I never felt fat until I was approved anyone else?

I just confessed this to my mom for the 1st time today. When I got approved I was so happy but a part of me said well damn maybe you really are fat and the medical profession agrees and they are allowing you to do weight loss surgery it is so bad. I had that in my head since approval.

I never was the type to want to stay home and not go out. I always thought damn I look just as good as that size 2 model looking type. I have a hot husband, I have adorable kids I must be looking just as good as Tyra Banks. LOL But since the approval my friend asked me to go out we would go to clubs dancing for moms night out monthly and I dreaded the thought of going out.

I told my mom this today and she thinks I am just ready for the surgery to be done and start living my new life. She said you didn't realize it but you do since you have your head wrapped around the fact you are having this surgery and it is for morbidly obese people. Did anyone else feel this way? I hate being in this funk and I really hope it goes away quickly because I want happy go lucky Michelle back the one with the skinny goggles on preferably!

 Always felt fat before surgery, after surgery I feel less fat, but still fat.

I went through the same thing. I was always dressed up and done up and then I got approved.
I did not want to go anywhere, didn't want anyone to see me. Then after the surgery I stayed in a funk for about the first 8 weeks, then I went back to work and I was back to my fabulous self lol

Hey Michelle,
Ive known all my life I was "fat" but I never wanted to be a size 2...
I like being a big girl, I just dont want to be this big. Obviously you rock with your hottie husband and adorable kids :)
Good luck with your surgery!

Michelle, not only do I feel fat, I FEEEL it!  It's like I have aches and pains I never noticed before.  I am actually mindful of my body for the first time if that makes sense.  The bloated way I feel after I eat, how winded I get going up stairs and doing house/yard work.  How hard it is to keep my legs crossed for long periods of time because the fat wants to force them apart.

I am not sorry though.  I feel like it's all part of the journey though and this way I may NEVER forget how it feels to be this big and not want to go back again!

Thank you I am glad I am not alone. This funky mood swing stuff is for the birds. I pray after surgery my hormones are ok and I don't go into a depression. I did that once to my husband after our 3rd child and it wasn't pretty!

Here's to remembering how this feels and never going back!

I knew that I was fat..... but I was hoping that someone, that counted,  would say "you're not fat enough". 

I didn't feel fat before and I don't feel skinny now. The pictures of before and after always surprise me.

Hi. I'm so glad you brought this up. It's actually been devastating to me since I realized that everyone ELSE realized I really need this surgery and that I'm a good candidate. I need to have this conversation with a couple of people because I'm not doing to well with the realization and it's affecting my relationships more and more.

I felt fat. After losing 107 pounds, I feel fattish. But I'm so much healthier that every day is a wonderment to me.