My brain is broken and my body too......

I'm not on here myself very often!! I just don't have the time. When I take the time, my work suffers!! But I will tell you this I miss you.  You have been very helpful to me.  I'm only 4 months out and when I first started, you were such a great help!!
Welcome back!!! 

Thank you!! 

Hugs, hon.

I get the needing to gain and although you know it was needed and you look great with some weight on emotionally/mentally seeing a bigger number plays with the fear of years gone by.

Hang in there, Martha.

I finally don't look like a bag of bones!! BUT, I do see THIGHS.....my bad spot. I know that they look twice as big to me as they are, and that is what bothers me the most. Maybe that will go away in time. On a more positive note, my skin doesn't hang so much, LOL!!

Thanks for the hug......

I'm so glad you're back. I miss reading your posts. I really do think this is one of the best places to come to for support. So many people with great advice. Thanks for coming back!

You are awesome Dee. I'll bet you are (almost) always smiling. Well, that's the way I see you anyway. I am glad to be back.

Martha 

Well, you got a pretty accurate vision if me. I am almost always smiling. No point in being all grumpy, right? Anyways, I am truly happy you're back. We've missed you!

((Martha)).  I am glad to hear that you are back at a weight that is healthier for you, but I am so sorry to hear of the injuries and the suffering they have been causing you for so long.  Isn't it amazing how messed up our brains get about size (no matter WHAT size we are)?!?  It shouldn't take long, though, for your brain to get used to the size 4 version of you instead of the size 2 version.  Please be assured that we care about you no matter whether you are a size 2, 4, or 24!

I can absolutely understand how you are feeling about the disability application process.  I know how difficult it can be when you reach a  point where you have to fully accept the reality of the permanence of a situation.  I can only imagine how much more difficult and depressing it is since you went to such great lengths to get the weight off, expecting that it would help.  

I am VERY glad to see you back!  

Lora

Thanks Lora, I FEEL healthier and I know that I look better too. Thus, the broken brain.....yeeeesh! I know that a 4 is still very small, but non the less it feels big after being underweight for so long. I think that I'm spending more time looking at my reflection now than I did when I was loosing, haha!

I am really glad to be back and the caring of the members of this forum are amazing, as always.

Martha 

Remember I live only minutes away if you need help with anything!! I have been through this process with my daughter (MS diagnosis at age 18) and would be glad to lend you another set of eyes or hand if yours is numb.
I had to have my gallbladder removed on Tuesday, so I won't be working for a couple of weeks. A perfect opportunity to meet in person for coffee!!
Let me know.... I will PM you my number.
Karen