get rid of the cider and the pita chips! The path you've chosen is for life, so get out there and live it, doing what you need to to be successful without being an overly zealous, weight loss maven who's only purpose is to workout and watch calories (religiously as you have said).
Okay, off my "50 year old, calm is better, lots of living under my belt" soapbox. Log those chips, that cider, acknowledge your experience, pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and go on with your awesome journey! And breathe (oh wear sunscreen too)!
"Just keep swimming." ~ Dorrie
This is why we vets (cranky curmudgeons that we are) holler so much about "sustainable plans" and "things you can stick with for life."
5-600 calories a day is NOT something you can or should stick to for life. It's not even something you can or should stick to at 2.5 months post op. I don't know what your surgeon recommends but mine ordered me to get to 800 and fast when I was undereating at your stage (so yes, mentally I do know what you're going through).
Aside from the calories thing there is an element of deprivation there. I get it. You're trying to use your honeymoon period wisely. But you're in a pressure cooker sweetie and you've not given yourself ANY release. I'm not saying eat unhealthfully. And hell, your release doesn't even need to be food related. But you do need one, I'm afraid.
So onto the functional fears. NO you did not stretch your pouch. I think you already know that. If it was that easy to stretch a pouch or a stoma, bariatric surgeons wouldn't be in business long. What you HAVE done is found out you have the capacity to ingest more. So what are you going to do with that information? If I were you (knowing what I know now, of course) I'd use that info to stuff that space with a little more lean protein. Lean protein is the antithesis to carb binges. When you eat lean protein there simply isn't room for much else.
But yeah...your challenge is to find balance in some way. I dunno what way but in some way.
5-600 calories a day is NOT something you can or should stick to for life. It's not even something you can or should stick to at 2.5 months post op. I don't know what your surgeon recommends but mine ordered me to get to 800 and fast when I was undereating at your stage (so yes, mentally I do know what you're going through).
Aside from the calories thing there is an element of deprivation there. I get it. You're trying to use your honeymoon period wisely. But you're in a pressure cooker sweetie and you've not given yourself ANY release. I'm not saying eat unhealthfully. And hell, your release doesn't even need to be food related. But you do need one, I'm afraid.
So onto the functional fears. NO you did not stretch your pouch. I think you already know that. If it was that easy to stretch a pouch or a stoma, bariatric surgeons wouldn't be in business long. What you HAVE done is found out you have the capacity to ingest more. So what are you going to do with that information? If I were you (knowing what I know now, of course) I'd use that info to stuff that space with a little more lean protein. Lean protein is the antithesis to carb binges. When you eat lean protein there simply isn't room for much else.
But yeah...your challenge is to find balance in some way. I dunno what way but in some way.
You've gotten some great advice here.
You haven't damaged yourself for life. You just have to get back up on the horse again, and slow it from a full out deprivation gallop to a healthy trot. 500-600 calories a day is not healthy, and just sets you up for messing up.
This journey takes forgiving ourselves again and again and again and getting back at it again and again and again.
You haven't damaged yourself for life. You just have to get back up on the horse again, and slow it from a full out deprivation gallop to a healthy trot. 500-600 calories a day is not healthy, and just sets you up for messing up.
This journey takes forgiving ourselves again and again and again and getting back at it again and again and again.
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