Kind of Disappointed
I decided at the beginning of the year that I would like to set a goal of participating in a Sprint Triathlon. I picked out my Tri (the Santa Rosa Island Triathlon - here on the local beach) and signed up for a group training program. Other than meeting with the group training every Sunday morning at the Gulf, I also trained on my own with swim/bike/run as well as with my trainer.
In August I was kind of freaked out to discover there were a LOT of people following my progress with interest. In September the freakout grew because there were a lot of people talking about being at the Tri to support me.
My parent, sister, nephews, trainer, folks at work, friends..... wow!
Now, life and cir****tances have happened and it looks like my best friend will be the only one there. My trainer told me today she had hoped to just be late to the American Heart Walk but since she is the team captain (for my employer) she has to be there. She said she was super disappointed. And she apologized so much I couldn't admit to her how disappointed I was. I told her I will need her support more at the 10k next week (which is probably true).
My mom is bedridden / wheelchair bound and nearly breaks into tears about not being able to go, but there is just no way she can sit in her wheelchair for that long of a time. We had discussed them coming out around 2hrs after the official start and just seeing the finish, but lately she has had a lot of knee pain and I just would rather her take care of herself.
Anyway... I feel guilty for being disappointed. It isn't as if people promised and then just didn't show up, they all have super valid reasons and I totally understand. But I guess the selfish part of me still is disappointed.
No idea why I posted this other than to get it off my mind some.....
In August I was kind of freaked out to discover there were a LOT of people following my progress with interest. In September the freakout grew because there were a lot of people talking about being at the Tri to support me.
My parent, sister, nephews, trainer, folks at work, friends..... wow!
Now, life and cir****tances have happened and it looks like my best friend will be the only one there. My trainer told me today she had hoped to just be late to the American Heart Walk but since she is the team captain (for my employer) she has to be there. She said she was super disappointed. And she apologized so much I couldn't admit to her how disappointed I was. I told her I will need her support more at the 10k next week (which is probably true).
My mom is bedridden / wheelchair bound and nearly breaks into tears about not being able to go, but there is just no way she can sit in her wheelchair for that long of a time. We had discussed them coming out around 2hrs after the official start and just seeing the finish, but lately she has had a lot of knee pain and I just would rather her take care of herself.
Anyway... I feel guilty for being disappointed. It isn't as if people promised and then just didn't show up, they all have super valid reasons and I totally understand. But I guess the selfish part of me still is disappointed.
No idea why I posted this other than to get it off my mind some.....
COURAGE TO START, STRENGTH TO ENDURE, RESOLVE TO FINISH
HW 353 SW 317 Original GW 180 Current Wt 170
First 5k 59:18; 5k PR 32:06; 1st 10k 1:20:27; PR 1:08:36
1st Half Marathon 2:48
Pensacola Double Bridge Run 15k- 1:47:34
Three Sprint Triathlons
That's what we're here for, to talk things through with. To be honest, I'm more the keep things to myself kind of person. I wouldn't tell anyone I was doing it. I would just do it, then if I did great, I would brag about it. If I failed miserably, no one would know but me. So I guess I really suck at putting myself in your shoes this time. But let me give 'er a good shot. 
It sounds like this is your first Tri-athalon (Good Lord! I've always wanted to try one but that's like about 10 times more work than I can do! talk about dedicated!) and you're super-dedicated and excited. Everyone was on board but one by one, they've dropped off like flies. That really sucks. Even if they do have good reasons, it's like you're not going to have a single person waiting for your at the finish line. Not a single person to celebrate with. What about some of the people you trained with? Will you be able to celebrate with them? Because you really need someone to share this celebration with, because this really is a big accomplishment. You've spent all year preparing. And depending on how well you do, might make the difference on whether you continue to compete in them or poop out and lay around in bed next Sunday morning. Wait, just reread your message and you did say your best friend will be there. So at least you will have one person. So not the best turnout, but at least it is one. You've got the right to be disappointed, but maybe they'll be able to come the the 10k next weekend. Good luck on your first Tri!!! Robin
It sounds like this is your first Tri-athalon (Good Lord! I've always wanted to try one but that's like about 10 times more work than I can do! talk about dedicated!) and you're super-dedicated and excited. Everyone was on board but one by one, they've dropped off like flies. That really sucks. Even if they do have good reasons, it's like you're not going to have a single person waiting for your at the finish line. Not a single person to celebrate with. What about some of the people you trained with? Will you be able to celebrate with them? Because you really need someone to share this celebration with, because this really is a big accomplishment. You've spent all year preparing. And depending on how well you do, might make the difference on whether you continue to compete in them or poop out and lay around in bed next Sunday morning. Wait, just reread your message and you did say your best friend will be there. So at least you will have one person. So not the best turnout, but at least it is one. You've got the right to be disappointed, but maybe they'll be able to come the the 10k next weekend. Good luck on your first Tri!!! Robin
I guess I am not comprehending the reason you can't try. If it's your mom needs help, if no family members are available or willing there is professional home health care. My mother had altimers and we had health care at her home the last to years of her life to protect her from herself.
If it's just not possible for you to even try, you are there in spirit and like others have said, we are here for you to vent to.
If it's just not possible for you to even try, you are there in spirit and like others have said, we are here for you to vent to.
I am running my first 5k on oct 14th. For a variety of reasons I'm not sure any of my family or friends will be able to make it down. I too am a little bummed about it. I am trying to be philosophical but a little part of me feels slightly neglected :(
Well, I'm telling myself that I am doing this for ME so I will go and have an awesome time no matter what. Hope we both can revel in our personal accomplishments and enjoy the afterglow of success with our loved ones.
Congrats on a truly remarkable feat.
Andrea.
Well, I'm telling myself that I am doing this for ME so I will go and have an awesome time no matter what. Hope we both can revel in our personal accomplishments and enjoy the afterglow of success with our loved ones.
Congrats on a truly remarkable feat.
Andrea.
RNY February 2012
starting BMI 40
Remember who you are doing this for and why you are doing it. My mom went to my last sprint to watch me race but I actually spent more time hanging out with my friends before and after the race. If I remember correctly you have been training with a team right? Those are the people that will enjoy it the most, they are the ones that know how much you have put into this race. Just enjoy it!
Paul C.
First 5K 9/27/20 46:32 - 11 weeks post op (PR 28:55 8/15/11)
First 10K 7/04/2011 1:03 First 15K 9/18/2011 1:37
First Half Marathon 10/02/2011 2:27:44 (PR 2:24:35)
First Half Ironman 9/30/12 7:32:04
First 5K 9/27/20 46:32 - 11 weeks post op (PR 28:55 8/15/11)
First 10K 7/04/2011 1:03 First 15K 9/18/2011 1:37
First Half Marathon 10/02/2011 2:27:44 (PR 2:24:35)
First Half Ironman 9/30/12 7:32:04
Love getting encouragement from someone coming off a Half IM!!!
I did train with a group. The unfortunate part is I am pretty much the most introverted, shy person who ever has ventured out to do such a big crowd training lol. I met nobody. Eyes focused, train hard, go home. Backfired.
I'll have fun... and I will love reporting back to my friends and family because I do believe they are interested. And I WILL purchase the professional photo of me crossing the finish line!! LOL
I did train with a group. The unfortunate part is I am pretty much the most introverted, shy person who ever has ventured out to do such a big crowd training lol. I met nobody. Eyes focused, train hard, go home. Backfired.
I'll have fun... and I will love reporting back to my friends and family because I do believe they are interested. And I WILL purchase the professional photo of me crossing the finish line!! LOL
I can understand. When I did my first presentation at a professional counseling conference, there were several people who intended to be there to hear it, including the counselor I had been seeing for a number of years following my assault (and the topic was related to counseling sexual assault clients). Same situation as yours... legitimate issues came up and no one I knew was able to come. Like you, I felt like I had to put on a "brave" face and tell them it was ok (and hide my deep disappointment), and that I understood (which I did).
It is understandable that you would be disappointed that no one will be there to support you when you have worked so hard. You will still have a great sense of accomplishment, though, and I know those that cannot be there will want to hear all about it afterward.
Lora
It is understandable that you would be disappointed that no one will be there to support you when you have worked so hard. You will still have a great sense of accomplishment, though, and I know those that cannot be there will want to hear all about it afterward.
Lora
14 years out; 190 pounds lost, 165 pound loss maintained
You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.
Thanks! I really am disappointed my trainer can't go.... but in another way it takes some pressure off. I was so worried about disappointing her (yes, working on that with my counselor! :) ).
I am hoping my friend might use my dad's camera to video teh finish line for my mom, I think she would like that!
I am hoping my friend might use my dad's camera to video teh finish line for my mom, I think she would like that!
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